“maybe we’ll see you again before we die of old age” have you ever thought about apologising to your child who is too scared of you to visit instead of guilt tripping them on their bday

the pigeons don’t know it’s my birthday

why don’t ppl have the common sense to NOT doxx me when someone else asks “where is this” 🫩 yeah im rlly not okay with my posts reaching locals

just need to get some work done. and then go shopping for The Event tomorrow waghhhhhh i’m too chronically fatigued for life this is so hard

not sure which gendered pronoun i dislike the most to refer to me “he” can be annoying because of how the internet assumes you’re male unless otherwise stated. but it’s only guesswork. at least they didn’t analyse smth like my shoulder peeking out in the video and decide “she”

the wreck it ralph movies are kinda fucked up cuz what is that grown man doing

my nvidia app stopped working which basically means my pc stopped working and they don’t let u install older versions of the app so now i just can’t do anything

i’ve never been good at routine. routine is necessary for probably all life forms

i’m too sensitive for the world

i can’t believe there isn’t medicine for quick tiredness relief . that isn’t caffeine.

went on a trip to get over the counter painkillers for my back. i was so scared they would think i was drug seeking but it worked out just fine and its also the first time ive ever had them. i want to clean my house today and ive been trying for a while but im in so much pain ive just been

bout to post a video of pigeon on my head on tt and nobody will know i was sobbing 2 seconds before it was taken

i was crying bad and my pigeon jumped on me and started hoping back and forth between my knees and now he keeps landing on my head

today has been a bad day and i haven’t been able to escape my apartment because i can’t find my wallet and im going insane. now it’s getting late. i’ve been trying to leave since morning .

instead of getting defensive i should just let them argue among themselves. it’s a waste of time. and the engagement benefits me ultimately. but i have a rlly big thing about people making wrong assumptions

i just really hate when people get things wrong about me especially when they turn a good deed into a bad one because in their country they have laws against taking care of certain birds, because they are invasive there

commenter: “judging by the video they’re in the united states and they shouldn’t be feeding those birds” why does everyone make assumptions like this? it literally says my country on mY PROFILEE i am on the opposite side of the world to america and i am volunteering without breaking a single law

i wish i could revisit parts of my childhood where the world appeared colourful and interesting and fun

why won’t you get help . it doesn’t matter how many times we talk about it and how it will happen. you’re not any closer to help until you book that appointment. not even on a single medication for several unmanaged and destructive disorders

i’m never in reality, the trauma went too hard and now my body refuses to leave a dissociative state

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i just came across a post in the wild and one of the replies was a gif of my pigeon shaking his head

it’s dark sorry but im using my new paints for the first time :D

had do do some minor surgery on a pigeons foot but finally after 2ish months she no longer has threads wrapped around her tendons oh it’s so nice so see her actual foot finally

i wish i could go into a year long slumber to restore my energy

i hate how the world looks it stopped being colourful when i became depressed tbh

i’ve probably accidentally used ai sounds on tiktok as i post often…i hate that

i feel like there isn’t a way to achieve gender euphoria for me. no matter where i lean it doesn’t look like me

i make people uncomfortable because i don’t ask questions

the pigeons in my room r non stop arguing can u guys chill

ugh i feel so bad abt not noticing

i wouldn’t have thought that she didn’t like me if you didn’t overthink and tell me that (it’s still ambiguous and i shouldn’t believe any side)

fluorescent lights feels like anti loitering technology in a similar way to how some places use a constant high pitched ringing to make people leave

fluorescent LED lights r so bad for me. you know when u take a video (slo mo?) and you can see the light flashing? that’s happening at a rate we can’t see and i feel the effects right away. some stores have got it realll bad it makes me want to leave immediately

they tried to give me a shot in life by not getting me diagnosed who’da thought that would backfire…

everything requires too much setup and preparation

had to request a quote to order a couple bricks lol. i hope there’s no issue with such a small order of bricks. all the other suppliers had issues

researching my illnesses or accidentally stumbling upon information about them makes me so overwhelmed so i avoid it at all costs

for my own sake i hope you get better

i just wish i would stop having the same dream every night. sleep shouldn’t exhaust me

just want to be dreaming something nice

questions like “why didn’t you say that sooner” mess me up bcus we’re lucky my mental illness let me speak anything at all

i don’t want to talk

probably a weird thing to say but i feel like w the right hair i could genuinely pass as an elderly person, like, i really see it

yall ever been thru trauma that makes u chase a dementia diagnosis bcus of what it did to your brain function ? i still don’t completely disagree with the possibility

i want to know what someone else would’ve done in my situation. would they have taken more of a stance against them? even if they too didn’t have a home to return to? would they have taken the risk of saving themself? could i have saved myself if i knew what to do?

man i can’t believe the shit i went through was real…..

i’m like avoidant but worse and it applies to every aspect of my life

crows like grapes

my neighbour randomly gave away a bunch of acrylic paint today ?? lmao okay now i have a whole collection