Technically I just need a title for the Post-AC fic and then I could post it but I do not have a title and I have absolutely no ideas for a title either

Zack will have my back in Minakami village... probably

I have no idea what to read now bc I won't be able to go to the town library bc I can't afford the fucking bus tickets and my own library has a shit offering. Ofc it would be easier if I read in Finnish. I'm so SICK and TIRED of my brain

I had genuinely a good day yesterday and today I feel infinitely worse. Lmaooo

One thing I hate the most about myself is that I get severe anxiety over things I love. It's so bad sometimes it makes me unable to DO that thing

city below us #clerith #クラエア

I've had this one romantic trilogy sitting in my shelf for three years that I still haven't read, except for the first book, and... I started it again and it STILL rubs me the wrong way. I don't even know why bc it's genuinely super funny and I enjoy reading it. Still it just feels off

I've written four chapters and the only reason I struggle to enjoy it is bc my self-confidence as a writer has tanked so low 😔

i wroted archiveofourown.org/works/80964956

I'm writing this Post-AC fic where Seph regains his humanity as he returns and I'm writing only from Seph's perspective and... it actually feels pretty good? I'm still incredibly insecure if my characterization is good, but I kind like the voice he has now

sephiroth #ff7

I'm working on not paying too much attention to my AO3 stats but damn it stings when my FFVII fics don't even get kudos lol

Paid my rent and bills and was left with 11€ a day. For the entire month. I absolutely adore being poor LMAO

study or whatevs #sephiroth #ffvii

His new outfit... #Sephiroth #FFVII #FinalFantasy7

some doodles #ff7

long time no strife! #ff7 ※ #art

What pizza toppings Cloud would choose. I can't decide. If I put my own it always causes controversy LMAO (I have a very unique taste in pizza toppings)

I started with Mask of the Lunar Eclipse again bc even though Maiden of the Black Water was a little better control-wise, it was otherwise... not that enjoyable. Mask of the Lunar Eclipse's story, though, is so much better

I'm here and posting the old stuff again🫶 #rudereno #shinrafuckers

something something puppet blowjob #sefikura

I'm challenging myself with this fic and planning on writing it all from Sephiroth's POV (Post-AC)

Me: I will take a break from writing My brain: I have an idea for a sefikura fic Me: Perfect, I will still take a break! My brain: Here's the perfect beginning for it, and if you don't type it down *right now* you'll forget and never see it again Goddammit lmao

If you are a fanfic writer who would be happy for fanart of your work please repost

I just want write like I used to but I question everything now

Having so much unfinished fics on my AO3 gives me so much anxiety 😭 even if they all are hidden

Got up from my couch and heard like seven different cracks from my body. I'M NOT EVEN 40 YET

I tried to play Mask of the Lunar Eclipse and I gave up in chapter 1 bc I FUCKING hate the battle mechanic. Started Maiden of the Black Water instead to see if it's better and the mechanics are SO MUCH SMOOTHER

I went back to Twitter bc narusasu fandom is more active there but that hellsite gives me genuine anxiety every time I open it. But if I leave, I'll miss so much art and community. Like the heck am I supposed to do

I don't know if any of this is actually real bc I clearly still care and I gave myself an anxiety attack 👍 I genuinely don't know what to do anymore lol

So my obsession with comments has ruined my relationship with writing lol

ik commenting is hard, but u don't have to write a dissertation- even “this was amazing” or “i loved this” makes writers happy. it feels like some people treat fic writers like untouchable writing machines and don’t realize they’re fellow fans, who likely would love chatting abt their work with u

Made a sudden epiphany with why FFVII fics keep feeling wrong and it drove me deeper in this hole lol

②🈡 #セフィクラ +Extra

新年のラブストーリー 注意）ｄｄｆｆセフィｘ女クラ ①コメントで続き

For the first time ever I managed to reach second year Fall on Stardew Valley and I'm so proud of myself 🥹

I love my man Sebastian so much 😭

It rlly depresses me that I've been a fan of FFVII since 2007, written fic since 2024 and I STILL keep questioning if I actually care about enough to write 😭 like idk how to even explain it

Ended up deleting the second chapter from the narusasu fic I had written bc I just don't care enough to make it work

Definitely the worst thing abt depression is how it makes me so uninterested in anything. Like, I can't even pull myself out of this hole bc I don't have the mental capacity. My head is full of stories, yet I'm so... uninterested in the two fandoms I write abt that I can't summon any inspiration -

"Unalive" "grape" "seggs" This has got to stop. Do people hear themselves? Its like talking to a particularly sensitive toddler. We can't remove serious words from our language just because we're afraid some fickle algorithm will show our posts to less people

もったいないので投げときます

I feel so conflicted bc I want to support indie authors by reading their books but most are only available on Amazon and I really hate using Amazon 😩

Today is one of those days I just want to delete all presence online and just disappear

It would be nice to know how to get out of a depression phase when you don't care about fucking anything

Oh wow I made myself feel worse. What an achievement

second chances #sefikura chapter 6 🔗 archiveofourown.org/works/780484...