I worry a lot that my ability to really connect with others is completely shot now that I've been through so much trauma and disappointment related to those things. Expressing myself fully simply doesn't feel normal to me anymore and it's been bothering me for a while now

was never a big fan of art takes that amount to "(x) group are fundamentally incapable of depicting (y) thing correctly or respectfully" There's plenty of bad art but not everything comes from a bad place, that's a reductive thought process to have. it makes you hate shit before even looking at it

It's always eaten me up inside to think that the internet is what it is now. Just a toxic space where everybody hates everybody, when much earlier in my life, I had gotten into using it because I wanted to connect with people who were different from me to begin with. Shit just sucks now

I'm still happy I managed to get all the platinums in this game. If you're wondering why I'm on NTCS-J, it was so I could play a version where the secret level times load correctly. Also I ran into a bug where I was able to do the second cortex fight when I was still missing one gem

I saw everyone doing 3x3s of games and I considered doing one too but I can't narrow faves that far down so have a 5x5. I did this a few years ago but this one's changed up a little. I just went for what represents my tastes. 25 games that changed my brain chemistry

I always wanted to make a sort of journal comic about my problems because it could help my expression and generally be fun but doing so would involve so many deeply personal things for me that sharing it on social media might be dangerous with how hostile audiences can be and that's a shame

It still doesn't feel real

Sometimes it helps to appreciate the life you have and the little things that make it worth living. Whether life is sweet or sour. Those things can make you smile!

I don't know exactly why but watching other people completely deify artists lowkey gets on my nerves a little bit and in the worst cases it's made me not want to engage with their work even if I know I'd otherwise very interested in it. Maybe I only think like this because I'm a loser myself

scanning a pencil sketch to edit digitally in case you fuck up inking is the traditional art equivalent of saving your CSP file in case your computer crashes

Lifted the sheet right from Twitter but either way I'm gonna accept comms for a while. Hit me up in DMs if you're interested.

Always wondering if I'm trying to do designs I haven't worked on in a long time if it's better to go back and touch up old sketches I already like or just work on new drawings from scratch

I'm an awful writer and I feel bad about it so it keeps me from sharing stuff I do make. I still need to get past the idea of having to be perfect at everything the first time.

I had way too much to drink last night now my stomach hurts and my balance is off but I'm still going to work knowing I'm gonna feel like Goku with the heart virus

debating drawing some valentine's day cope fellas I'm never in a good way in february anymore

If it were to be possible for anyone to help within their reach and without putting themselves in risk, any donations to Ko-fi would be truly appreciated and of immense help. The ko-fi being ko-fi.com/brickshoes

depending on the game, I would agree Though not even the worst filters I've seen look quite like that. It really depends. It doesn't matter for most games for me but anything that uses pre rendered graphics, for example, I will at least use a filter I just like seeing what changes between setups

Looking for Saturn games to play...........

Trying to draw at night is kind of painful. But that's on me. I'm trying to do something that requires immense focus after spending all my energy already. I noticed at some point that I really do just find this stuff easier in the morning when I'm more relaxed. I can actually think then

Been thinking about fuckin FusionFall of all things today I missed out when I was 10 purely because I wasn't sure my PC would run it and I never did get a decent computer until I was 18 Many of the character designs in that game were fire though

I swear restaurants seriously need to STOP sealing their plastic containers with fucking staples. Every single time I try to handle those packages, I end up hurting myself. It always ends with me getting pricked at some point

I need to start experimenting again. Now I'm going through the kind of art block that's going to make me really anxious until I manage to work on something fun. But I keep getting stuck at figuring out poses.

I feel like after spending so many months feeling creatively dead that now I have to re-learn a lot of things so it's going to be slow for a long time, I fear. It really sucks because I wanted to work more on writing. I can't offer much but I really want to bounce ideas off someone right about now

how I feel every time I encounter JRPG slander online made by someone that doesn't know what they're talking about or clearly just hates the genre because they've been told to or believe they have to hate it because they enjoy western games and are writing off anything adjacent to anime because ????

drawing update is nice

part of a doodle sheet I was doing trying to design a character

I know I seem negative all the time but I swear if you just talked to me casually I'm not so bad once I relax

Always hard to deal with inserting myself into a group and not feeling like I belong because I'm not interesting enough. Like not being well traveled or smart enough or doing enough artistically and therefore having a completely worthless perspective on whatever's being discussed

I'm sorry you guys but god I really love snow

always totally nice and not at all mindbreaking to log in to social media and see the newest anime discourse and witness half the people in your own hobby reminding you passively that people like you in their view are still nothing to them but the dirt underneath their fingernails

I never put this whole sheet on here did I I liked these designs and want to do more exploration eventually

I'm so rusty with this stuff after drawing really inconsistently but What's the best kind of thing to draw when trying to do some fun interactions? What's a good way to think about it?

Conmission

How my current playthrough of SMTV Vengeance is going

Almost ready to share something cool. Soon... #ttrpg #solorpg