Starter went out earlier, barely made it down the street before losing power completely. One 2-hr walking trip to/back from the scrapyard later, part successfully swapped, but now $36 less food money until Monday. Been similarly rough each weekend this month and I'm tired ngl 😅

Them: "...and who are you?" Me: (raises eyebrow, Sean Connery voice) "Jass...Hugh Jass" 👀🍑

As we lurch ever closer to inevitable collapse, it's been a trip seeing the narcissistic carnival barkers of each respective community rise up, nearly simultaneously...

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No one will ever convince me to make myself smaller for anyone else ever again 👎

I never forgot any of the kindnesses over the years that I have received, mostly from strangers, as all I was ever exposed to growing up was toxicity. I now love being able to stay present enough to pay that forward with all of my daily interactions 😍

Alright, FFA finally has it's hooks in me. Finished Kett last night and got up to Gaia's cave earlier. Cryptic in spots, esp dungeons, but never to an egregious level; talking to NPCs is important tho 👀😍

My temp agency is actively attempting to bait me rn, but I'm not gonna give then what they want, just silently take notes, report back to my attorney for my disability case, await the inevitable collapse of law and order, and then the day of the bear begins... 😅🐻

Yeah but they figured out a way to charge for boxes at moving stores, so YMMV by region 😅

Gameboy RPGs have such a unique charm to them. My umpteenth attempt to actually play Final Fantasy Adventure for more than 2 hours, then don't think about it for months/years after 😅

After seeing multiple examples over the years aside from my own, I have a special level of smoke for parents who attempt to assimilate their BIPOC/mixed children into whiteness. The children either grow to hate their parents, or they assimilate to face a lifetime of inadequacy. Everyone loses 🙃

UPDATE: Replaced the PCV valve, spark plug wires, and alternator. The car is now running and all appears nominal once again. Thanks for tuning into my 3-day existential meltdown. The bear can bear once more 😅🐻

$145 later, and the car is now running better, still stumbling during acceleration and idling rough at stops. This car is my home and work transportation while I continue fighting for disability, 3+ years on. 2 days of fighting with more to go, I'm tired ngl 🙃

I never walk away from a 12-hour job feeling accomplished or even valued, just drained and wishing I had been doing something else with my time 🙃

The more I heal, the less I understand the concept of "matching energy," esp when interacting with toxic ppl. Why even give someone like that access to our emotional state? 😅

Lost my solar panel while driving down the freeway a couple days ago, and lost my wallet (again) at some point last night. Def not one of my better weeks, but also proud of myself for not spiraling 😅

Friend: Stay absolutely still, his vision is based on movement... *big guy he doesn't like walks by without a word or glance Friend: See? 😅😭

My initial reaction to thinking about my mom in months is "I hope it hurts." I was genuinely cheering for her against the big bad (physically violent) boyfriends she always seemed to bring around, while she was actively setting them against me.

The EWC section in LISA: The Painful always warms my heart 😅😍

Anybody else gamify seemingly mundane parts of their day, i.e. throwing trash away, parallel parking, etc.? I just tried to do the latter in the least amount of moves like a big nerd just meow 😅

To the Little Ones I Had to Leave Behind medium.com/@fuzzybear19...

Fun Fact: If I make eye contact, whether accidental or intentional, with a stranger/new person from across the room, I will (almost) always do my level best to avoid doing it again. It's an old pattern that I'm trying to unlearn 😅

Turmeric and ginger blend is by far my fav nightcap currently; also recently discovered Bengal Spice too, which has a body/mouthfeel like English Breakfast. The person who introduced me to the latter even recommended trying it with honey, which I'll be getting tomorrow 👀🔥

Tho it takes me time to adapt new habits, I've def been having better luck keeping them. Kettle's on by 9PM, and I recently upped my turmeric tea game by getting my own ingredients 👀🔥

In other news, I've been playing Amnesia: The Dark Descent, and the more I do, the more I hate the peotag bc he's a fucking "explorer" who plundered throughout Algeria. Leave those ppl alone, you fuck, and idec if I die in-game anymore 🙃😅

Just lost my Medicaid and SNAP for working enough to buy fucking food during the shutdown 🙃

Walking around in sandals and socks during autumn/winter months is dicey enough, made so much worse when entering a public restroom 😅😭

No longer holding myself accountable for other ppls' meltdowns over their own moral degeneracy is one of my bigger personal coups. Now if we can just get rid of management's unilateral ability to rip away another's whole financial livelihood, that'd be great 😅🤪

It's simple really: those who are unable to meaningfully engage with another and/or see themselves in others should not have a say in who gets to live or die 👀🔥🔥🔥

One RPG mechanic I would like to see more of would be for those who grind ridiculous amounts, like a super OP spell/attack at lvl 99 or other such ridiculousness 👀😅

Welp, someone just ran their vehicle's spotlight on me, likely a cop. Been a min since that happened, but I'm so happy that I made those window covers and installed a curtain 😅🙃

One of my fav, typically harmless, ways to mess with another while we're swimming and they're talking to me is to very gradually begin moving around them in a circle, slowly increasing speed until they notice 😅

Still loling at that GoT ep where they stuffed Ed Sheeran's heavily-tatted twink body into full sleeve armor to cover the former 😭

Real ones will remember 😅😂

Still prioritizing self-care these days, within a reality where not answering/returning a call or text from my temp agency has resulted in loss of work. I blew off the boss man himself today, so I'm nice and energized for the 101. Still working out a Plan B in case of any shittery on his part 😅

Anyone else approaching 120 hrs in Dragon Quest 3 2DHD, or did you grow up in loving, supportive homes? 😅

Perhaps the metal slimes are smiling you bc they're trying to flee, but every action they take carries a chance of attacking, turning their lives into a Saw-like game of Russian Roulette, where it's literally press this button or die. Sounds horrific 😅😭

Exercising our own free will does not have to include actions that are exploitative or otherwise harmful to others. It only sounds outrageous to those who do 👀👀👀

It's esp cringe every time an aging bigot learns a new slur, then they say it All. The. Time. like that one Spongebob ep with no Flipper sounds 🙃

Remembering how my covert faux-Mormon narc mom watched me lose my place of 12+ years, even making buddies with my new (5th) landlord, and it was me being angry about it, specifically me saying "fuckery" a lot during, that consistently sent her into spiraling hysterics 🙃

Been hard keeping up with all of the mergers occurring lately, but TIL that my old credit union is merging with another CU.

It will always bust me up every time the RNG in DQ3 2DHD lines up just right, and a low-level enemy gets absolutely clobbered with a high-level ability/spell/crit. Just sheer, visceral destruction 😅

Currently psyching myself up to do brake shoe replacement 😅😭

When we choose to live unapologetically, shedding ppl no longer feels like loss 👀

Currently in a work truck with three reportedly straight dudes, all bitching about women. No way these guys are straight, given all their shit-talking 🙃

Tho the day job I'm working all week is not one of my favs, the insight I gain into our current social trajectory makes it so worth it, for better or worse. Ever read The Red Masque of Death? 😅😭

In other news, today is my birthday, which I have a complicated history with. On one hand, I don't want anyone to make a big deal about it; on the other, I sometimes wish someone would bc I've never experienced a celebration of my life that didn't involve a hidden agenda 😅🙃

idk if this is normal or if my rolls are really that bad, but I've been trying to learn the last ability for a Monster Wrangler with middling Wisdom...and who's currently lvl 50 😅😭

The absolute last person who should be wielding a chainsaw 👀😅