My damn cat threw up on my bed and now I gotta wash all my bedding, I just wanted to read about the first son and the prince of England or about those goddamn firefighters 😭

It’s also been two years since “it was originally going to be Eddie” which, to me, no matter what happens on the Tv screen means Eddie Diaz is a gay man 🙂‍↕️

Two whole years since Evan Buckley became canonically bisexual and I’m still in a state of disbelief over it, like he is actually bi and it’s no longer a headcanon 😭

It’s moments like this that I wish I could like something casually and not let it consume my every thought and movement because the mere aspect of them rerunning the sperm donor arc is genuinely upsetting me to my core 🥰

Just saying it into the void, if they actually find a way to bring back Kameron and the sperm donor baby and have Buck be apart of their lives, I WILL hate it very very much :)

Oh you sweet, innocent, naive fool…you had no idea what storm was coming Happy One Year to the Bobby funeral yall 😭

I need an edit of Buck and the 118 during the montage in 9x15 to “You Will Be Found” from Dear Evan Hansen (I need to learn how to edit so bad)

I love my hot take that season 6 of 911 wasn’t bad at all, because I see everyone talk shit about it and I feel like an imposter trying to blend in

Thinking about Bobby in the depths of his addiction feeling like he had nobody to lean on vs Buck knowing he had a whole family to lean on because of Bobby 😭

I feel like, really anxious about this episode tonight I’ve never been more scared and it’s so much more different than my normal “oh I’m scared for a new episode”…I’m not prepared

BUCK BUCKLEY MY HEART HURTS FOR YOUUUUUUUU

My mom watched, I wanna discuss, and she simply does not care…how does one accomplish that!

If Buck is actually addicted to Tramadol this plotline is going to hit real close to home (my mom used to be addicted to it and it gave her horrid seizures and other complications)

I wonder what it’s like to watch this show as a casual viewer, cuz I know my mom will not care like this and will move on…this will consume my every waking thought and probably my dreams

I actually wanna cry over Buck as if he is my close and personal friend I love him so much, his pain is hurting me too and it is so silly

This episode has left me feeling incredibly sad idek what to do about that…they’ve really really killed any joy Buck had left and that final scene grounded that pain into my heart. And idk if it’s gonna be an addiction storyline or if this is a misdirect, all I know is that I’m scared

I am SO SCARED for tonight’s episode somehow, I am not mentally prepared to see Evan Buckley fall apart on my screen (I am excited to see supportive Eddie Diaz though)

I hate this fuckass state because wdym it’s gonna be 100° today? ITS ONLY MARCH!

Tim Minear I’ve actually never said anything bad about you ever!! Keep up the good work pookie!!

If Hen said she was watching Chris in 9x12 whilst he was away, but I’m 9x13 she is in Napa with Karen…who is watching after Christopher now

I’ve never seen an episode of this show beat Sink or Swim before, and whilst it’s likely to rise back up it is crazy to see it drop…because of THE BUDDIESODE. Like imagine they actually went canon, the numbers that would pull

I hope Buck had all his messages and photos with Bobby backed up to his iCloud or something because it pains me to think he lost all of that in the crash :/

POV: You’re Eddie Diaz searching for Evan Buckley in 9x13 of 911

Them singing “Carry On My Wayward Son” was a CRAZY crossover for me and it helps make up for the karaoke scene they deleted

I just finished the episode and I am SHAKING I loved that so much I genuinely didn’t expect to love it as much as I did and it has made its way into my top 5 episodes I’m SOBBING

Now I have only seen one still and am going to log off the internet earlier than planned as to not completely spoil the entire episode for myself…911onABC yall fucked up big time like come oN MAN

The way my stomach has fallen straight to my ASS with one singular still…because that looks awfully…another Buddie moment has hit the tower

On a slightly bright side, this allows me to be delusional just that little bit longer than everybody else so…you win some and lose some

It’s days like today where it sucks not having cable to consume my cable television because I have to wait until 4 AM FRIDAY MORNING!! In order to watch 9x13 so my anxiety is gonna be skyrocketing all day

I actually feel so sick to my stomach and anxious to the point of wanting to weep i am THAT scared about tomorrow’s episode. What are they going to do to Buck to kill his whimsical nature

Yknow what that one is kinda on me

am praying for Eddie to give Buck mouth to mouth. Do I think it’ll happen? No, but I pray nonetheless (pray to what I ain’t religious)

They’re going to kill his whimsical nature on Thursday I am so SCARED

I have been craving for Buck suffering but now that we are getting it I feel genuinely sick to my stomach like that’s just my little guy don’t hurt him?

Man I finally watched the episodes and all I feel now is sadness and a deep rooted hatred for the Buckley parents.

The absolute anguish I’m experiencing because I can’t watch these episodes until they drop on Hulu at 3 AM…I get to remain delusional a wee bit longer than all of you and it scares me

May not have gotten a perfect score, but lord knows I have “I don’t have to want to sleep with everyone I have feelings for, and I don’t have to have feelings for everyone I sleep with” perfectly memorized

HOLDNTHE FUCK UP-

So what do we mean by this????? Hahahahahaha just wanna know hahahahahahaha (I’m losing my mind) (If Buddie doesn’t go canon the crashout is going to be astronomical and a lil bit funny ngl)

Call me Chimney Han the way my nose is burning from all this Buddie cocaine I’ve been snorting the past 15 hours

This still in particular is making me sick because at a brief glance I thought it was Buck and Bobby. I miss Bobby Nash

I’m trying to keep my expectations for the crossover in check but lord they are pushing my boundaries here

Finally watched 9x11 and can I say that was the best episode this entire season, I’ve not felt this joyous over the show in so long, I’ve missed this high. We are so back yall

I’m so happy for Peter Krause…hopefully he gets treated better there than he did in his 9-1-1 send off…I’m totally fine!!!!

AHistoricDistraction also has another multichapter FirstPrince masterpiece that I recommend to literally everybody

I’ve slipped back into one of my other loves, Red, White, and Royal Blue. Alex and Henry (book version) are genuinely some of my favorite characters of all time, and I finally got around to reading this fic that I’ve been meaning to read for nearly 2 years. I am actually devastated I can’t-

I have 8 chapters left of the fic I am reading and I almost don’t want to start reading it again because that means I’ll finish it and I’ve been having the absolute best time with it and I don’t wanna lose that high

Everything happened for episode 9x13 has single handedly cured me of my mental anguish when it comes to this show and I’ve been going insane

Bucks jacket is reminding me of the seats of my mom’s car when I was a baby. That’s why it feels so nostalgic to me 😭

Wdym it’s not 2016 anymore and I’m not a 15 year old girl watching Stranger Things for the first time? Wdym that was nearly ten years ago?