so anatomy class is cool fun and games and all and here i am at midnight trying to memorize all of the bones of the human skeleton instead of doing my project because I'm really cool this way (send help I have a big exam over this lmao)

you said in one of your sessions that your favorite color was purple. you remembered? you wrote it down? it’s my job. i don’t know my own favorite color sometimes. why do you like purple? why not colors like green or red or blue or pink?

wippppppppppppppp guys i’m trying one day i will draw my cg designs… one day…

wippppppppppppppp guys i’m trying one day i will draw my cg designs… one day…

SS not mine! FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS BEE PIECE OF SHIT STILL CONTINUES TO HAUNT ME

OH FUCK-

choregraphing my new skating program!!! hopefully my skills come in clutch enough to actually see improvement this time :3

tbh it’s not the best-looking but tbh trying to embroider numbers on MINKY fabric w/o a hoop and when you haven’t done it in years deserves SOME grace. Also while trying to attach the fabric to felt (i mean felt is easy to sew on so that’s smthing)

i haven't sewn/embroidered for over four years (since my depressive episode brought many of my childhood hobbies down) and now i'm willingly doing it for a school project?? maybe i'm actually coming back to life

me when i get so pent up over a single poll that i analyze the shit out of characters, their hobbies, their everything (this is specific to yellow ava/m. my girl got screwed over twice and even tho she's not even my favorite she deserves sm better)

she asked me how to be funny, but its not something you could teach #ava #avm #alanbecker

*adds to the list of irrefutable proof that yes, tsc is in fact the oldest*

yes this is the totally not cliche royalty au that I originally made for my ocs and went "hey why not insert ava/m characters in the place of my oc aus in the place of my ocs"

drew some flowers and now i'm feeling better - not as difficult as people but it brings me a semblance of comfort

muted colors… the fact that these sticks get thrown irl problems :3333 the fact that blue, in all her worry and second in all their paranoia couldn’t save him… the fact that purple slowly healed just for this to happen… the fact that everyone felt so close yet so apart…

blue and green’s sibling relationship here… the new blue and second crumbs that made me love their dynamic as the honorary parents…. purple…. :3

why did the dark lord turn into the dark liquid

sometimes i feel horrible and burnt out and twisted into a pretzel and then i have to remind myself i have never and will never use ai.

foti posting cuz it’s been a while some relationship lore haha (the author’s barely disguised emotional familial detachment /j)

happy almost one year to this silly series that kinda prompted everything including why i'm even here right now lmao in all seriousness, when this arc released and onwards, i was in a very rough spot mentally and emotionally, and i took the risk of being seen as annoying to validate myself

OH MY GOSH THAT LAST PART IS CALLED THIS AU THAT’S *gets shot*

may i add with a smol hc of mine: yellow with low blood sugar/hypoglycemia and blue reminding them to eat to make sure they don’t pass out (based on my own experience as someone w/ low blood sugar lol) i also do hc that for blue but them looking out for everyone when it comes to food is cool too

can’t believe ppl are still reading shitpost fic i made when i was 14 years old about the BEE MOVIE 😭😭😭

me when doomed oc yuri i wrote myself makes me sad thinking about it (from this piccrew picrew.me/en/image_mak...)

pt 3: honestly besides all that i'm loving this school year. learning about bioscience and electives that i genuinely enjoy despite it being hard work really does make a difference <3

/ghost shitpost i used to have this weird reaction to steak sauce. SPECIFICALLY A1 steak sauce for some reason. it has since gone away but it's funny because had i been deathly allergic to it i would've died from drinking steak sauce. specifically A1 steak sauce

pt. 2: this phone ban is gonna be the fucking death of me but i get a loophole being a med academy student. i'm lowkey excited for this school year now that i'm finally learning what i love and what i want to pursue in the future <3

i really love the grapeduo - sec dynamic of them just being the most insufferable romantic little shits ever and second being entirely done with their antics as an aroace

not my english teacher using ai images 😔😔😔 first day of school and i forgot my scrubs cuz i thought my parents washed it :((

i want to preface this too by saying i am actually a very impatient and hotheaded perfectionist in real life and this is pretty difficult for me to accept the fact that it's gonna take time and i won't get it right away </3

me when gender crisis 4.0

i would be caught DEAD. SIX FEET UNDER THE GROUND before you see me using ai for anything. anyways guys i want to show you the rarest instance of me… drawing. i’ve been going to art classes and even tho i’m the worst in it i’ve been trying haha </3 don’t flame me i haven’t drawn since 3rd grade

so i was today years old when i realized shoes aren’t supposed to hurt when you’re wearing them. so this WHOLE FUCKING TIME- /SRS POST

CHAT MY BACK SCRATCH IS FINALLY HERE USSYQUSH YAYYYY after four months of constant fails it’s finally consistent and my coach and i were so happy <3 skating update haha <3

if anyone does this to my poems believe me you will see a ghost haunting you for the rest of your life

my poems all got fucking deleted from my notes app how could've i been so FUCKING STUPID AND SOME OF THEM I WORKED ON FOR YEARS. 100+ poems that i've made over two years and all my ups and downs. all gone. i should've done them on google docs.

rewatching spirited away…again. this is my sign to watch more ghibli stuff :3

istg showcase events in figure skating is literally what you get when you give a bunch of theater kids figure skates and be like “ok now do a program to a song you’d skate to at any chance.” BECAUSE THAT’S LITERALLY WHAT IT IS (the number of musicals i can name off the top of my head)

book rec: counting by 7s by Holly G. Sloan. it’s got a really cool (heavily implied to be neurodivergent) protagonist and a very well done story about grief. AND THE FOUND FAMILY LETS NOT FORGET ABT THE FOUND FAMILY. it’s so hilarious and heartwarming literally the definition of band of misfits

kinda wish my existence wasn't made to be a political weapon so i don't have to be so achingly aware of everything but i'm going to have to talk about politics more on here. dw i'll continue to post abt silly sticks i'm just hopping mad rn

he only ever cared about religious indoctrination, never the education of kids that "oh so he desperately wants to protect from the drag queens" and not the child pervs like the one he's bootlicking rn that's sitting in our presidential office. "We did it boys! we made education great again!" /sarc

@starlitecryolite.bsky.social where do i get my certification to be an “angst expert” /j /silly i need it for my au

i'm one of these aforementioned trans kids (who is also a student) who lives in oklahoma and i mean it with my whole entire heart: fuck this guy. i'm sure plenty of people hate him enough already but he can go eat shit and die

wtf is my state on i'm not surprised but damn ig every accusation IS a confession

the funny thing is that all of my online friends and my official online name is ghost. when originally it was a joke/placeholder username for me back on ao3 and it stuck so much it’s now my name and i love it

latest short: MITSI IN AN ACTUAL SHORT??? hopefully we’ll get to see more of her soon! i really want to know her beyond what ava 11 showed us and her relationship with victim! it’s so cute. cdg return aswell!! bro is just a buisnessman doing business

wtf was 13 year old me smoking

anyways here are my live (notes app) reaction to kpop demon hunters