i hate gen z sorry. so helpless. "not our fault" yes true. "but can't do anything about it :/" no!!!! "not worth it becoming better and learning skills/independance anyway" no!!!!!! "i won't work or study or do therapy it's my parents responsibility to provide for me anyway" no!!!!!!!!! you're 23

if i wasn't absolutely socially awkward the last few years then i would buy more art cus i have money for it now

it has been a year and it still haunts my mind that's just how much i hate people (not you specifically)

finally googled what the dlss 5 is about. not a fan.

once on social medias someone commented in russian that they liked my old drawings more and i google translated "i remember you" to russian and answered that under their comment and they got very scared and deleted all of their comments and blocked me i think

my mother dearest once said "this dish is vegetarian because it has chicken and not real meat like pork"

little cat goes meow at the window again. i looked outside. this time no other little cat. it just meows into the void.

i went on tbe website where people pretend to be ais and drew 2 images that is enough social interaction on tbe internets for a month

small cat i so feets

does nayone else steal sugar packets and salt packets and ketchup packets and tea packets and coffee packets and butter packets i usually see them at hotels or cafetarias something so i stuff my... i forgot the word in english. pants container. jail for hands in clothing. you know the thing.

hr lady was googling people from work but luckily there is very little informations about me

had an utterly unproductive day

i fucking remembered working with this fucking idiot in grocery stoee for 1 fucking day, he trapped us in the warehouse by driving a pallet thing in the worst way possible, closed us in the freezer and panicked we will die, cut my hand with a knife while "opening boxes" and stole donuts

told someone i have a bad memory and they started lecturing me about fucking tiktok usage. never watched it. nor reels. not youtube shorts. or other short videos that i do not know the name of. felt a bit insulted. true reason i have bad memory is brick

when i was younger there was a website where we posted images (not instagram.) and i blocked 70% artists on there because we all fucking hated each other they kept spamming "learn anatomy" under my images so i replied things like "what a shame the proportions and shadows on your drawing are WRONG"

when i was younger some websites had "gore nights" because the moderation was sleeping (there was no image scan ai yet to automatically reject such posts. also websites were more local.) and the users craved violence???

sometimes i feel like i'm the only person in the world who is not into gambling, drugs and romance

stupid blood from stupid nose

drawing tilesets is miserable because they need to be able to loop and connecting left and right and top and bottom makes me miserable

in today's dream i kind of had to draw most of the things with a mind pencil cuz it was a bit empty

i will go insane if people keep asking me if i like / want a manga

i'm really bad at talking about life to "normal" people. i always prefer people who listen and try to understand over people who can relate (from experience) but most of them they will never understand me and i will never understand them.

i have a banger story idea but my regular writing is very bad oh my god i can only do improvisations for audience (i look at reactions and change tone slightly to fit) or text that goes with some kind of visualisation like comic or animation. my regular writing is pure trash unfortunately!

i hate being seen but also i'm glad that nowadays people associate me with more than just wanting to die and the way i talk. for example they associate me with my favorite games, stories, comics, my favorite foods, clothes i pick etc. i have more personality traits than depression,,

i don't use repost button because i never used twitter and everyone kinda assumes everyone knows this button already and at this point i'm too afraid to ask how it works like in details and also i have no audience at all so it would be sharing straight to the void

everyone i know has at least once asked me if i'm vegetarian/vegan/pescatarian cuz apparently i eat too few meat i guess so they don't see when i do. but i jsut don't see the need to eat it multiple times a day or even every day?? this answer angers everyone

worked on my project today. see i'm not a loser!!!!

getting to explain electricity to someone is a joy

not a bot. i sometimes leave likes under posts that show up on the discover page.

had a thought today that people like me deserve good things also and that people caring do so for no reason at all sometimes.

🍞❤️

I had a dream my cat had a terrible diarhea

god everyone i knew during my childhood probably either wonders how i didn't start a cult by now or why i wasn't in the news yet for something like becoming serial murderer (sorry. my childhood dream job right after becoming president. wanted to do both.). instead i did a shit ton of charity stuff.

shocking everyone again with how few series i have watched in my entire life. can count on 1 hand. idk i just hate watching series. i just read things instead. i also dislike music (with a few exceptions). there's something wrong with the way i hear things also. makes my head hurt.

why do so many people treat social media as a job lol (of course except of those for who this is a job. that makes sense see.)

wrote a bit!!!!!

today neighbour waved and smiled at me. he must feel very stupid about growling at me 2 days ago.

i'm glad that few people read my posts because i need to get thoughts out of my head somewhere but i don't think reading some of them is very healthy

today i wished all of my women friends a happy womens day and they enjoyed it. wonderful. often i forget because i'm very bad with dates.

zzzzzzz

as a man i stopped trying to accomodate people who are like "all men suck" etc around a year ago cuz talking to someone who hates you for no fault of your own and expects constant pandering and defense to random accusations every fucking day is miserable. just talk to someone who enjoys you.

my suffering has ended. i discovered fire alpaca. goodbye krita.

always thrilling to survive a february

genuinely confused at people who are very very anti ultimatums asking to resolve things without threatening to end relationships with people. sorry but sometimes you do have to end some. that is the reality. and if you know someone for many years you might want to give them last chance or warning.

little cat is so purr today

i have never in my entire life heard anyone say 6 7 but my coworkers and friends complain about it constantly. but i don't know many children. gen z is youngest i talk to.

When my friends send me photos of their pets i say bon appetit (unsure what the best translation is) (enjoy your meal has a different vibe to it i think) and they get annoyed but it is a bit funny so i keep doing that

man i really tried to like krita but if you ever tried any software where ui isn't painful to use then it's so ass. i don't want to learn every single shortcut and read a manual as a beginner user just because they couldn't bother to make the ui make any sense.

3 months ago i found a really really really pathetic post here on bluesky and every time i feel depressed and like a failure i look at this to remind myself i am not that pathetic in fact i am much much less pathetic and loser

i sometimes spell gender as jender to annoy my woke (for the lack of better word) friends