hello!!! it's uh tony.. or octave.. idc what im called atp but uh on a more important note i am going to be quitting shedtwt.. its sorta not helping my mental health but i ignored that until my friend oscar confronted me about it. so props to him and uh yeah. ill be unfollowing most shedtwt accs sry

"you can tell me if you don't want me to vent" no the FUCK i cannot. i will guilt myself into telling you that you can vent even when i don't want you to because i know you don't have anyone else to talk to

im.. scared to show my cuts lowk... wait could i even call them cuts since it's rare for me to even get cat scratches...?

goodnight everyone. i hope i dont wake up tomorrow.

unfortunately i have been hired for the job of living. now someone fire me, or i will quit.

i gotta limit my calorie intake sheesh 😞

I FOUND MY OTHER SAFETY PIN AND THIS ONE IS SHARPER SO I'MA GO CUT NOWWAAA

i have ice cream I'm happy now

I wish that one dude I was friends with in third grade was still my friend so I could hit his vape bru..

I wanna get high.. but I've never smoked weed before 🤧

I'm getting ice cream so I feel better :D

currently listening to slipknot at full volume coz I'd rather give myself a headache than relapse again :P

wait guys.. what if this is why I hardly have any irl friends.. it's because they're afraid of how m̶e̶n̶t̶a̶l̶l̶y̶ ̶i̶l̶l̶ smoking hot I am!!

not even kidding i js enjoy seeing people cry (unless it's my bf) and I ESPECIALLY enjoy hurting my little sister

I remember once I told my friend that if I can't hurt others I'll js hurt myself and that entire sentence was js WILD. like uhm I'll js do both?? lmao

I hate how I can't even tell my therapist about this because like I know she'll have to tell my mom about the stuff I say..

I genuinely do not know what's wrong with me like my friend said aspd and then my online dad said bpd (he has it so ig he can see it in others?? idfk) but likee.. I doubt it's either of those my dumbass is js overreacting atp

idek where everything went wrong like I was PERFECTLY fine a few yrs ago.. three whole years of this bullshit is srsly ruining my mental

I wanna play pjsk

there's like idk no discord servers that I can vent in without those assholes tryna give me incorrect or useless advice

I wish my mom was happier I hate seeing her so stressed all the time

money is my number one problem and it pmo

all my problems would be fixed if I had more money

yk my mom said that I'd have no more privacy if I ever tried to kms. getting my phone checked regularly and not having a door is worth not going to school in person

I'm more than old enough to stay home alone and get my little sister off the bus ts pmo

I wish my mom would try harder into getting me into online school

I wanna cry. I don't wanna go to school tomorrow it's not fair

I will probably try to kms in the school bathrooms tomorrow if I actually go but whatever it most likely won't even work

I forgot how much I love break the brake by xdinary heroes

╭ 🩸┆ octave ˙ . -ˋˏ 15+ cis men dni, I block freely °｡ ᵎᵎ ‧˚꒰ gw: 90lbs cw: 110lbs .ᐟ ‧˚ ╰ ⸝ ♡ or ⟳ to be moots ᵎ ·₊ ★

this person is so kind... I'm new to edtwt do idk any of the terms 🥹🫶

if I don't have any scars to prove it, did it really happen?

"he's gonna want to get rid of her" no mom. my brothers not like you who gets a cat and as soon as they do one thing wrong you get rid of them.

"you should boycott amazon!!" NO. I'm not boycotting nth cos it's not gonna benefit me in any way.

bro wait do I have a cannibalism kink.. help noones gonna be my friend anymore 😭

I want someone to eat me like not even sexually js someone to tear the flesh off my bones and devour it while all I can do is sob and watch

I can touch my pinkie to my thumb when I wrist check now XD

ugh.. I'm going to DREAD moving to arizona.. I'm scared to tell my bf because I don't wanna make them sadder than they already are.. ts is so hard man

I hate not being able to make my bf happy.. I can't go to school because of my overwhelming anxiety and I'm too scared to ask my mom if I could js go for lunch. I hate ts bro I wanna make them happy I wanna see them smile more I hate seeing them so sad...

this is so not rad chat

I.. found a shard of glass on the ground. I wanna pick it up buttt my family is withe me.. rah

did I just get harassed on discord for putting my sexualities in a server intro? yes. am I going to rant about it to whoever finds my posts? also yes.

wth is people's problem with fictoromantic people?? as a fictoromantic person myself it pmo how people are always so weirded out by it. Like dude LET ME LIVE MY LIFE.

I hate when I tell someone my sexuality and they're js like "isn't that like everyone?" HOE OBVIOUSLY FUCKING NOT.

why do I keep having this very strong urge to hurt everyone around me so they won't be sad when I'm gone??

"please don't let me go crazy. put me in a field with daisies. might not work, but I'll take a maybe"

"I get intrusive thoughts like burning my hair off, like hurting somebody I love, like does it really ever stop?"

everyone says that lesbians listen to girl in red... but I'm a guy and I love girl in red 🤧

"I'm runnin low on serotonin. Chemical imbalance got me twisting things"

"I want to be able to open up but my feelings are fatal.."