happy Junicorn, remember when this fucking website censored this as Sexually Suggestive and then denied every appeal i tried to make to have the censor removed? yeah.. i think about it every time i see uncensored, untagged porn on my feed.

you ever get so sleep deprived you're nauseous all day, you feel like your brain is being squeezed out through that little hole where ur spine connects to the base of ur skull like the 90s playdough spaghetti maker toy, your eyeballs keep jittering, and also you forget how to spell words like OBTUSE

"excellent, there's three of me. there should be thrins now. TRIPLETS, THAT'S THE WORD." - @luckybonez.bsky.social in D&D just now. INT dump stat real.

love having a whole ass man wearing gloves and dark clothing walk into my front yard at 3:40 am. love living behind storage units where the owner takes ZERO accountability for the meth heads he rents units to!!!

I've made two of my older fanzines available on Itch, free to download!!! 🖤 If you never got a chance to check them out before, or simply want to add them to your library, they are now there to enjoy! 📖 machinelotus.itch.io

gonna be sappy on main and get real for a moment, but it actually makes me very happy that people like Sollilja as much as they do. she's my oldest OC and very dear to me. i made her when i was 11 years old (23 years ago as of posting this) and just some lonely little homeschooled kid.

Hello gay people on my computer, we're doing a big PRIDE sale on our book full of gay people!!! 🌈🌈🌈 Thats nearly 200 pages full of art, comics, and short stories full of 3 WHOLE YEARS of heartfelt OC hyperfixation. DIGITAL 🩷 itch.io/s/192148/pri... HARDCOVER 🧡 shop.machinelotus.com

me when I kill the enemy holiday with a goo splatter with spirit burn and mystic reverb from across the map

woke up thinking abt characters and such, and how much i unironically HATE the "i can fix them" trope. got me laying in bed thinking some Ship Of Thesus type shit. a lot of this is bc of public reception to a recent popular character, but also from personal past experience with my own bastard OCs.

i need to get back into the practice of Just Making Up A Guy for fun and whimsy. thinking about taking my old unused tiefling bard, Morrigan, and un-dnd-ifying him. he's got an interesting premise, unfortunately would not mesh well with 99% of groups, so he just sits unused. sad.

got so much dnd art in the pipeline i need to finish OTL .... peeling myself away from my fucked up rabbit for five minutes challenge, level impossible apparently.

` i want to be scared don't take that away in love with the sadness i somehow enjoy ` #FFXIVSol #SolliljaMagnusdottir

i woke up to over 50 messages in the groupchat (sadly could not screenshot Discord's little 50+ before it blinked out of existance) every single one of those messages was about Seven Deadlock.

thank u Rocky Hail Mary for giving me the most helpful tool to my lexicon. when my autistic ass is trying to ask a question, but my tone makes it sound like a statement, i simply add "question mark" at the end, and people Understand.

this rabbit is bisexual!

The terrible robot loan shark is trans and attracted strictly to your wallet. (jk he's pan) 🩷💛🩵

thank you, @sarenstone.com for this beautiful comm of my lovely lady. never is she happier than when she's bleeding from a good fight. now if only her opponent would stop eating cup noodles mid-match.... #SolliljaOC #SolliljaMagnusdottir

eater 🎨 by @sarenstone.com

`but every day i dig my own grave and as i dive in you'll hold my hand` #FFXIVSol #SolliljaMagnusdottir

i need everyone to know i genuinely considered shaving my head over this (my hair is past my elbows) but i refrained... took a shower instead. now my depressive mania has moved on to new and more exciting things 😌

every time i start to think... hey, maybe i'm finally getting my art mojo back... hoo boy does the universe humble me REAL quick.

A bunch of the ticket c*ms I've been working on for the fundraiser. Thank you so much everyone for supporting me and letting me beat up your beautiful characters ♥

` Every breath you take 🎵 And every move you make 🎶 Every bond you break, every step you take 🎵 I'll be watching you 💖✨ ` #FenYrr #SolliljaMagnusdottir

at long last ... it is finally (mostly) complete OTL all that's left is to start accumulating artwork (and to figure out how to trim video with VLC and embed the file into carrd, for her voice claim) sollilja-ffxiv.carrd.co

can a girl not get weirdly parasocial in peace anymore? (she's also looking at them like that because the idea of them calling anyone pathetic is the definition of ironic.) Book, of course, belongs to @sarenstone.com #OCart #OriginalCharacter #SolliljaOC #FenOC

TONIGHT IS THE STREAM! I'm going to be hosting a Fundraising Stream TONIGHT at 8:00 PM (CST) to help alleviate some of my recent medical debt. I will be accepting donations and offering limited commission slots that I'll work on on stream! 🦋 twitch.tv/saren

happy birthday, light of my life @luckybonez.bsky.social this is us forever btw.

FUNDRAISING STREAM INFO!!! I'm going to be doing c*mmissions and streaming on Friday (5/15) in order to help me raise some money to cover some of the expensive surgery I've had to have done in the past months, as well as future work I still need to do. More info below and in the thread 🔽

imagine being blind in one eye and trying to text without your glasses on, and your spouse mocking every typo you make. @jamesandthen.bsky.social so much for better or worse

it do be like this sometimes

"stop using Spotify, use Bipple instead! Discord isn't safe anymore, switch to Merpo! if Bluesky implodes, we're all going to Weeby!" i'm tired dude. i'm fucking tired. every week it's some new alternative to something, and i'm exhausted of constantly having rebuild my platform over and over.

continuing the tradition of wishing the world's worst tax purpose spouses a happy birthday. their relationship in a nutshell. #OCart #OriginalCharacter #SolliljaOC #FenOC

started the process of my Revenant Apex Legends back piece today 😎 gonna finish up the totem and get started on the second half sometime in July.

i am going to learn how to pain with dynamic colors and expressive lighting before the world explodes. that is my only goal for this year.

`i've got a plan that's flexible; don't get caught anywhere.` #ApexLegendsFanart #Revenant

i've been on an unplanned social media break. i found myself burnt out by youtube, twt/bsky, reddit, etc. and was just tired of always having a screen in my face all day. instead, i've been reading. went to the bookstore and picked up a series: Arc of a Scythe, by Neal Shusterman.

spent all of October travelling/visting family, and it was very fun. but boy am i glad to be home with nothing to do for the next month but write, draw, and watch movies that make me think.

sometimes i wish that i could pay my more talented artist friends big money to color my scribbles... i have so many pieces sitting unfinished, because i am so afraid of coloring them and spoiling the works.

man, i had to pull out flash drives and dig DEEP for some of these files. but here they are, my various flavours of Bastard. and Sollilja is here too :))) i really need to revisit some of these guys and give them some love and some fresh looks....

bsky is silencing free expression and doesn't understand its own audience. #bskycensorship Post the image, change your pfp, use the tag to flood the Discover feed!

lmao anyways i jumped on the trend and made a FFXIV-specific side account for Sol. follow her here: bsky.app/profile/solm...

sometimes i feel very disheartened that i've never, in twelve years of posting my art online, ever been successful at it. my works never generate more than a handful of likes, and even fewer reblogs. i just consistently fly under the radar, across all platforms.

`Don't you just wanna wake up, dark as a lake; Smelling like a bonfire, lost in a haze? I take my whiskey neat, My coffee black, and my bed at three.` #ApexLegends #ApexLegendsFanart #Bloodhound

Sami's video was, as always, very entertaining and informative. (it helps she's one of the funniest people i know.) i've felt myself getting the itch to go back to school in hopes of curing recent stagnation. Coloso has proven to be a helpful alternative, that won't break the bank on student loans.

normally she likes to be drawn as a spider monster, but today she wanted to be a unicorn. #digitalart #OriginalCharacter #OCart #Sollilja

happy birthday to the world's worst tax purpose spouse 🎊🎉 [[ Fen belongs to @jamesandthen.bsky.social, Sollilja belongs to me (her birthday is tomorrow!) ]] #OCart #OriginalCharacter

"i was visiting your folks on Talos" either people at the lore department forgot something pretty crucial, or they're significantly leaving something out.

pov: you are also every person saying "wElL aCtuAlLy it's not that original" open your window come outside

pov: you are the CEO of a very specific video game company

i said this over on twitter, and i'll say it here too: this is completely unacceptable. i was never a fan of the Borderlands series before, and i'm sure as shit not a fan now.