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Happy Wednesday. Here’s a poem:

Update: this did NOT happen because she was sick and we had to reschedule. We will revisit this in probably two weeks because our schedules don’t alight til April 😭

Think I’m gonna ask [REDACTED] if she wants to be official on Thursday. Thought about doing some small romantic gesture but I figured it might just be better to talk it out and gauge where we’re at together

Running out of places to post her but here’s Audrey

Date on Thursday with [REDACTED] and I’m trying to figure out how to get around to finally kissing her and I’ve settled on the “go for a hug around her waist and seize the opportunity since our faces will already be so close together” strat. Ol reliable

I’m kind of quick to fall for people so I’ve been extra vigilant in determining my feelings for this person and there’s still that uncertainty of “but do I REALLY like her” but then I’ll be looking at her while we talk and I’ll get this swell in my chest and yeah my feelings are very real

God I hate how insane dating makes me feel.

It is too early in the morning to have people trying to argue with me about the Democrats’ complicity in the ongoing genocide of Palestinians and how they too are agents of global imperialism so good morning Bluesky you seen them NBA trades or whatever

CFB25 still being $70 is madness and I’m going to hate myself when I buy it in like a week

Unproductive little slug for the first 15 days of the month and so now I think it’s time to uh not do that I guess?

America is very much a conservative nation by many measurements but I always forget how a lot of socially accepted behaviors here are heavily punished elsewhere. Like our celebrities do CRACK and we love them for it.

The way that I already wanna hop on these apps and start dating again now that I have my apartment lol don’t even have a couch but I’m trying to get a wife!

Girlfriend when?

Might be ending the year on a bang

So many football games on today and they’re all important and I have to toil in the fields and talk to white people til 10pm why has god abandoned us

Got sucked into one of those Facebook Reels movie about a billionaire heiress getting her identity stolen by a school bully and it’s so fucking awful but I can’t stop watching. They literally did the Perks of Being a Wallflower “kiss the prettiest girl in the room” bit at one point lmao

Had a dream that I was on a really exciting date and then I kept stuttering about non alcoholic beer brands and I could see my fake future girlfriend slowly getting the ick. Traumatizing stuff

Far from a controversial opinion but I think The Simpsons is probably the best tv show ever made

Channeling my frustration of not getting approved for an apartment into buying way too many Christmas gifts is probably not the healthiest way to cope but it makes me feel good so!

Thinking about her (the giant 5 gallon tub of caramel corn I keep telling myself I’m going to buy before Christmas)

Got in the Lyft and he was blasting Standing Next To You how do I tip this man 100 billion thousand dollars

Finished reading Frankenstein earlier today and now I want a good faithful film adaptation (one that gives Frankenstein’s monster long flowing hair)

In the last 24 hours I have had two separate people mention wanting to buy something that I have already bought them for Christmas and I don’t know how to be like “haha do you REALLY wanna buy that 🤪” without it being super obvious

Really swinging for the fences here

Shut up you stupid stupid man

Absolutely horrendous basketball being played rn

Been exposed to a lot of racism on Twitter and it’s kind of exhausting to see how everybody around the world hates Black people lol so I will try to be here more often

Here’s a poem I started working on in August that I can’t quite bring together. Wrote it thinking about how pain and love are often close bedfellows and the existence of one begets the existence of the other.

I hope y’all are ready to watch Texas win a natty cause I know I am

Restaurants that stop serving breakfast at 10:30am will not be seeing the gates of heaven. I do not want to eat a bacon cheeseburger at 10:48 on a Monday, give me some fucking eggs!

Two more sleeps til I get to see the homies @rkivemyhope.bsky.social @agustdcafe.bsky.social

Cranked out a 16 page, 4000 word recommendation report for one of my classes in about 3 hours because I want to spend my days off playing videogames and not dealing with silly little things like “my educational future” or whatever

I keep receiving bad and annoying news and so I think I am going to order myself some pasta and maybe watch a loud and violent movie

Being on here is weird because it’s forcing me to reckon with how much the way I tweeted was influenced by the identity I projected of and onto myself while using Twitter. Like I tweeted compulsively and obscenely, playing to a crowd that was never really there to begin with. Wild stuff.

Do not know why the algorithm on here believes that I would be interested in Taylor Swift and the ramblings of Swifties but I would like to be excluded posthaste

The problem is that people use “reading” as a stand in for “consuming” and “engaging with” a book. Listening to an audiobook achieves these things, but it is literally not the same thing as reading a book. That being said, only a pedant points this out when someone says they’ve “read” an audiobook.

Some man on the bus who was high on something far more exotic than grass told me that I was cute and in the same breath asked if I was gay to which I obviously responded “ah no sorry, but thanks!” in order to get out of the conversation quickly but honestly good on him for clocking me immediately

Letting go of my kindle reading streak so I can read a physical book is proving to be much harder than anticipated. It is a completely meaningless stat that no one but me cares about and amounts to absolutely nothing more than small dopamine rushes whenever I look at it. Nevertheless…I am a prisoner

Had Cava after work and they forgot to add the braised lamb but I mean people are dying so I guess this is something I can recover from. Maybe.

Two of my regulars are a dad and his 12 year old daughter and today the daughter was venting to me about school and she stopped and was like “I like venting to you because I feel like you’re not going to judge me” and that filled my heart with so much emotion and purpose

Eating healthy is nice and cool until you’re hungry all the time

Good night.

I feel like on Twitter I was a little too compulsively heterosexual so I think I will be a lil extra gay here. Where are all the DICKS? And perhaps the balls

Thinking about her (the ube ice cream I had in Hawaii)

Way too much of my sense of self worth is tied to my standing on the goodreads leaderboard. Currently leading all my friends on books read for the year but probably sitting pretty low on the “overall life fulfillment” index. 81/85 books read btw 🤪

Look I’m not one of those poets who is like “the only way you can consider yourself a real poet is if you answer my riddles three!” but it is so wild to meet poets who just don’t read any of the classics! Like what do you mean you’ve never read Longfellow, that’s like baby’s first poet!