Intake in a paralysis flare Im sure ill regret it 10 grapes 5 small slices of cheese A small slice of chocolate mud cake (less then 2.5in) 1 half of a cinnamon rasin bagel 2 bites of a green onion corn fritter I purged everything last night so today started at 0

From a full stomach to bile in 15 minutes...I forgot why I dont purge... it's just too easy for me #shedsky #edsky #fatspo #purging #purgesky

Lmao I purged for the first time in like 10 years last night- mostly because my GP was flared and my food from that morning was starting to rot But I cant say I didnt like knowing all the sweets I ate came up too. #shedsky #purgesky

I have kits hidden literally everywhere; the house, the car, at work, in the bathroom, in the bedroom, in the closet, in my cage....everywhere #shedsky #slitsky #cutspo #slitbsky #cutsky #shsky #goresky #suisky

Once agian Hittin beans while driving is my new skill ig #beanspo #styros #cutspo #ouchiesky #scarsky #scars #didsky #slitsky #shsky #goresky #suisky #cutsky #shedsky #slitsky #slittwt #988sky

Am I cutspo yet or do I need to start slicing pieces off? #cutspo #slitsky #shsky #goresky #suisky #cutsky #shedsky #edsky #fatspo #shbsky #cxtting #selfharm #slicesky #scarspo #beanspo #styrospo #beans

Remember when I 1 swiped beans on my arm with a eyebrow rzr WITH the gaurd on 🤣 (THIS IS SPECIAL EFFECTS MAKEUP WITH LATEX AND COTTON. THIS IS MAKEUP NOT REAL INJURY) #shedsky #slitsky #cutspo #ouchiesky #scarsky #slicesky #beanspo #styros #selfharm

I guess since its been a while I should tell you some stuff; since my dissociative episodes have been getting worse and worse (both blackout and cocon) I am able to recognize my first alter- when you see all of this sh and suicidal text; its a bleed thru of my younger fragment. -- #pluralsky

❤ Please relieve me of my dreaming I'm kneeling, begging, pleading For my savory-sweet release of death Oh, I wanna die, I wanna die, I wanna die, I wanna die, I wanna die, I wanna die, I wanna die- so I can taste your name on my final breath Your body, my temple~ #obslove #obslovesky #suicidesky

Ive been ripping my most recent sh open to soak the bandaids im using I have a art project one of my head mates wants to do; I cant escape her emo shit sometimes 🙄 #shbsky #cxtting #selfharm #slicesky #slitsky #cutspo #ouchiesky #sysbsky #syssky #systemsky #DiDsky #dissasocitiveIdentityDisorder

My gastro paralysis has been flared for the past 3 days- Saturday I had to make myself puke and puking up food thats been rotting in your stomach for hrs is a different kinda hell. Every time id barf the smell would gag me making me wretch harder. (Cc)

Wagging my tail

I need you to gimme my gd clout I hit beans one swipe while driving home from work the other day. If you're still multi swiping get good scrub (THIS IS SFX MAKEUP) #selfharm #slicesky #beanspo #styros #cutspo #slitsky #shsky #goresky #suisky #cutsky #shbsky #cxtting #selfharm

Am I #scarspo yet? (If ypu say anything about my fatass arm ill jump you #slitsky #shsky #goresky #suisky #cutspo #ouchiesky #shbsky #cxtting #selfharm #slicesky #didsky #pluralsky

This was 20 days ago?

I literally cant fucking. BELEIVE they gave me my sht back bro #shedsky #edsky #fatspo #slitsky #shsky #goresky #suisky #cutspo #slitsky #shbsky

Yooo they gave me my account back? What? Fuck yeah

Eeps

I am so mentally exausted tonight, with how my brain has been plus being a support for my also crazy husband plus adjusting to his new work schedule. No one told me juggling fully formed people and myself in my head is this much. Im basically falling asleep at my desk.llll)s

These are healed but still look open...I prolly should've put a stitch in a few of them but Idrc that mych. Enjoy ig #scars #didsky #shsky #goresky #suisky #cutspo #slitsky #shbsky #cxtting #selfharm #slicesky #selfmutilation #cutting #jkai #obslove

I forgot this pf existed and I post my sh here i wanted to post it on my x Anyways new sh posted 🤷🏼‍♀️ #scars #sh #selfharm #slicesky #cutspo #slitsky #slittwt #988twt #didsky #slitbsky #cutsky

I forgot this pf existed and I post my sh here i wanted to post it on my x Anyways new sh posted 🤷🏼‍♀️ #scars #sh #selfharm #slicesky #cutspo #slitsky #slittwt #988twt #didsky #slitbsky #cutsky

These are healed but still look open...I prolly should've put a stitch in a few of them but Idrc that mych. Enjoy ig #scars #didsky #shsky #goresky #suisky #cutspo #slitsky #shbsky #cxtting #selfharm #slicesky #selfmutilation #cutting #jkai #obslove

Am I #scarspo yet? (If ypu say anything about my fatass arm ill jump you #slitsky #shsky #goresky #suisky #cutspo #ouchiesky #shbsky #cxtting #selfharm #slicesky #didsky #pluralsky

Like im just making my symptoms match the dsm diagnostic criteria and this is all fake. Im doing this cause I WANT do be different SO BAD

#pluralsky pls step up im having hella denial and idk what to do this all feels like i have to be faking and I have to be doing it for attention Like what if I came onto him as a kid what if Im trying to ger attention what if I picked this disorder cause its "different' and im making all this up

#shedtwt #edtwt #didtwt #pluraltwt #denial #childhoodabuse #incest #incestuousabuse #faker #faking #mentalhealth #addiction #emdr #cptsd #dissasocitiveDisorder #dissasocitiveIdentityDisorder #alters #multiplepersonality

"You used to slice yourself to the bone and have to get stitches all the time" "Yeah honestly I think my shit now is worse" "No its not nearly as bad as it was when you were drinking" .....excuse me? What the fuck? #shedsky #slitsky #shbsky #cutspo #ouchietwt #cutsky #scarspo #beanspo #styros

Yall this whole situation is wild. Idk. Honestly I dont even want to deal with it. Its nice to have some kind of awnsers but its hard cause what the fuck? Do? You? Mean? I need to find other sys communities #syssky #didsky #slittwt #disasociation #grippysocks #traumasky #ptsd #dissasocitiveDisorder

Sorry mom #shedsky #slitsky #cutspo #slitbsky #cutsky #shbsky #cxtting #selfharm #slicesky #syssky #plural #babysystem

Bro....im honestly really over all of these time blackouts I need system sky to come tk the front. I have questions....

Name a better combo then my brain matter and the ceiling 🤤

After doing some deprograming and this wasn't me- this was the fronting of my first recognized alter. #syssky #system #ramcoa

Im crashing so hard i had one of the worst nights at work last night- I think we found another shard of us. Heres the ss I feel like the longer I deny its existence the worse im going to get #syssky #systemtsky #disasociation #grippysocks #traumasky #ptsd #csasurvivor #csam #cptsd #RAMCOA

Ive been having sa flashbacks a nd rapid coswitching - im trying to hold it together fkr my last hr here but I am in no place I ve Been shaking for a full 24h and I couldnt figure out why I must have triggered something while i was sleeping. #syssky #did #ramcoa

Im reallyfucjed off rn Im so suicidal... ljke I always want to kms bjt kts so bad....lt hasnt been this bad in a really long time and im scared jm going to actually do it this time. #shedsky #slitsky #suitwt fuck

Stupid fat fuck. #scars #didsky #slittwt #988twt #selfharm #slicesky #disasociation #traumasky #ptsd #csasurvivor #csam #cptsd #dissasocitiveDisorder #postdelirium #depressionposting

Back with my fitbit for my ny goals. Im going to be recording my hr to take to my pcp it goes from extreme lows like 40-60ish then spikes over 100 sometimes for hrs they say its anxiety but ive been told to get checked for tachycardia

Husband update 😔

“cutspo!” , “scarspo!” just say you wanna fuck me 😋 #slitsky #shtwt #cutspo #scarspo #shbsky

It really breaks my heart watching my husband fall into depths of his alcoholism. Like watching him have to use 2 hands together to get his first of the morning beer into him, ir him not even being able to keeo thst singular beer dwn or using is other hand to steady his ohr hand to use his phone

Im like actually sick like the flu is rather purge pizza crust then have the flu

Its funny how ive destroyed my arms tneh look inhuman because of the layers and layers of scar.

Ig heres my first multiswipe in my whole like 18yrs of cuttin I normally just one swipe my dept and accept what I get and move on. Fuck off #shsky #goresky #suisky #cutspo #slitsky #shbsky #cxtting #scarsky #scars #selfharm #slicesky #depressionposting #disasociation #traumasky #ptsd #csasurvivor

Like im still so confused how it was still wet fluid and not clotted it also looks purple/dark red like artery spray #cutting #cutspo #ouchiesky #slitsky #shbsky #cxtting #selfharm #slicesky #suisky