so when my ex roommates dad helped me hook up the washer and dryer we swapped the hot and cold water lines ive been putting it off for fucking months and month and i just switched it it took less than five minutes wtf why am i like this 🫠🫠

ive been roller skating every week ive been stretching more and eating ive gained a lil weight back and my appetite isnt as fickle im angry instead of sad all the time. its slow its only been a month but it already feels like an eternity.

im gonna get so good at dodging kids at the rink someday my poor knees cant take much more of this lolol

im so over my workplace rn

idk man if i say 'i dont exactly know what healthy poly feels like but ive experienced unhealthy poly and im feeling similar' and you say 'im feeling compared to your ex' and i never SAID THAT TO YOU MAYBE just MAYBE IF THE SHOE FUCKING FITS YOUR BEHAVIOR IS THE PROBLEM. AND YOU KNOW

i want the quilt i made them back

idk how im supposed to act when i keep getting told one thing and then theres no god damn follow through over and over and over and somehow I'm the asshole? no fuck you. fuck you for lying to me. fuck you for never standing up for our relationship. fuck you

i cant barely concentrate on the stupid kaizen meetings im in today bc my mental is just fucked. why did i do this to myself

when we got together, my ex told me a previous non monogamous partner started a relationship with someone else and hid it from them. made them feel dirty, etc but they can do the same to me amd for some reason im the fucking villian. fuck you. you god damn hypocrite.

i did myself a duckin disservice and looked at my ex's Instagram story they immediately got back with their ex who broke up with them like two weeks before we broke up. yeah. i saw this coming. im still upset. isnt poly wonderful. instead of just being ethical they wanted to just be with them.

i hate corporate bs. fuck kaizen meetings

just sobbing at fullmetal alchemist brotherhood. its SO GOOD how do i always forget how good

gonna be an interesting year, might be getting two new roommates

my arm and shoulder is killing me today :(

i do not like how slow i am after taking off my skates LOL

i had forgotten how much i love roller skating

rewatching fullmetal alchemist brotherhood and i forgot how much i love gluttony lol hes so cute for no reason

i didnt wake up and cry today so go me

going from speaking every single day for three years to nothing is... awful

its stupid that i feel like i would rather die than continue living come on brain

im just embarrassed st this point

i went roller skating again today fell hard and then almost ran over a kid who fell right in front of me 🫠

i hate ruminating i hate that i can't stop

i made myself a decent lunch for work this morning. tiny w

i just want someone who is honest with me

going to rollerskate. im so sad i just want to sleep 🫠

i wish skate rinks didnt have such dumb hours :(

DO YOUR STRETCHES AND THANK ME LATER

i know futures are never guaranteed but like its so uncertain now. at least in the way of a life partner. i dont WANT to be alone. I just want someone who wants to actually share life with me. someday i guess ..

at least i have my babies

you know that sound clip where she's screaming it's not fair over and over? thst my brain

isnt she beautiful

i cant even bring myself to clean my house or do dishes my mind is hell. i just want someone here with me i wish someone could help me

crying for four days straight is not my favorite

i feel just so empty

i just want a partner who still wants me even theough the bad times. i just cant .. deal with bad times forming bc lack of accountability. i spent so much time explaining myself i dont want to do it anymore

its truly heartbreaking to realize how .. bad the avoidance was/is.

i have been sleeping terribly and if course last night I'm having dreams about them. like every time i went to sleep. ive women up three times. :(

my coworkers are so sweet ive gotten so many hugs today i dont want to be at work but i dont want to be home. i want to be held. i want to fall asleep in someones arms i want to be loved

i am a wreck

we broke up and im just so heartbroken

my love i no longer recognize you where has the warmth gone the way you look at me is different the way you move is different i am losing hope i am losing will i am alone

Fuck you bluesky for the age verification shit. Theres no way im giving anyone my id or ssn or anything what the fuck

Im tired of being strong I just want to cry and be held. Feels stupid being an adult.

Things are so hard right now chat

Doodling my bard at work

Being no contact with like all my family rly sucks. I miss having a family...the idea of it But i can't be around magats

I miss my cat

How am i supposed to just continue on

There should be a discount if your pet dies