I have ideas, I have desires, I want to do so many things But every day has been a struggle to even want to exist how does one even manage to stay alive when you are forced not to live...

Me: I mean, people like omegaverse but I never really understood the hype, it sounds so silly... That one fuckin fic: ✨ hello ✨ Me:

got into a convo about nsfw comms and someone asked me how much I charge for it and I just went "I don't do nsfw comms" the SILENCE that followed was kinda funny ngl

Also maybe it's just me but I REALLY hate the trend right now on CRK Twitter to refer to everyone with she/her pronouns (granted, it's usually male characters they do this with) I don't get it and I hate it, especially with my favs.... *sighs* is this another thing the kids are doing...

Was so excited cause I found a puremilk T4T fic but the page wouldn't load for some reason?? But then, upon looking at the snippet of the description I immediately got disappointed cause they use she/her pronouns for the two...

So uhh... do we fuck (with) Manju...

Can't believe it's Cookie Run of all things that's making me realize I love drawing boy tits... I love giving men tiddies holy shit it's so fun

Y'all I think I've given my eldest sister too many chances and my eyes are wide open... I need to get out of this house and properly disown everyone save for my nieces and middle sister... I just don't know where to go...

alright y’all. hyper tdick and tdick frotting while sharing a toy

Also for your consideration:

Well, Mikhail came from the masculine version of my middle name… I liked this spelling variant the best My actual name is uhhh, it’s a weird story involving DID and just having a connection with the name… Probs take too long to explain but there’s that 😅

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He can't help it, he's obsessed! ✨ #crk #shadowmilkcookie (implied #puremilk)

I'm actually fuckin cooking, I can't stop staring at this AAAAAAAAAAA I need to draw the rest of this page but I can't stop staring FUCK

Have slots open on my main account (SFW OBVIOUSLY) If ya'll are interested, any help is appreciated

🧚✨ (the beginnings of my tink x plant journey from 2022 LMAO)

You know what? Gonna share this old comic cause even tho it didn't do well, I am still proud of it at least in terms of paneling... This was based on an Abyss Prince Aether AU The lyrics are from the song "Human Enough" by ONR (2/5) #aebedo #genshin #comic

Nobody's up at this hour, maybe I can share this in peace... I haven't drawn lingerie in a while, forgot how fun it is~ #crk #purevanillacookie

and now they're naked 😗 [ #ocnio ⋄ #oc ⋄ #OCsky]

We love flustered boys

Nah bruh cause why did I just now meet people who read my fics?!?! AND ACTUALLY ENJOYED THEM?!?! THEY LIKED MY WRITING?!?! WHAT

oh... oh that's... that's me... that's all of them... everything I published... ah...

saving the sketch here cause I really like the bodies and don't wanna hide em under clothes ueueueee

My truth: PV - transmasc SM - genderfluid ES - transfem it just makes sense to me

I... I haven't written anything for the fic since I made those posts... My brain decided "yeah nvm this is shit we'll never amount to anything good" and abandoned it... I was so excited but now? Now I just feel like nothing matters anymore...

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I haven't given myself any time to do horni art/writing and I'm kinda sad cause it feels like this account is gonna be empty for a while longer 😅 Oh well, what can ya do...

It should be studied how I went from one ship with blue/gold theming where one of them has a 4-pointed star on their design... To another ship with blue/gold theming where one of them has a 4-pointed star on their design...

nyeh heh heh, now that he's home I feel more inclined to write that fic I mean, obviously I was gonna but like... I feel less stressed now that he's here? So silly of me...

I know writing can take months or even years to get to where you want it but MY GOD do some fic writers scare me with how fast they dish out shit... I think that's partially where I'm feeling insecure right now 😅

Need me to find more trans NSFW artists cause GOD DAMN the happiness I get seeing t4t and just trans bodies in general on my feed 😭

t4t cowboys?

I may have broken my promise to never post on twitter again on one account but I REFUSE to go back on the other... that being said, I wish I could yell about my fic writing and get responses back, ha ha... I feel... very very alone and it's hard to concentrate on the story...

Hmm, a moment of self reflection and... Napping 😅 I think I can keep going with this... I'll make it work

Really feeling like an outsider looking in again when it comes to fan works... I just do not know how to socialize and it scares me to wanna attempt 😅

GAHHHH I knew I would get stuck trying to write from only two POVs It makes more sense in these next few parts to write from SM's POV but I didn't wanna do it... ((I'm scared to write for him tbh)) *sighs* if this story is gonna be told, I need to try! I need to not feel scared and TRY

Update: as I'm writing out the chapter outline I'm starting to notice PV is slowly but surely becoming a victim of "this author has extreme anxiety and WILL project it onto the characters they're writing" and I'm sure it's fine but I'm also scared it's not how others view him...

ahhhh fuck I am outlining this fic and I'm already at chapter 3 wtf guys WTF I AM ACTUALLY WRITING AFTER OVER A YEAR??? Oh fuck I am so scared but I am liking what I got and wanna share it with peeps AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Okay okay I was planning out the fic in my head at work today and am gonna write it... gotta say, it's fun having two windows with multiple tabs open and the game running in the bg as I do research and outlines, ha ha... Kinda missed this feeling...

The best and worst part about being a nobody is nobody else hears you scream 😅✨

You ever get upset with how a fic is written that you debate how you'd write it differently then suddenly you wanna write that fic now but don't feel like you could cause you think you're insulting the author for taking the concept and making your own??

*sighs* I know I said I'd leave and not come back... But... There is just ONE au whose story I'd like to tell... Maybe I'll consider just posting it anonymously cause I'm sure with what I have in mind someone's gonna say shit 🙃🙃🙃

thinking about shadownilla choking play... like, PV letting SM wrap his hands around his neck while doin it as a form of trust exercise and honestly it take SM a lot to decide if he takes advantage of it or not 😅

I have an idea for a fanfic but I am still traumatized so my brain is immediately going "don't write it, you can't write for shit anyways" and it really hurts cause I am more inclined to believe it 🙃

ahhh fuck it, I'll share the nakey version here I still look at this wip from time to time while on discord cause GOD DAMN am i proud of how the bodies came out, heh heh~

Anything for that view.. #shadowvanilla #pureshadow #vanillashadow

🎭Is this what you wanted? Or is it even… better 🖤💙 That Smilk sprite made me do this🌚 #shadowvanilla #pureshadow #shadowmilkcookie #truthlessrecluse

Tw/⚠️ active content warning ⚠️ EP8 was so gay Shadow milk totally crashing the fuck out after what happened. #cookiecum #nsfc #pureshadow #shadowvanilla

🌞When you and I became one…🌛 Briefly, I felt it … A minute droplet of longing, hiding in the dark I know it, for I’ve felt the same #shadowvanilla

My god, my universe. #Cookierun #Crk #Shadowvanilla