if only you knew what I did to myself last night and today, possibly the most I've hurt myself

College classes started today and it's just been a very long day for many reasons I didn't even talk about, and still no commissions on any platform people aren't even remotely interested. 😮‍💨

I wanted to share this really amazing art (the first one) made by my amazing friend and artist SahraMina It made me cry lol it's a call back to my original first 2020 Tsuki and Asami art which I made around this time between February and March 6 years ago now that's crazy lol.

Not surprised but all of the art yesterday flopped, I stayed up all night and day working to release multiple drawings on Halloween and Christmas and this happened and well I did it again this Valentine's lol. Also my yt channel is like dead dead right now it's sad

18 hours of work just for the Tsuki art to flop again on all platforms lol, I hope the rest of you had a great Valentine's day #art #artist #digitalart #valentine's

Last Valentine's Day drawing, or so Tsuki's heard, one of my brothers kept telling me to make this lol #art #artist #digitalart #valentines

Glimpses #art #artist #digitalart #valentine's

Happy Valentine's Day, I hope you all have an amazing day. 4 versions of Valentine's Tsuki #art #artist #digitalart #valentine's

Valentine's Day 2026 arrives, Kurai isn't very fond of that day. I started drawing at around 8 am, and I just finished this one, my third drawing, right now at 5 am lol, I can barely stay awake. I'm going to sleep for a bit but I'll be posting some more stuff later today. #art #artist #ocart

One more little push because my classes start on Tuesday and it seems very likely I won't be able to go for several reasons including still no money for materials or transportation. #art #artist #digitalart

Reupload because I forgot some details which adds to this, took me forever to make these doodles lol #art #artist #digitalart

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At least no one here was mean, the few I've talked too are kind. So thank you for atleast letting me silently share my art and talk about my characters and stories. I am wishing every artist on here the best, don't give up like me. Keep posting, keep creating, keep sharing your amazing art

I might delete this account I don't ever get any comments and barely any interactions in general, but also the person I was staying on here for ended up deleting their account a few weeks ago and well I just don't really have a reason to stay uploading anymore.

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No comms yet, and his comment continues to haunt me all these years later

Doodles Space Suit Celestia, Valentine's Tsuki and Paranormal Inc special unit member Blue #art #digitalart #artist

Pretty bad depressive episode or something today, quick vent sketches

From completely burnt out all January to completely locked in this first week of February lol 😪 #art #artist #digitalart #oc

Don't forget about Kurai either #art #artist #digitalart #oc

Pocket sketchbook doodles #art #artist

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a goodbye to and from her and her unshared story I decided not to show last year, 2025 was 5 years of both Tsuki and her as well, my most forgettable and unpopular oc Asami. #art #artist #digitalart

Is this really the best I can do? I feel like deleting this across all platforms honestly, I feel like maybe I shouldn't have posted it knowing how much damage it can do to me

A melancholy sun rises, she's ok. I think. Let 2025 be, love yourself and all of your imperfections. #art #artist #digitalart #ocart

Going through my art crying and trembling from the overwhelming feelings of how disappointed I am with it and just how much I genuinely hate my art. I'll be ok I'll be ok I'll fine

Kurai collage I made since someone was curious about him and wanted to see more of him and know more of his story

Drawing I made last night right before I went to sleep, or more accurately as I was laying fighting to keep my eyes open after a bad day. It sucks, but it's genuine. Art block remains strong nearly 4 weeks later. It wasn't a good day today either, just wanted to say goodnight. #art #artist 🥹

Well it's too late now, I'm sad I couldn't surprise him with that pizza today but I guess it is what it is. Atleast I finally got these comms off of my chest since I was nervous about sharing them but curious to see what would happen now with the comm sheets. They'll be there i guess

So my little brother got sick last night and was crying because he was looking forward to a pizza party that was going to happen today and I've been thinking about it all night, so right now I'm aiming to just get atleast 1 commission to buy and surprise him before the day ends #art #artist

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Just a little collage of the Kitsu Squad including the other 2 who remained mostly hidden last year as well as Tsuki's and Maki's mom, it almost looks like someone's trying to find and keep track of them lol. #art #artist #digitalart

Art blocked 3 weeks now but I made this. Words can't describe how much I hate myself and my art #art #artist #digitalart

The only person I would consider a friend, my first and most active follower on here deleted his account. He talked me out of quitting art and more importantly, talked me out of hanging myself when I was about to jump a few days ago. He was also Kurai's only fan and I was making this for him 😢

Sketch in my little pocket sketchbook from today, January 22 #art #artist

Little sketch on my pocket sketchbook from January 20 #art #artist

It's been the same on here as it has been on every other art platform. Maybe I should just stop talking and only upload art when it's finished

I knew this was going to happen lol, I don't feel like continuing the drawing at all right now. 😮‍💨

It's getting late, I'm very sleepy and also my earbuds are about to die anyways so I'm going to sleep. I just hope I'll make more progress later lol. The drawing is focused on my loneliness and is intended for my other art platforms I gave up on. You'll understand when you see it I hope

Drew for 5 hours straight thanks to listening to music and a song that actually inspired me to start the drawing. It wasn't that enjoyable the art block is still strong and I only finished a sketch. The rest feels like too much work at the moment lol but hey I finally actually drew his week

I'm really lonely I keep going to all of my dead accounts desperately wanting to talk with someone but there's no one, it's making me cry and it scares me it'll be this way forever, it's already been this way my entire life so it's a very real possibility.

Several people have left me on read for several days now. Lesson I've had to learn a few times over the years is to never ever vent or talk about how your feeling with someone else

Lately I've been blasting my songs in the car and singing loudly, especially if it's a rock song lol. Makes me feel free. Too bad I don't get to use the car for very long though. The idea of singing for my songs has always scared me but it's enjoyable lol, but only because no one can hear me lol

Goodnight everyone 🌠 Here's an Asami sketch I never finished from around September or October, she's hugging her pillow tightly and crying much like I do sometimes. She has a lot of unfinished sketches

Surprisingly my brother brought up my character Fukushi, he very much didn't like her or almost any of my ocs so it was surprising to me and I told him a bit about her, no one knows anything about her other than her connection to my her owl. Third image wasn't drawn by me and was gifted to me!

Imposter syndrome