I experienced my first time someone being homophobic to me.

Wrote an email to a psychiatrist who's diagnosis I desperately need to get HRT. Wrote them in the kindest words that I desperately need their assistance and that I'm all out of other options, so please, can you help me? Their answer: Dear Sir! No! Have a good one!

Isn't it weird that people so often say "Fuck" during sex? Imagine you would regularly cry "golf" while playing it.

I think I take so long to make another step in my transition, because at every step I take I'm deeply afraid that I will be made aware that I can't go any further.

Despite being a writer myself, I never was much into reading. I rarely enjoy reading books and rarely one is able to really hold my attention. I have exactly one author I enjoy and he has a very unique style.

Question to other trans people: Do you enjoy being trans or would you prefer having been born cis?

So, dear body, you know that one of your core instincts is that you want to always preserve energy, right? Body: Yes! And you know how you always grow hair on my face, chest and legs that I hate, so I spent hours shaving it off and you spent energy regrowing it? How about we stop that? Body: No!

Something that really irritates me is that foxes are dogs and hyenas are cats.

Maybe I'm just out of fucks to give...

They should invent a way for a trans woman to transition where she keeps her male privilege. That shit is nice to have.

The thing about the Souls games and the three Dark Souls games in general is that they are a really big part of my life. I wouldn't say that they have helped me through dark times but they definitely prepared me for them and changed a fair bit how I think about life.

What's your favorite Souls game?

It's insane how trauma that happened so many years ago is still haunting me today in my dreams.

Give me a ray of happiness and I will turn it into an eternity of dazzling hope!

After thinking about it, I think I'm rather a trans woman than a cis woman. I deeply identify with the experience of being trans, more than with the desire of just being a woman.

Do you also fantasize about your superpower being able to actually help people?

Fighting my restless legs syndrome so my cat can sleep in peace on my lap.

Why do my naps always escalate?

"I love you as you are, but could you please be yourself somewhere else?"

I don't understand why people can't generally be nicer and just mind their own business. If not for the sake of others then just to have some dignity!

As I see it I have two options as how to proceed. I can either become a bitter old man that envies others of their feminine beauty and holds a deep hatred for mankind, Or I can finally work on my transition again, get that estrogen I want so badly and become beautiful myself. What do you think?

I wish I had the guts as an author to give all my characters brilliant names like Su Tirami.

Normally I'm not that big of a fan of the soundtracks of the soulsborne games, but I have to admit that the Bloodborne Soundtrack is amazing. I'm so sad that it isn't available to play on PC!

Guess who forgot to close the lid of the coffee machine and flooded half of the kitchen.

I almost beat that one boss in Dark Souls 3 and shortly after almost defeating them the game was forced into the background by a stupid application telling me it isn't online. You can be sure it got promptly deinstalled for ruining my run.

I admit I found some songs I really loved that I unfortunately later found out are AI made. However if you write with AI, draw with AI or make music with AI, while the product might be good, it can never make you an artist. It's like using a fancy font in word and saying you are doing calligraphy.

AI totally destroys the last bits of whimsy I had. I can't look at anything extraordinary or wonderful any more without thinking it's just stupid AI, a fake hollow thing to make me engage with a fake hollow being.

We found out that I was feeding the cat in the evening the last few days because I don't wanted my husband to have to do it when he came home and my husband fed the cat because he didn't want me to have to do it. The clear winner in this situation: The cat!

Look at how incredibly beautiful my girlfriend is! Look at her!!!

What a day. I need a break

I'm so tired. I don't need coffee anymore, I need an adrenalin shot directly into the heart.

I love the Dark Souls games. They are just a stupid bunch of dogshit with it's bullshit crap constantly driving you on the edge of madness with it's never ending shit. Fuck these games, they are so good!

I just called my mom and she picked up the phone and said: "Hey girl!" Still feels kinda weird.

I didn't give a fuck about shoes before I found out I was trans. I never had more than 3 pairs, and most of the time just 2. Now I can't wait to shop for and wear my first pair of women's shoes!

I could use a hug

It's a good day to be sad!

Do you ever feel bad because the happiness of someone else makes you sad?

Fae that buy your deadname, so you can finally be free of your past.

Brain: "Do you want to think about something that will make you sad?" Me: "Do I need to think about it?" Brain: "No, it's not relevant to your life. Just a hypothetical." Me: "But you will make me think about it extensively anyway, right?" Brain: "Omg, how did you know? :3"

Let me give you a piece of advice: Whatever age you are, enjoy it! When I was younger I wanted to be older, when I was older, I wanted to be younger again. It doesn't matter where we stand in life, we will always find reasons to crave something different. The trick is to be happy now!

Happy Trans Day of Visibility! Regardless if you are (fully) out yet or not, you should know that you deserve to be seen and loved! #transdayofvisibility

Sadness can be such a beautiful feeling!

"So, there's this guy, right?" "Yeah!" "And he looks like a child, right?" "Yeah." "And he wants the world to become better, so he plans to hypnotize everyone into being kinder, right?" "Yeah..." "In order to do this, he marries the reanimated corpse of his brother, right?" "WTF!?!"

For the first time in my life I'm truly happy!

Often the strongest will is required to make the choices that truly make you happy!

Everyone looks better with eyeliner!

I can't wait until my feet shrink a bit from HRT, so I can shop for women's shoes! I want nice boots!

I don't like how jealous I get whenever I see a trans woman be joyful about her HRT changes. I hate how difficult it is to get HRT in Austria.

I wish people would understand that while healing has always to be the goal after trauma, not every healing is good. So often when we are hurt our instinct is to grow numb to the pain which in turn makes us numb to the pain we inflict ourselves. Thats why so often victims make the best perpetrators.

It's amazing how there are so many billionaires who could buy everything they ever need, but not one of them seems to have invested in a good therapist.