I might take a break from this site until my health improves, considering the stuff I see on here spikes up my anxiety and anxiety is a contributing factor to heart palpitations, it might be for the best. I'll still be on FA, Itaku and Pillowfort.

There's SO MANY things I am angry about with the US and their actions but.. showing anything more than mild discomfort would label people like me as monsters. Like hell, I am having a health crisis but can't do anything about it because being healthy is a privilege, not a human right in the US. :'3

So, after talking to a couple of people about my heart palpitations, I decided to tell my mate's mum about it because they made me realize that I might actually be in a serious health situation. The only issue is that I... cannot afford a doctor or a hospital visit. So.. I dunno what to do.

For a second, I thought this was American, but it's British. Honestly wouldn't even be surprised if the US does this at some point soon with it's "PROTECT THE CHILDREN" bullshit that you know is not their reason because ulterior motives.

We hadn't been in a healthy anything in a long time. Reagan was a warning that no one heeded so it's no surprise that we got a wannabe dictator as president now and that the rise of fascism has ramped up. The US is fucked as a country. (fixed)

What are some words that you, still, embarrassingly, don't know how to spell despite being an adult? For me, it's the words: "Convenient" / "Convenience". >w>;

...penis boobs

More duckie. :3

So, still dealing with chest pain but now I figured it's probably a pulled muscle, touching the affected area feels exactly like a bruise so.. yeah. >w>;

Duckie. :3

I hate feeling conflicted with what sona to stick with. Like.. I feel pulled towards Raven, Goat, Sheep, Duck and Rat... >w>;

I will admit that, despite being 29, I have not aged mentally since 18.. I feel.. weird being nearly 30 when it feels like the past 11 years hadn't happened. It just feels like only a few months have happened.

It's probably due to the fact that you see A LOT more trans people on the internet than you would in RL so people just, automatically, assume that's the actual number of trans people in the US when it really isn't. We exist everywhere, not just the US.

As the forever changing internet forces us to move to other platforms, I am active on: FA: www.furaffinity.net/user/kamoto Itaku: itaku.ee/profile/kamoto Pillowfort: www.pillowfort.social/Kamoto I'll stick around on here for as long as I am able but yeah. Censorship sucks ass, hope it dies.

....Homestuck. Chaotic mess of a webcomic but I love it even though, by the internet's opinion, it sucks total dog shit. Plus, the music always rocks.

Hey, so.. Are you people sure calling those assholes is doing anything? Seems like censorship is getting worse, not getting better. Every new update I hear just tells me "Hey, they're censoring more things". lol

My main on EQ2.. :u

....butts

Now we got two national holidays of horrid fuckwads instead of one, greaaattt. Hope they realize no one but braindead losers are going to celebrate this one either. lol

I have woken up to pizza. :u

I want to try Ghost Pepper Hot Sauce but I know, for damn sure, I would suffer beyond belief... but.. it looks so tasty. ;w; Also, seriously, Melinda's hot sauces (and just.. sauces) are great in general. Got to try it by chance because my mate's mum knew I like spicy stuff. x3

Ah.. stomach problems and heart palpitations are competing to see which one can be the most annoying tonight, it seems. Going to be a while until I can sleep, I guess. =w=

Ratto. :3

Every time a massacre/shooting happens: "IT WAS THE LEFT, TOTALLY THE LEFT. THEY WANT US DEAD" Meanwhile, in reality: "Cis White Male Rupublican #335434 was found to be the killer" It happens every time and they just fail to realize they're the violent ones, not the left. The delusion is godly lol

Tummy hurt, but am awake. :u

Weh. Stomach problems keeping me up and I got a migraine. Want to just sleep. xwx

My brother, who lives in Japan sometimes, told me that if my mate and I ever move to Japan to just avoid big cities like Tokyo since they're tourist traps and also just... very expensive to live in. Am curious what cities in Japan would be ideal to live in for someone like us. >w>;;

Honestly, if I had not met my mate 9 years ago, I probably wouldn't still be here and I'll be damned if I let some fascist numbnuts try to destroy our lives. I do, however, have no idea how to get us out of this country, especially when my mate is not willing to move out. I don't want us to suffer.

Sometimes, I wish for this to happen to right-winged people. If there's ANYONE who deserves to be thrown into a jail cell or mental institution, it's those MAGA fuckers. They, actively, want to commit genocide. They're a danger to society.

It would be nice if we weren't living through a billion major historical moments every day, I just want to relax, not be stressed out and wondering if I'm going to wake up in a concentration camp, one day, for just being queer. So.. here's the ever relevant, ever timeless meme:

Imagine being labeled as a terrorist just because you're anti-fascist. Like, if I am a terrorist, then I must be the king of England because all I fucking do is just draw porn and play video games. Like, if that terrifies you, then you're one very sad and pathetic person. lol

Will be honest that I wish I could comfortably afford diapers so I could just.. go full send on wearing them all the time. x3

Skaven version of my goat :3

Thinking of drawing a rat boy, might do that later. x3

Sometimes, I wish Denmark wasn't joking about buying the US back in 2018 and bought the US. My mate and I be able to move out of the US and it's possible the rise of fascism in this country wouldn't have gotten this damn bad.

Just a sheep version of my goat. :3

Also, if there is a heaven and hell, Kirk would, 100%, go to hell. No benevolent god would support ANYTHING that man says, so, this is just infinitely funny. lol

Oddly enough, me with art. Used to have a grand time drawing when I was a kid/teen but as I entered adulthood, I started to burn out on art and I've been kinda stagnating. Is why I want to try other things in the creative field like music or even just a different medium of art like clay or 3D.

Like, I will be honest, the past few months of horrible event after horrible event, I hate that my parents conditioned me into believing crying is bad because even though I want to, I just... can't. I've been so terrified and so emotionally overwhelmed for so long but can't relieve it.

This has been me for... years. e3e

Had pretty poor sleep due to heart palpitations and like.. I KNOW I need to go to a doctor but I can't afford it, especially now since my mate's mum is currently in the hospital. xwx

My mate's mum is being held up at the hospital once more, she's going to be stuck there even longer than expected. >w>; She is, rightfully, antsy and just wants to go home.

Anti-Cub, Anti-ABDL, Anti-Feral are all just idiots to put it bluntly. We've been saying, FOR FUCKING YEARS, that it's fiction, that it's a harmless kink and that it's often used to help with coping with trauma but nope, we're all labeled child molesters, freaks, animal rapists etc. Puritanical shit

Also, fun fact: The crotchboob thing is a recent thing I added to my sona. Recently learned I like the idea of having boobs so.. I may be a bit more femme-leaning than I thought. lol

Random memory of my childhood was that my best friend, at the time, had a father who looked like Hank Hill and his father ABSOLUTELY hated me. I dunno if it was because I'm Autistic or if it was because I wasn't athletic like his son but.. yeah. He was a typical boomer too so probably both.

The day Sethrak becomes a playable race for WoW is the day half of my alts are getting snek'd.

Wish I didn't get sleepy so easily, was planning to draw a thing today. x3

Yeah, corporate will always be corporate. The moment something is not profitable be supportive of, they drop it like a sack of rocks. Being supportive of trans people isn't profitable so.. it's no surprise that Bluesky dropped us like a sack of rocks. It.. really fucking sucks.

As I commented on FA: Yeah, I also learned I like having boobs so is why my current sona has them. x3

Yeah. :3 The day we can all feel safe in this country (and in other countries) will be a glorious day.