I try to #embrace my faults too many to mention as I walk this path through life one step after another it's unusually warm here just now the heatwave continues making it difficult to sleep we have the windows open at night but the noise of a passing car disturbs us you can't win #vss365

I gave her the #rose of my heart all those years ago before I fell into the pit and when I came out I wasn't the same she left the rose withered she didn't come back the years passed year after year I knew where she lived but I didn't feel like calling or writing or anything really #vss365

I've had my fair share of of fun and #frolic from an early age of doctors and nurses postman's knock and so on but now I have my beloved there's no need of childish games #vss365

I used to have a poster as a student depicting #defiance a knight on horseback turning to fight a horde of warriors but reality is never like that I've died the coward's death many times #vss365

#revealing watch and pray reveali watch and pray reveal watch and pray revea watch and pray and so on eyes what you see ears what you hear nose what you smell tongue what you taste hands what you touch but the mind is in involved in all weaving its web of lies watch and pray pray watch #vss365

I suppose I can do #tenderly touching hands as we walk brushing your hair with my hand as I pass making breakfast the porridge has to be just right and the coffee not too string I suppose I can do tenderly just #vss365

I'm not sure if I've ever #swooned but in my early teens I would get love sick crush after crush it was in my stomach taking my breath away my heart racing it was embarrassing but part of life maybe that's a swoon after all my love was usually not reciprocated those tortuous years #vss365

I hope I've never been described as #supercilious but I have distant memories of being slightly full of myself especially when young I look back and hardly recognise the man I was yet it was me at that time I pray I wasn't too arrogant #vss365

what makes poetry #stunning rhythm choice of words the music of it being read aloud the expression of feelings in a controlled way and so on This is the light of the mind, cold and planetary Sylvia Plath The trees of the mind are black The light is blue I write her words and feel ... #vss365

I remember an #appraisal meeting many years ago turning up at my manager's office sitting down and telling her I had shingles hm she said should you really be here It's not infectious I said in the normal way I could see her Googling you're ok she said let's make it short yes I said #vss365

I've know a few #florid people most of them now not here now and yet some say it's a sign of health I usually associate it with heart trouble #vss365

our defeated lay as #carrion corpses fetid waiting for the dogs to come soldiers no more their fight was over the heat seeking drones had overwhelmed us we lay in Command1 knowing that the invaders would be coming soon mounted on their robotic annihilators and would finish us strength #vss365

I've been looking after the puppy puppy beagle cute but grumpy #disgruntled bitey bitey no sharp little teeth he chews everything bitey bitey no look my hand watch out bitey bitey no tv remote tissues in my pocket bitey bitey no iphone charging watch shirt bitey bitey no sleep yes yes #vss365

I grew up on a farm as I've often said #fleas were common if you worked with the dogs or livestock sheep cattle he would often bring fleas back and then they end up in his bed I always remember my Dad would hunt the flea down until he found the little fella and then it would be ... #vss365

I try not to be the #villain of the piece always trying to sew positive vibes but sometimes it's hard before you know it someone has pushed your buttons shopping driving in the home church and something just snaps and out comes that barb cutting deep you've said it it's done done #vss365

I'm looking after a puppy just now if I had a #grain of doggy sense it would be an easy job the weather is so hot it's making him quite crabbit but he's only seven weeks old his whole life ahead of him he understands basic commands off sit he just suddenly falls asleep like now #vss365

when I look back at my youth I could certainly #pull but it was all just a mirage built on an empty ethos and values in my heart I was unhappy yet it seemed happiness my castle crashed I don't talk about it much the rebuilding of my life pursuing a different purpose re-examining all #vss365

#lurch me too I stumble my balance is shot we're down South for a week and it's so hot here 35C 36C too warm you can't breath lurch me too falling down drinking water every five minutes lurch me too windows open in car ac on still too hot puppy bit me today we don't do tetanus now doc said #vss365

some think the word #defenstrate comes from an incident in Prague Castle in 1618 throwing someone out a window starting the 30 year war and even 200 years earlier starting the Hussite War de down fenestra the window I jumped out a window as a laugh when a student I almost broke #vss365

did I tell you about the #batch of rock buns I made for the Church Coffee Morning I thought they were great but one of the ladies of the Church spoke to me afterwards maybe you should leave baking to the Church Ladies oh I said they weren't any good were they she didn't say anything #vss365

some people pay hundreds of pounds for a good #putter an essential for your golf bag when I was young I had clubs made by a professional locally but I found golf too nerve racking the ball would either hook or slice when hit putting though stressed me out you would calculate then oops #vss365

#undo I just wrote something undo it was some of my best writing it was a science fiction novel about the planet x24 gamma and the aliens undo this is ridiculous it's like Tourette no undo it's getting me down undo undo no nothing -1 undo pi squared 3.1462 times 3.1462 it's mad undo undo #vss365

#clench relax the universe is heading for the clench the scientists know it humanity is heading for the clench we all know it you drink all night the clench is coming tomorrow morning I'm writing just now but I know it's coming she loves me just now but... #vss365

many years ago I decided m write a #novel but then I remembered I wasn't much good at English more of a science guy chemistry maths that type of thing no I wasn't much good at English my teacher told me the novel never got written I prefer to read talented writers than write #vss365

demon monster devil #fiend cruel malicious brutal fiend monster beast brutal fiend I don't think I've ever met one but there is something inside me screaming let me out we are the monsters don't you see everywhere everything we destroy #vss365

when I was young he gave me the #gift courage he said with strength the nightmare came like a tsunami a wild dream just before forewarned me of a force thousands of suns strong I fell dying the gift kept me going year after year it reminded me of a better way to live it was the jewel #vss365

many of my relationships could be considered #distant my cousins I don't see that often it's the fashion now not to send Christmas Cards I always send them writing a little note on each one now prayer we pray but God often feels distant I pray watch pray watch what I say watch pray #vss365

I think it was Hamlet that the word #quietus was used famously to be or not to be ... for who could bear the whips and scorns of time when he himself might his quietus make ... not that I really know Shakespeare but there is a great rhythm to his words Hillary looked at me twat she said #vss365

I've had an all #consuming tiredness today maybe I should start running again #vss365

can love become all #consuming I watch and pray that new car looks great I watch and pray I'm just about to have another chocolate bar I watch and pray I'll get her back for what she did to me I watch and pray my pulse rate has just shot up I watch and pray it never ends this cycle does it #vss365

I ate the #forbidden only myself to blame I ate it chewed it and swallowed it only myself to blame it came unto me and caused me concern only myself to blame I was never quite the same after that visions chanting seeing reality only myself to blame they left me my friends my love #vss365

give thanks for each new #dawn all creatures above below a bee I found this morning on the breakfast bar barely alive I carried it out to a flower as the sun was out it sucked the dew and I looked at it's strange eyes maybe it was dying it seemed happy it stayed there for an hour or more #vss365

I looked up how to make a #deadfall trap in the event of some holocaust coming and the local supermarket being shut however although I grew up with guns and shooting things I now have an aversion to it I can't imagine wanting to trap anything so the deadfall trap is out that's me over out #vss365

I think of my #mother often how she was my greatest champion a great cook especially baker and sewer her illness came suddenly not able to breathe properly an aneurysm had grown too big we had a week with her prognosis terminal her ashes are still in the lounge cupboard on the top shelf #vss365

I suffer from a sort of anxiety disorder that creates #horror scenarios in my mind I'm out in a wood then suddenly a falling tree comes into my head and I'm under the tree I'm in a supermarket and suddenly tins flying of the shelves smashing against me comes into my head and so it goes #vss365

I've had recurring dream #falling what does it mean I asked my shrink do you feel you're losing control she said no do you feel you're losing insecure she said no are you feeling vulnerable she said no she paused and thought for a few minutes do you think maybe you need a new bed yes #vss365

would you like to live for #evermore think about all our flaws evermore I don't fancy it I eat too much I binge watch tv series evermore I don't fancy it I leave a mess wherever I go I'm just untidy evermore I just don't fancy it I'm not good a diy I'm trying to learn Spanish evermore no #vss365

the recent elections have been a #victory for democracy and yet there was less than a 50% turnout so what does it represent it's not democracy but something lesser the non voters have it the people have lost faith in politics politicians community country world #vss365

I sometimes feel like a #gamble but then again no what would I do with a huge lottery win no doubt I could do something but I'd feel guilty I'm sure those billionaires and millionaires don't feel guilt or those that have inherited fortunes then I think I'm quite happy in my own way #vss365

I am heading towards #midnight I have had love houses money cars success failure illness health medals prizes I've had it all and yet it's when I sit in quiet contemplation that I realise it's meaningless so I take a deep breath then I breathe out and count 1 in out then count 2 and so on #vss365

I sometimes wonder is human kind reverting back to #primitive the way we are going the powerful bullying the weak for their resources community people country I suppose its always been that we we multiply exponentially bigger more feed me please the pie only has so much to give #vss365

oh to see life through a child's eyes how #wondrous it would be those bright colours the joy of simple things #vss365

I am happy now i've pieced together the #remnants of my heart I've been so lucky to find love again I found her in the stillness in the gap between the in breath and the out breath she offered to make me a cup of tea such kindness is hard to find so we had a cup of tea and that was it #vss365

the #rift between myself and my ex-wife developed subtlety over time little things then bigger so I filed for divorce which shocked her and me It was never meant to end like that I've reflected over the years and then she got ill died you never get that chance to talk again not here now #vss365

can you explain #gravity to me Hillary you being the Head Girl top in almost all things she looked at me in that strange way she does Newton or Einstein she said I had no idea what she was talking about I just knew I liked to be around her her eyes deepest blue her perfume hung in the air #vss365

wink wink this happened to me recently what does this #signal mean I have no idea wink wink what does this #signal mean I couldn't believe it when it happened being something of a dinosaur it made me think about human interactions and how we talk with our bodies raising eyebrows #vss365

I felt depressed I'd written an article for the School Magazine entitled my love of the #crevasse alluding to my walking trips again it had been rejected I decided to have it out with Hillary the editor I've submitted many articles this month and none published they're crap! she said #vss365

there is a paradox in the day of #judgement because judge and you will be judged paradox upon paradox our lives are full of these is there anything that is really true the sun goes up the sun goes down I am alive just now but tomorrow I may be dead I was eating a sandwich then choke.. #vss365

I remember learning to swim it was difficult at first #immersing my head in the water but then my best friend's mother took me in hand in the icy waters of an outdoor pool she was a champion instructor and before long I could swim I never forgot her kindness she's gone now but kindly #vss365

I was #tethered digitally to my spacecraft unable to break free it had been set to some sort of autopilot and I was unsure of the purpose of the mission the speed seemed to be increasing at last the Cloud Hive appeared and I knew instinctively my playbook the weapons began to arm and... #vss365