E:i keep letting myself get worse

E:i wish i wasn't like this

E:god i'm so sorry for being such a miserable piece of shit, i don't know how to do any better when i'm doomed to always experience life tired and in pain

E:seriously tho, the amount of times one shows up in the list matching all of the features but turns out to just be a relationship counselor or couples therapist instead is a clear indicator that profiles are not properly categorized and the site doesn't work

A:Time to look through another list of therapists... Out of state In-person only and far away Doesn't respond Spiritual healing Alternative medicine No experience in trauma-based disorders Not accepting new clients Listing lied about their specialties ... Fuck.

A:WHY ONLY DWIGHT? THAT'S SUCH A WEIRD DECISION

E:we don't blame Avery for how she used to run the system, we just also recognize how much of the barriers she had put up still need to be dismantled. we have a lot of progress to make

J:pumpkin

E:anyone looking to bully an espeon? i may know one that would find great enjoyment from it,,,

A:Seems like Russ is starting to put more of a demonic vibe behind their fursona and I'm all for it lol

E:day 2 of wrist brace was fucking annoying but like, gotta deal ig

E:this will probably always be true btw, i'm always happy to spill some tea about them oºo

E:i can already tell that when we have the time and energy to draw, we're going to go on a spree of embarrassing each other with humiliating pics lol

E:oooooooOoOoOoh you wanna think about Avery's chest, you wanna compliment her on them so bad oooOoOoOoh you should totally comment on them whenever you see her ooOoOooh eheheh

E:god i love being a pain in the ass sometimes. making vore jokes is great because none of my headmates like vore but have to contend with the ramifications of me making those jokes to people anyways ûºû i also just love gathering new ways of (lovingly, fsfs) tormenting the others, especially Avery

E:well, our mental health and stress levels have gotten so bad that now our physical health is starting to fall apart... looks like we'll be wearing a wrist brace at work today ūºū

A:Life is getting a lot harder for us very quickly, and so our head's not been in a great place. Please be patient with us as we will be dissociating almost nonstop and will likely be having frequent bouts of rapid front changes as well. I'm so tired...

E:we so desperately want to participate in the destigmatization of mental health, and we do to some degree advocate for it, but for DID/OSDD/etc. we still find ourselves chickening out and keeping quiet. these conditions will never be understood without advocacy and yet we can't get the courage...

J:thinking about giving up on drawing once I finally get through my current queue tbh

E:this just in: you can tell that i'm caspian because of the way that i am, apparently lol

E:ok, so it's been 72 hours since the last time June has fronted. to my knowledge it's just been Avery and i trading front the whole time since. i don't love this

A:Genuinely had moment today where I got mad at something and then had to stop myself from crying. But not like, angry crying, crying because I saw my reaction to the thing was anger and I just... it hurts that it's how I react to things. I don't like getting mad, I wish I wasn't like that

J:Still trying to help Russ settle into the system a bit and explore what they've got going on. Been a real interesting experience since they went dormant not long after we discovered we were plural, things are a bit different with us now lol

J:I'm sad skunktember is over, but I guess now it's dogtober and several of my headmates can celebrate ówò

J:Also, having the new pinned thread and all of our refsheets done makes me happy. I can have a little serotonin as a treat ówò

E:we're entering our "fuck you, brain" era where we tell our brain to fuck off if it tries to tell us what we should be. Russ and i especially have been at the receiving end of a lot of it, Avery too, and y'know? nope, done, we decide our own paths ùºú

J:I think, after much deliberation, it's time to go back to my roots... I need to be much more of a brat ^w^

E:btw for those of you who still don't know us too well, just wanna let you know that one of my favorite pastimes is spilling my headmates' secrets so if any of y'all wanna know any embarrassing stuff about them all you need do is ask (fairly specific questions are preferred)

E:keep furry weird

E:in case none of us have ever said this here, if you take issue with kink, this page isn't for you. don't make it our problem that you disapprove of someone talking about things like adult diapers or vore or whatever. just putting that out there

A:Maybe it would be easier for us to get along if we did have more conscious control over fronting. It's a real shame that skill's unobtainable...

A:I feel a little bad about undermining Russ the other day. They were so confident and I kinda fucked that a bit. Last thing we need is for them to start losing that about themself. They aren't used to the new system dynamics yet I guess, they were gone for like, 7 years

J:Y'all, there was a time when I was much more willing to go all out and freely post all of my kinks and shit like that but like, I'm a lot more hesitant now tbh I do appreciate the encouragement tho lmao, maybe I'll have the confidence again soon ówò

J:Sudden urge to post the horniest, most depraved thoughts in my head...

Heyo! Welcome to our page! This is a thread for anyone who wants to know more about us. (All refsheets shown are drawn by @alsoangle.bsky.social who is absolutely amazing pls go show love) Now for some introductions:

J:If only Bluesky allowed saving a draft post then maybe I'd actually start working on that pinned thread lol

J:Still gotta make that pinned thread... Anyway we're still kinda sitting with the realization we basically accidentally music therapy'd Russ back from dormancy so yeah that's weird

A:I keep reminding myself that actually people*can* recover from BPD and that I *don't* have to be this way forever and that keeps me going honestly

J:Ok so both Avery and Cassie have begun a downward spiral so our collective mental health has not been great :/

A:TIL the sound of like 6 deer screaming is very surreal and terrifying when you hear it at 3:30 while slowly gaining consciousness and becoming aware of reality

E:seems like Avery's officially doubling down on being an umbreon, and her ref is coming next, so it's finally official that the majority of our system is pokemon lmao ngl i didn't expect this as an outcome, i'm just too powerful oºo

Don't go outside! There are DEER out there, and they keep saying "mwee!"

E:y'all, i'm really starting to lose it here. i can tell my depression's getting worse and i just don't know what to do? especially since i can't find the drive to do anything at all

If in doubt go AAAAA! #foxpopvli #art

E:in other news, June just got a new refsheet and is over the moon about it. she also said i get to be next oºo

E:now that Avery's bouncing back and returning to addressing her own stuff, she wants to try to help lift me and Mayple out of our issues too but i think she's relearning that actually our issues require actual therapy to improve. so's her's.

J:even better, a system bodyswaps with a singlet but the singlet and the host of the system stay put, and the rest of the system moves to the singlet's body effectively making them the host of a system

-completely buries you in tail-

E:second follow up, a system bodyswaps with a singlet but instead of the singlet moving to a different body, some of the system's headmates move in to join the singlet in their own body thereby effectively making two systems

A:hey, anyone know someone who does refsheets that they'd recommend? I'm kinda starting to give up on the idea of actually doing all our refs myself, I'm behind by a couple :/