"We need more of this on the internet..." Thank you @esfandtv.bsky.social for the sub. Merry Xmas to you too! 💚

We're doing a Communi-Tea Pop-up Special - A fesTEAve Dono-Thon! (Plus personal incentives!) Donations will help me catch up on urgent bills due on the first, from being in hospital treatment for 3 mos for my mental health. Thank you for your generosity and considering me this holiday season 💚

Not me trying to show up for therapy at my mentally best

It's okay if you need to crash out. The breakdown is needed before the breakthrough. 💚

It's 1:30am and I'm still processing and overwhelmed at the Communi-Tea's feedback for my comeback stream after being away for so long. Hearing how much yall needed it, and how many of you guys were upset you missed it... I'm so happy I make a difference. I love what I do💚

Someone please follow me on twitch, I'm at one cursed number, someone's gonna be the number that comes after 66..... and I just need to get over that hill please twitch.tv/teawithadri

Had my first individual therapy appointment yesterday, and just got out my new psychiatrist appointment, and man… after all these years of trying both, I *finally* feel like I’m in good hands. 💚

Wrote an incredibly angry (professional) complaint email. “What else is falling through the cracks, including harmful incidences that aren't being reported, simply because mental health patients don't have the resources, means, or mental capacity to advocate for themselves?” My reward boba tea.

How to unmask and become your authentic self: 1. Unlearn who you think you have to be 2. Rebuild from who you actually are 💚

"When you treat worry as a danger that must be stopped or avoided, it’s as if your compass is showing north when you’re facing south. If you have a compass that’s off by 180 degrees, you can still find your way home as long as you remember that you need to go in the opposite direction."

Your mind isn't the only thing that Knows. Your body also holds Knowing. It learns from sensory and metaphysical input that our brains haven't caught up to yet. We call this, our body's inner knowing, "intuition". If something "feels off", trust your inner knowing. 💚

If this found you, you are not angry enough about your current situation. Allow yourself to get angry, behave wisely, and things will change.

Mom helped me cut my hair today. It was very bittersweet. She hasn't cut my hair in years, and don't know how many cuts I'll get with her at her age. But mostly, I can't manage it long anymore with my mental health. So cutting it short felt a lot like grieving.

The world you were raised to survive in no longer exists.. Give yourself credit for trying, and doing your best under circumstances you don't know. You're learning for the first time. 💚

Good morning lovely humans. Make today a great day, or not. The choice is yours. 💚

Your body isn't trying to fight Against you. It is fighting For you. 💚

“Your brain isn’t wired for happiness. It’s wired for survival”… The nuance though is that we Are wired to feel ALL emotions. They’re a survival technique too, if we can hear what they’re telling us. But, we are not Entitled to happiness. It is just a benefit of being here 💚

Gaslighting myself into believing I'm excited to starting PHP in the morning. Hospital said I'm medication resistant, so I'm really hoping to do everything in my power to live as fulfilling and functional of a life as I am able. 💚

An Analysis of the Rise of Popularity in Simulator Games as a Result of the Increase of Systematic Economic Hardships, Causing a Generation Raised and Equipped With the Impressions of Livable Financial Stability, To Cope by Creating Illusions of Dreams And Everyday Aspirations.

Ever heard of Mindful Gaming? A thread/conversion worth reading! 💚 #mentalhealth

With the recent engagement announcement and everything… is now a good time to talk about parasocial relationships? 😅

My algorithm here is full of n3ws and p0l1tics, it’s not even my selected interests and I’ve been muting words for days. Please comment on this post of you’re a motivational page, poetry page, inspirational quotes, photographer, nature, artist, positive mental health page… Will follow some of you 💚

Others: Just call and make the appointment, it's not that hard Me, a chronically ill, just got out of urgent care, neurodivergent person with panic disorder: *Takes 6 calls and 50 minutes to schedule one neurology appointment.*

My niece (now 1yr 1 mo) gave me her version of a kiss for the first time today 🥺💚 But then right after she reached for my food so it was bribery😒

Doctor in urgent care: Has there been anything that’s been stressing you out recently? Me: HA, life. Doctor: Yeahhh that’s everyone… I guess that’s settled then, next question!

You are more loved than you realize.

I’m so tired and fed up with the struggles that make daily living hard, or impossible. When I constantly can’t stream, drive, go out into public. Invisible disabilities are SO hard. But I feel so undeserving to have such loving people around me wanting to help pick up the pieces when I’m unable to.

Daily bunny no.3039 spills the tea

Word of the Day: Faustian - Perfect for describing a circumstance in which a person compromises their beliefs or morals in order to achieve some kind of success. According to medieval legend, Faust made a contract with the D3vil, exchanging his soul for unlimited knowledge and worldly pleasures.

Today's tea: I tried every sunflower seed flavor so you don't have to (but still should) 🍵 SMACKIN Sunflower Seeds edition 🌻

Usually when I finish something I just feel relieved from the dread rather than feel accomplishment. But this time I'm SO happy. Took me an embarrassing amount of hours over 4 days to learn to create and edit, but I just uploaded my first "official" YouTube video... Sharing later today 💚

I've never seen someone freak out so badly at a horror game like Caseoh here... As someone who has Panic Disorder and PTSD, is it weird that I felt understood by this game? Constant nightmares, trying to force yourself awake, never feeling you have full control over your body...

The ebbs and flows and seasons of PTSD on top of Panic Disorder are so hard. The contrast of the now vs the past both alive at once are so exhausting to navigate. Really trying my best to keep my morale and stay consistent, and appreciate those who allow me grace when I’m not 💚

A full week of birthday celebrations... I didn't even plan for this LOL. Third time making Milestones!! All the literal tears and laughter, games and giveaways, and SO MUCH LOVE wow. 💚 It's the DINO-THON FINALE TONIGHT at 6:30 CST! 🦖 twitch.tv/teawithadri

We're still going DAY 3 rn! Helppppp twitch.tv/teawithadri

You guys told me to go big or go home... Updated Goals for my Tea-Rex Birthday Dino-a-thon + Legacy Milestones! See you tonight at 6:30 CST for Part 2! 💚 twitch.tv/teawithadri

Snail Sim is 80% off / $0.99 USD!! snailsim.com

Using my birthday today as an excuse to be a Tea-Rex nbd 🍵🦖 The par-tea begins tonight at 6:30 CST!! 💚 twitch.tv/teawithadri

Chat is speaking on my behalf in our open Mental Health / Life advice Q&A... I don't have an answer to my problem yet.

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The only people that are randomly aggressive against Whataburger are from Cali, I'm pretty sure the hate isn't just about burgers, prove me wrong

Hey so if the body could NOT keep the score or remember, that’d be great.

I'm starting to believe there are three categories of streamers: all lowercase, ALL UPERCASE, and Title Case. Which one are you? I have energy of upper and title but mostly title 😅

I had time blindness tonight, I didn't want to leave! Watched your giveaway tea videos, had social anxiety (ofc), opened a boba shop, played pictionary, aced the music crossword, got a visit from gary... 🥺 Idk how we did so much more than even that in such a short time together. Tysm Communi-Tea 💚

Backseating = Giving answers on a test or telling them directly what to do is considered cheating. Not backseating = Giving guidance like a tutor/proctor that gives direction while they do the work to figure out the answer for themselves. Be the latter, unless the streamer asks for answers!

An ADHD indie horror game where you have an objective, but while doing it, it switches to a new one, and the monsters are the inner critic and ppl telling you you're just lazy for not getting obj 1 done, and the cycle continues for 3hrs of gameplay until it circles back to obj 1 and you win the game

After 30+ hrs of a fire alarm going off in the distance and having a full meltdown, I finally called the front desk. No one had called until me... They turned it off within 20mins, but 12hrs later my perfect pitch and neurodivergent self still “hears” it.. Is this psychological trauma? 🫠

I should express how much I enjoy the Communi-Tea more often. First run of Hot Take Tuesday: Dating Edition was SO much fun tonight!! We'll have to do it again!! Thank you guys 💚

I've noticed a bunch of IRL streamers not wearing their seatbelts correctly or at all. Is this normal or for the views? Cuz my Texas self wouldn't DARE

I know this may not seem like much, but there was a time where I couldn’t be in the kitchen without being short of breath after 10mins with Panic Disorder. Tonight I made 2 trays of chicken wings, cubed & sliced sweet potatoes to freeze, and made these croutons from old bread. I’m so proud of myself