it'll be soooo goodddd to sleep eventually imagine i can actually stay in a warm bed for hours on end and not randomly wake up because of a random noise,,

hey girl do you wanna watch petscop videos until 5am and the sun comes up and cracks through the window in a show of light reflecting off the snow that moment being a show of reflective beauty in that big bedroom window next to the modded xbox one on the old dashboard to make you you???

i think my brain has been poisoned to think what i want isn't real or obtainable,,

my ticket is valid i'm just faking my certificate the contents are fine i'm just not the right thing to have them!!

can bet these subreplies wont get replies on the dollar bill on a apple tree,,

little hint to make me go into silly mode and back on course, make me talk about the odd amount of gpu's i have and the odd reasons why i have them??

I simply won't be I feel I just won't be it it's impossible it's imgrapesable..

ocd turns you into rattman from portal but if he wasn't manic I see so many connections and it drives me up the wall,,

i wanna communicate with the youtube algorithm let me talk it out!!!

comforting someone with a cold is life goallsss i just realizedd,,

account is fucking beautiful i fucking love that account

mentally exhausted but simultainously full of things to tell a non existant therapist what could help

no more

i am deprived of love joy and compassion

back to nothing i suppose t

need to unplug my brain from the moral coil jerma made me feel like shit for hours and nobody will love me again after i killed everyone good night fellow humidifiers and

all the channels are negativee i wanna watch funny game awards and vibeee in vcccc,,,

a short film about someone finding who they need to talk to in a socially forbidden mmo,,

game about girl who thinks she's not cool enough to be an animal who slowly starts growing wings and paws and realizes she's self sufficient and just "kinda okay with this",,

everyone is in their friendgroups for tga and i have to be in the solo booth!!! darg abbit..

wonder what would happen if there was a authority that checked how applicable your company name is to your current identity and changed it if you failed some test,,

i feel like the other bluesky posts below me are gonna become alive and even though this is my algorithm they're gonna start punching me for my posts not being "correct",,

"wow so you have nobody to talk with about all of this" says the imaginary strawman looking at my discord status in my head i want to talk about the sensory inherent parts of how my cat brain reacts to storms i feel alone if that isn't met but i've not met anybody who does that yet,,

discord status is like an imaginary wishing well for my thoughts,, it feels superstitious saying stuff there almost??

"the animalspeak commas look like they're dripping off the side of your sentence!!"

i have an odd vod-dissasociation thing where i've been watching so many it doesn't feel like livestreams are happening in the present moment?? i want someone to make me feel time againnn,,,

kinda forget sometimess that being in a friendgroup isn't directly influenced by my actionss???

my brain goop is an uncontrolled substance,,

"failing at fun videogame tricks because i have bad brain but i distract you with the coolest visual distractions to prevent you from leaving",,

kinda came to the conclusion with this and a lot of things but i'm less motivated to even begin learning art because I cannot be honest without being an adult + seeing art I can only see then will fuel my brain to make a more cohesive picture,, (a lot of artists are 18+ and don't make THAT)

working out the faded lanes of my head and redescovering all the joyous things I keep stuck up there will be an experience like no other if it comes to pass,, someone ENGAGING with me talking with me I love a non viewable character in a vr game PLEASE let me speak about itt,,

saying this to someone who isn't there: "can you IMAGINE the vibe of playing battleblock theater in a cosy steamvr environment on the frame?? it would be soo cool/vibey,,,"

yeah i have been vastly more mentally unstable and the fact it's been like this 2 days in a row with a clear cause tells me it's what i think it iss,,,

okay lets watch some movies that suick protectm e fucking please fucking protect me dont fucking forget me keep forginggh,h,fg

what if there was a women to play battleblock theater with,, comfortable lesbian friend girl who knwos nothjing of php or computers or code or anything none of these things ratedm,m

;pve these fuckig things it''s so cool,,

look at these things look at them :-3 look at themmmmm,,

i could be lying? i forget what today earlier hpapens right family guy reset timeline everyone's normal i'm misremembering right>?

unfair i'm being unfair being unfair to traumatized adults i understand their place i understand all of the places i understand all of this can i please stop saying this i feel like shit,,

newmaker couldn't "unmask" why am i different,,

adults are actively suffocating me and some don't even have me on their friends list,,

www.youtube.com/watch?v=gqTq... flunct land video game out and i thought of this..

is the so called video in the room with us? is the video in the room so called with us? is the so called room in the video with us? is the called so room video in the room video? is the room int he video with us> is the so called room with us?

it feels a bit like i'm a puzzle piece in reality that doesn't have a spot but there was one at some point planned for me but it's eta kept getting delayed,,

cry it out let me cry it out let me cry it out on your lap i need to cry it out on your lap

my gallapagos brain has been infected with what others speak like further complicating my wants, i remembered how to speak to myself properly like a year ago and it's a bit hard for me to do that noww?? i realize this makes show others what i want much harder considering only my brain knows,,

cold and warm

kill killll killllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll,,,,, huamanssss algorithm brain souldh lep,,

i think sometimes my brain will look up something expecting to see a pattern repeated and it makes ocd want to make an alt account that's completely against my values and complete that pattern,,

the numbers don't make sense in various different ways????