man i cant take this shit anymore *blows my head smooth off, but it grows back as i shed my skin like a cocoon and become a beautiful bug lady* ohhhhhhhhhhhh ffuckkkkk what the hellllll

already not doing great cause of family situation and now i have to do a group project for my college class i literally do not have the energy to do this right now ohmy fucking god

family situation getting worse, i dont know what to do and my fingers are numb the moment i got home i just burst into tears i cant do this

seeing people talk about a game reviewer cause of his dogshit opinions and right-wingisms when the only context i knew him for previously was being in that hbomberguy plagiarism video. its like seeing a season 2 character come back several seasons later out of nowhere

still trying to get myself to feel better, death stranding 2 came out on pc and im tempted to play it but i think that might emotionally destroy me so im not sure

this james blake album is fantastic i think rest of your life might be my favorite song on the album

watching my friend getting pummeled by rex in mgs1 and this dude goes "cant i just shoot him normally" no man the game just told you that you couldnt

starting to feel a lot better, but still not back to normal

it's been like 30 minutes and i already feel lonely again blehhhhh

thought of a funny post but because im in a really bad episode right now it would come across as a cry for help and not funny at all

trying to force myself to work on my project cause i need to, i wanna just lay down and cry but i need to work on this

sorry for putting this shit on your timeline i don't have anywhere else to put them and i think if i keep this all in im gonna break, im already having harmful thoughts and if i keep it to myself it'll just intensify

ive been crying nonstop and i can't get myself out of bed cause that would mean i have to actually work on my college projects and i think id kill myself if i added that to the pile of problem s

it's just gotten worse now i feel incredibly dysphoric and ugly as fuck and to top it off my professor expects me to do college work through spring break i fucking hate this why is this happening to me why can't i just be jormal

i feel useless, nothing i do is worth talking about and nothing feels right have felt just empty the past few days and i hate it i wish it'd stop

whats the move when you're feeling mentally unwell and nothing you do is helping so you just sit there and stare at your screen hoping something good happens

Celeste from Deadlock

i should voice train but i have been told my voice is cute so maybe i dont do anything actually

have to write a 2 page discussion post for my college class about some shit i dont understand. its time to write some BULLSHIT!!!!

i have no energy today so i just did the bare minimum of college work that i will be satisfied with and now i will enjoy this youtube video i saved from last night

having korean bbq tonight im gonna be so FAT bro

considering doing a metal gear solid series replay but idk if i should wait for master collection vol 2 or not to do it

having meatball subs for dinner tonight #imhard

paige deadlock is kinda transition goals

thinking about haze's design and how cool it is, need to find some dope ass fan art of her to use as my pfp on something

ive been seeing so much celeste x silver deadlock art im starting to feel like the devs made these two characters knowing this would happen

i don't care Abt the super bowl but my dad makes wings every year so that's what i care about

having a really bad start to my day really hope it gets better

they made abrams and bebop combo in a lab to make the most evil duo possible. yoshi deadlock you will pay for what you've done to me.

im so bad at deadlock and i sometimes feel bad when im just not doing good but if anyone on my team calls me out and insults me for being bad i immediately gain the advantage because i instantly view them as lesser than me

they put out the deadlock update right as i got sick so they could laugh at me and not let me play. little do they know my headaches gone and im not dizzy anymore, so i can play it now. those fools cant stop me from voting

pokes and prods at you with a big stick

seeing someone on here that u last saw on twitter years ago and never got to learn their bluesky account

look back having canonical yuri is crazy i need a million dollars so i can hire fujimoto to draw shark kick in full

it's my birthday

chinese century has begun i must learn chinese

they makin mods for deadlock that make em furries

perhaps today is the day i will start one of the persona games i bought

new! new! new ! after all this time (like two years of waiting) they release something!! new!!!!!!!

having a big sandwich today

i think college professors who barely do their job and make every student of theirs stressed as fuck should get fired

did a backflip with control 2 got shown

i'm so swagged out they're dissecting me, studying how my mind works

its time to start trying to force my friends to watch movies i like again. i WILL get them all.

YES, I DO the cooking in my house!!! 😋 😋 😋 😋 😋 😋 😋 😋 😋 😋 😋 😋 😋 😋 😋 😋 😋

we need to eliminate tarantino for his opinion of paul dano

taking my brain out of my body and dissecting it to figure out whats wrong with me mentally

i am incredibly lonely today

do you guys remember that one xbox ad during the kinect era where they just faked a whole ai child. i think about that sometimes