what does a girl has to do to be told this

isnt it fun how even the job center is giving up on me, "you should focus on something that you'll actually enjoy instead of taking everything you see and then have failed interviews" IN THIS ECONOMY????? you could have told me im a lost cause and the result would have been the same

oh my fucking gods I know the tires are used, if you wanna replace them just fucking replace them instead of drilling that in my ears every fucking day telling me 10 more times than the 1st time doesnt mean i can magically fix something

anyway what does a girl has to do to find some rich european person to adopt/marry her and the get the fuck out of north america

i cant wait for my doc appointment on the 13th, even if she's jst my endo im still going to tell her about my chronic pains, I want to be able to spend at least one day without something hurting or worrying that something's gonna start hurting soon

as miserable as I get sometimes at least i can take delight that im at least able to experience more joy than billionaires

i really should make an oc with the purpose of breaking her and pouring all my issues over (and also put her in hot situations with fun tags like mind break)

day ended up not as bad by the end but it's hard constantly having to fight the voice in the back of your head telling you you don't belong

i fucking wish social interactions were easier, it feels so easy for others to be outgoing and loving people and be loved back so how the fuck am I struggling so much? how do I always end up low on everyone's priority lists on top of that im stuck in the middle of nowhere