I think this is still one of my favorite spots to chill and think about stuff. #vrchat #vr

who the fuck tries giving "hints" instead of just answer simple questions directly? If you want me to do something, and I ask you directly just fucking answer me why is that so hard? "hints" lead to misunderstandings, misunderstandings lead to fights. AAAAAAA

im gunna keep myself awake. Getting myself all worked up and anxious with my own paranoia sure is a tactic... stupid ass brain.

im probably just being impatient and paranoid but, I got a job offer on friday. I sent in my acceptance reply pretty much right away and still haven't heard back.

I need someone who makes an absurd amount of money who just wants someone to build incredibly crazy random stuff for them to just... pay me to do that. That would be cool.

Idk why this picture sparks joy for me.

I am often lonely, I don't really understand how to easily connect with people, and those I do are more amazing people than myself and are always busy. Well. At least there are still stars in the sky, and interesting places to visit.

i dunno what any of this is. But im hungry : (

that's a tiny light house

Seeing grown men run in fear of Fucking geese makes me laugh. They have hollow bones people. You don't, deck that mother fucker if it gets aggressive. I mean Don't if you can avoid it because that's fucked but if its attacking you yeah...You are an Apex predator fucking act like one.

got turned down for a job after 2 interviews the second one being told i'm the most likely candidate (not sure how true that is but whatever) was at least called back to tell me i didn't get the job and told because the manager i would have worked under thought i "didn't match the company vibes"

Some of ya'll don't know the difference between sentience and sapience and it shows.

my favorite thing about root beer floats. When the rootbeer freezes on the outside of the icecream and you get to eat some nice rootbeer ice and ice cream at the same time.

I use to be upset when people thought I was stupid. I know I'm not, I'm just simple and feel no need to act beyond what I do. These days, I'm thankful when people underestimate me. I don't like people who barely know me having expectations of me. It's just easier when they think I'm dumb.

I haven't been on vrc in a minute. Don't really have anyone to hang out with right now, Not having the drive to deal with 1 or 2 people at a time sure can be a bummer sometimes.

Chat help.

i should post more.

I'm cooler than you.

It's a little late, I had a day i social media is rarely on my mind but Blessed Yule, and Merry Christmas everyone.

Is this normal or am i weird that I can never sleep the night before a flight. Like im tired, i know i should sleep but i literally just cannot fall asleep.

I guess I can find a place I can fit if I look hard enough. I just wish it wasn't so high up. I'm not panicking internally or anything.

I might be a little big. Not many places fit me properly. Specially not here~

im so tired of my fucking brain, the lack of dopamine i receive from anything of importance, and how hard it is to work on things I genuinely want to because brain doesn't feel good doing it. I fucking hate ADHD

I have been struggling to function as a person lately. My productivity is absolutely horrible right now. My brain just wants to socialize which im not doing really either. So im feeling horrible on 2 fronts.

Im going to Inflict a curse on any of you who read this post. Go watch Big Order. That anime would have shattered my grasp on reality and gas light me into insanity if I wasn't already there.

If feels so awful to me right now that I feel so shitty about some personal things while the world is burning around us. It just doesn't feel right to have personal issues right now.

wake up today, My cats being super affectionate. My phones not charged. The duality of emotions im feeling is already exhausting me.

Ya'll ever have one of those days were literally everything is funny and you wanna make terrible jokes but you are also in a super serious environment actively trying to get a contract with the county and don't wanna be fired?

The battlefield Heroes theme is perpetually stuck in the dark recesses of my mind but More so lately I keep finding myself whistling it randomly. Send help.

I would need to eat somewhere around 64,000,000,000 spiders to make the statistic that we eat 8 spiders a year on average true.

I just realized I never added anything to my profile. I think I just assumed I did and never checked. I am not very intelligent.

Sometimes I feel like a feral cat that hasn't been socialized properly.

Is it just me or do youtube content creators not know what the fucking word 'secret' means? I swear to god almost every video I see of any new game lately is like "x secrets you need to know about this game" and its all stuff the game teaches you outright or leads you right too it.

i died

Had a little pride flag pinned to my hat at work today (i work for family everyone knows im gay) We have a new sellsman who doesn't... Getting "you don't look gay" is still one of my favorite things. I still dont know what "looking gay" really means.

I just spent an hour recording some stuff with some friends for a project. None of the video part of the recording worked. Im frustrated right now but I know it wont take that long to re record what we wanted it was mostly just us figuring things out.

I don't know who needs to hear this right now but. Hey jack ass just because you don't like something doesn't mean its not art. Art is subjective. Being an asshole isn't.

Insomnia has been killing me the last few nights, Im overthinking way to much i fear.

The idea of hurting someone because I mistook constant bad timing and coincidences scares me so bad. I can't be the only person who feels and experiences this. Please just tell me if you dont want me around Being hurt but having closure for it is way better than just constantly being hurt.

Like yeah I could just stop trying to be a friend who actively cares about people and stop trying but like... what if im wrong? Im probably not but what if their not lying too me and its just constant bad timing or things keep coming up?

Like damn, I get it maybe at some point you did want to spend time with me but I can't be the only person who becomes incredibly aware when someones behavior toward you changes so much. Im slow not stupid. It just feels mean to keep lying to me.

I don't know if its cause i'm dumb. But i cant at all understand why you would tell someone you want to spend time with them (when you don't) just so you have to constantly lie to avoid it. Just tell me you hate me so we can both stop this fucking charade.

The less I drink soda the harder it is to drink. Thats probably a good thing.

Why am I suddenly being shown a bunch of AI art accounts? eww.

Hey... Make it good friends.

Google AI straight up lying to me.

Ive come to realize I am HORRIBLE at seeing details of monsters/enemies in games. I usually only really see Silhouettes of what im fighting or shooting at. Its not that I cant see details... I can. I just dont find it necessary most of the time so I dont do it.

I seem to develop attachments to people way to easily, Its awful and I hate it. I hate even more how poorly I seem to be able to read how someone actually feels about me. When I think Ive become close to someone only to learn they really only tolerate me happens way to often.

Im convinced County Office workers don't even know what their jobs are. Trying to get a permit today (something I do almost daily for work) and... I received an email from the county building permit office... that i needed to email the county building permit office... who I had already emailed.