i guess its offfficial

i cant fuckingv read anymore without crying and u genuinely dont kniw what its even reasonable to try and do at this point

theyre so mean to my baby girl

they should invent a person that can love xera i think

i honestly think im going to start just taking prison doses of my antiphycotics i just want to be numb

if i cut mysepf hard enough would she atleast respect my pain as much asshe respects everyone elses god damn sufferings

when am i going to accept im the lroblem and just smash my own head in

reconstruction wasnt fumbled by not prosecuting slave owners enough ypu literal god damn moron it was fumbled by the government embezzling half the funds because grant literally didnt gaf as long as the south kept producing

who am i even talking to at thins point?

god i genuinely wish people thought i was smart because i do try ungodly hard to be educated and aware and idk i gyess id just lije some recognition idk who gaf

i honestly wish i still knew literally any fucking contacts and could just go back to being a whore sure it was fucking hell buf so is this

i love that even my friends think im stupid and crazy

like its my god damn faukt i threw out my back after these jackasses scheduled me for a 70 hour week

"you know that will make me tell at you" is shit i should hear from a toxic t boy im obsessed over not my fucking boss

you have never seen humanity more unified than a crowd of conplete strangers finding comradery in hating the random schitzo on the bus

so kinda interesting yarvin detail i think alota people miss his advocacy for slavery comes atleadt particularly because wevd reached post scarcity and so nolonger need the economic advantages of literally any system but slavery

im fucking melting and my gf literally cant bd bothered to make time for me except to say my pain is my fault

what if this doesmt get better im going to lose my ability to work the only thing i can provide to the people i love

can someone please get curtis yarvin off twitter its so bad for his brain

fucking threw my back out 2 days ago folliwed by a 14 hour shift and i cant fycking stand so im begging my boss to let me go home tears in my eyes i get a 2 hour break to rest my spine i want ti fucking die

my gfs other gf who she likes more than me is moving in with her at the end of the year im fucking fine and definetly have reasons to live

To Be Titled, 1987 https://botfrens.com/collections/27/contents/5306

its a god damn crime that i was allowed to be fucking born and istfg one day i will make everone responsible pay

im in so much god damn pain i cant fucking stand everythung is blurry i miss heroin so god damn much

nothing has changed in a god damn century

"they drove them (the unemployed) mad that thry might arrest them; and when they appearded before the judge, he declared their possessions "theatrical," and no hand was lifted to strike this villain in the face...."

i read so slowly its genuinely fucking humiliating

i have no idea how to explain to a literal child that seeing the woman i saw get shoot when i was 5 stalking me for 2 decades is not remotely comparable to being stoned enough to think youre a tree

coworker just asked if "schitzophrenia is like being on edibles all the time"

im back got banned temporarily lol

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i dont want to do this anymore i cant live with this i cant function i cant communicate i can barely even read despite dedicating atleast 3 hours a day to it

its genuinely wild interesting depressingly bleak unsure but that the executed american anarchist were advocating for the 8 hour work day a thing that only what maybe 1/2 the population gets now over a century later it makes the pointlessness of their deaths hit shockingly hard

i think its really facinating how mackays issue with i guess ill use leftist generally as tgere are quite a few different perspectives present is primarily martyrdom he sees the religious devotion to hope as bad because it leads good people to death

HES JUST LIKE ME

the humble american when he is about to explain something to me:

i quit evidently do not

so i really dont think the ending of get out works spoilers in following post

i genuinely just dont know wtf im supposed to do im too unimportant and distant to do meaningful sabotage my access to material resources is nonexistant and even if it wasnt the us already keeps tight control over any aid sent out of tge country

i genuinely hate this fucking country

currently reading:

and yet we go on

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currently reading: shocking no one jeff lemire is genuinely genius i did not realize how much id been missing from his art style

so ive been reading the origibal star wars comics mostly for chaykins art because its facinating to see this early iteration of his distinct style

its honestly really sad to see peter theil loss his mind in real time like he just snapped in 2019 and its been rotting since then

imn fine judt feel wick sorty for faolimg wgain

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