PMS + perimenopause + heatwave + non-stop working all hours of the day and night since I got back from Edinburgh = exhausted overly emotional Amy. (Fuck me, had to google how to spell Edinburgh because peri brain fully convinced me that I didn't know the correct spelling. 0/10 do not recommend.)

I am so fucking delighted for Ellie! She is not only a trailblazer, but is a beautiful ball of cheer and sunshine of a person. It was a joy to meet and cast her last year. I suppose this means I'm going to have to watch it this year, aren't I?

Furthest I’ve been: N: Helsinki, Finland S: Dunedin, Aotearoa New Zealand E: Fiji W: O’ahu, Hawaii

Sentences from the day job…. It’s not as bad as it sounds, I swear 😂

Good job I look fucking cute in this pic 😂Sir. My friend. I was not expecting so many extra people to see it.

Ahhhhhhh I’m so happy to see my favourite buddy, my child, baby monkey has arrived at his new forever home ❤️❤️❤️

Last Minute Clearance! #EdFringe and #TNUC people! I will be there Weds - Friday. I have some left over #TNUC t-shirts left over (mainly in M, L, XXL and 2XL). If anyone wants one, I'm happy to bring it for £15. Shout now if you're interested - what design and size and I'll see if I have it.

I genuinely try not to assume the worst (unless involves a guest, in which case it is 100% my job to prepare for the absolute worst no matter how much unlikely) and that people won't take advantage of me. But if people are going to do it really obviously, then yeah, I've got to explicitly say DON'T.

Response to a new policy: But people have done it before!!! .........Yes. Why do you think I had to put this policy in place?

People who know me, how I work, and the financial realities of the business support me. The cast and crew support me (in public and private) and continue to work with me because I conduct myself with respect and care. I need to remember this, when a small part of fandom persists with the bad faith.

Controversial art option - this is my favourite of the three on display in the Munch, Oslo. Skrik (The Scream) Lithograph, Edvard Munch, 1895.

Signed something really fucking exciting today, which I’m desperate to launch but must be patient until I’m ready. Had a top tier brainwave for Amy does stuff for charity. Holiday brain is going excellently, despite Norway being an unreasonable 30c. I will concede this was very much needed.

Cracking up at the day job. An agent's response to the client's request that the actors for their teen role are in fact actually teenagers: "what an unusual request". It shouldn't be a weird request. Yet, given how regularly I see a playing age of 16-35 from applicants for teen roles.... 🤦

Taking a short a break, as I had a bit of a health wobble today. I'm sure I'll be fine, but I do actually need start taking care of myself and recovering from the past 6 months. I'll send out £50 discount codes to anyone who asks, and be hanging in the rewatch party, but everything else is on pause.

#TNUC Discord / Re-Watch Party - A link to the Siren Events discord is available on the Siren Events website, which links to both the TNUC and Behind Our Flag servers. Direct link to the TNUC server is here: discord.gg/UmYfuY3jYA

I am also making another batch of £50 discount codes available ahead of the #TNUC rewatch. You don't need to prove to me your circumstances, or why you need one. Simply message to request, and I'll keep on sending them until the allocation runs out.

I never posted this here, but @amuseoffyre.bsky.social surprised me with my very own Amy muppet. I asked David to take some pictures with her, for the lulz, and he delivered 😂 If this hadn’t been followed being called Mother (him) and Mummy (Con), it would’ve been the most surreal moment of #TNUC.

So when I said I was physically recovered from TNUC (emotionally tbc) that was such a fucking lie 😂😅😭 Anyone want to do my day job, sort my TNUC boxes and feed me, while I keep falling asleep mid task?

Just when I think that my life is settling back into normal levels of surreal and weird, it gets surreal all over again.

Does anyone else get unbearably itchy when they're over tired physically, but mentally still wide awake? Asking for a friend. (It's not 3am in the UK right now, shhhh.)

Come to London, I said. I’ll take you to see the sights. The sights being buying toilet brushes in a South London IKEA 🤣 I would say I don’t deserve you, but I’m pretty sure we deserve each other.

Also, new header and bsky name, courtesy of @david-jenkins.bsky.social and @therealcononeill.bsky.social, and most slanderous 90 seconds of my life since my 4 year old nephew roasted me with the declaration that I’m old and don’t know how to drive.

Calypso give me strength. I am resisting temptation, but only barely 😂.

Once again I’m wondering about the mental gymnastics someone must have to go through to convince themselves that the price for a weekend convention with under 200 people attending should be on par with one that has 70,000+ attending? Baffling.

My absolute pleasure babe! So fucking glad we made this work and you got to experience Rhys + Brighton chaos part 2 😂💜

Once again Rhys Darby in Brighton was unintentionally hilarious (as well as intentionally). Last time was the church (iykyk) and this time was an audio desk failure resulting in multiple sightings of the Stiddies.

I should be cleaning for @howellingwolf.bsky.social’s visit, but I don’t want to be. So procrastination time.

Can’t imagine why I’m suddenly having an intensely painful GERD flare-up right now /s.

Also, shout out to me for not cracking up on screen when David was taking about Stede’s ear piercing and @howellingwolf.bsky.social messaged me on the zoom about nipples.

Happy Stede’s Nipple Ring Anniversary to @howellingwolf.bsky.social who actually saved this date to remind me of the glorious day we decided that Ed wouldn’t have left Stede if he’d gotten his nipple pierced instead of his ear.

Today’s casting studio was brining the lulz with their signage.

Did I buy these lotus ‘peach’ buns because they look like freshly spanked butts? You bet I did. (I was going to save them for a friends visit for the lulz but we’re in the can’t afford to go to the store territory today so they were lunch.)

I fucking love this woman so much. I would have her on a plane to the UK SO FAST for #TNUC if I could actually afford another plane ticket from the antipodes.

Absolute perfection

This moment, more than any other, has been living in my head rent free since #BehindOurFlag. What a fucking gem. (The impression and Gypsy.)

I may never recover from the general experience of running #BehindOurFlag and it going so well, but just when I think I’ve got a handle on it being reality, things like this pop up and I cannot handle this being my current life.

After the awful ruling in the UK yesterday, @therealcononeill.bsky.social's charity pick, Mermaids, and the work they do for trans / gender diverse young people in the UK is more important than ever. Let's show them again, the positive power of #OFMD fans. Donate now, do good and win prizes!

Found out yesterday I’m getting a little cash injection for the big birthday, so I can take a little trip if I want. This is especially nice as TNUC financing worries have had me scraping every last penny. But now I need to convince myself not to put it straight into TNUC funds instead.

We are less than $20 away from $2000 in donations. So you know what that means? Not only are you *this* close to one of Amy’s amazingly bad photoshops, but whoever donates next gets an autograph from David Fane, Ruibo Qian, Con O’Neill or Nathan Foad. #TinyCrewBigRaffle

Shhhhhh, don't tell everyone on main but Gypsy has said when she's less busy with work she'll post some pictures (re: her panel). If she posts the concept art of Ed in his veil you may never hear from me again because I will have passed on to another plane of existence.

The RL job has kicked off and the complete exhaustion persists. I very rarely feel like my life would be better with a partner, but right now I would just love someone to be here to make me cups of tea and feed me, because I do not have the energy to provide for myself right now.

Okay, one more small breakdown for the night. I've had more support, congratulations, reassurance, and encouragement from the GUESTS since the end of the event than I get from my family (three guesses why the therapy) and it doing something really profound to my brain chemistry.

In more fun news - because I spent a decade negotiating contracts (entirely different ones but eh, same skills apply). I will be able to release up to 9 minutes of clips from David's panel. Not sure how I'm going to narrow it down, but you've all got that to look forward to.

I am officially crashing out now. I want to say I'll catch up at some point but it feels unlikely as I have a massive RL job kicking off tomorrow for a bit, but I'm still gonna try. The love I've gotten here has been so wonderful and unexpected. I'm going to cry a lot at my therapist about it.

Tell me you work in production without telling me you work in production. The sheer number of copies and locations the #BehindOurFlag files are being stored in.

The Pop Pop conspiracy. GIRTHY. Saying 'Mer-panties for easy access'.

Just remembered @poshtater.bsky.social telling me that David said 'pleasure treasure' to me and I COMPLETELY MISSED IT. I may never recover from yesterday.

- David demonstrating the S1 Ed/Stede kiss on his hand - The faces he pulled

So much of yesterday is a blur, but every so often my brain spits out something that it didn't fully process at the time. - David giving me a pirate name 😂 - 'Reassure me, Amy' - David calling Izzy a power bottom

All of this! I cannot stress enough how thoughtful, kind, generous and straight up lovely David has been throughout this whole process. After we spoke earlier in the week, I was certain that his panel was going to be amazing, and he delivered above and beyond 🥰 I want him to cheerlead me forever 😂