one day you give up caffeine and the next day you sleep 16 hours and are still sleepy

Decided randomly to give up caffeine i think it’ll help me regulate my sleep, sleep deeper, stay more hydrated, facilitate healing of the old back

just got deliberately smacked hard in the arm by a random street lady as I passed by for not ??? Listening to her rapidfire mental illness slam poetry downtown los angeles thank you needed that

got my scan results One disk bulge, one disk protrusion feeling a lil hopeless even though i am unsurprised I was hopeful Bc a lot of the pain has subsided that i could return to dancing soon but everybody is cautioning me against it

genuinely such a delight to wake up to art in my inbox

favorite track i dropped last night youtu.be/PS9Bc_GQBEs?...

note to self: the resistance you feel toward being a person among people is similar to the aversion. A child feels to eating their vegetables and on the other side of it is joy and wellbeing actually you goon

My fren got a lil video of me doin anarchy dj

tbh just suffering from oversaturation of human interaction and would like to hide in a cave for a year that's what happens when u grow up being a social pariah, u get used to being solitary but then u get cool-ish and then ppl wanna be around you and u go AAAAA i need both, it's a balance

music is stupid and i'm bad at it and yet i shall dj the anarchist book fair after party i think i've reached the point of curation where i sincerely have consumed too much music in my life and i'm burnt out, i feel like anything can be contextualized and therefore i feel like my selections are ??

The book i am most stoked to read from the book fair

went to laabf and got a bunch of zines and a coupla books Came home and cozy binged on reading materials for a while then took a nap Now out at jake sondy event

Oh yeah and he’s great at adjusting my attitude I am a tough nut to crack, can’t nobody tell me nothin usually But he actually able to get me out of a mode, out of my head, to back into my body and feeling ok which isn’t something i need terribly often But i’m used to being the cheerer upper

ugh i’m so in love w this mf

like wow I actually get to be my whole self that's so crazy

if u never get down to ontological brass tacks w ur lover how deeply can u even know each other

miles davis and early studio day sometimes i make a lil reference to the song "so what" and nobody ever gets it but one day I'll do the lil call melody and someone will fill in the response and know I'm saying "la vie"

a widdle twimst of cain inside yow beatimg hawt :3

piano genuinely clears my mind like nothing else can i sit down for an hour, no thoughts just imagination and sounds emotional weight much lower than when i pick up guitar, more clear/zen/painterly feeling

my baby

So part of the reason I wanted to do a flash sale was to raise money to buy an airbrush and compressor (to make custom tees, to generate more income) and to acquire the electric piano I’ve been wanting for years (found listed cheap as hell on marketplace, wanted to swoop)

people who tend to buy my original paintings so far seem to fall into these camps: super queer nb/trans folks, sex workers, blue collar dudes in their 30s, 20s guys w a hypebeast streak, and 30s-40s dudes in tech and medical (And ofc other artists)

Flash sale has been working so far!! Hooray! The only pieces that haven’t yet been purchased: Smoking girl w skelly ($60) Devil girl ($150) Silver Robot ($1500) Big ol painting ($250)

I slashed prices on several of my pieces because I need money for art supplies and rent! I‘m still injured & still can’t work my normal job. Please benefit from my pain! Local pickup in DTLA or you can pay for shipping :) DM me :) #artsale #originalpaintings #artforsale

hormozimaxxing and painting

whale rider but it’s a guy on a fixie holding onto a waymo in dtla

Another one Any time I go through a procedure (esp a painful or uncomfortable one) or “weird portal” (CT scan, airport security, arch in a rock, under and through a willow tree) I affirm it as a transformational energetic bridge to my own ends complete with visualization

fr making myself nearsighted w all this painting

did this sketch for my buddy luna

doing another alien weed banner

in good news they finally cleaned my teef yesterday i am a new woman

need more tunnel need whole day alone in tunnel

italianfishing

you know what they say… (la vie)

For everyone saying "what about HIPAA!?" you should know that HIPAA does not include a private right of action. It is enforced by the HHS Office for Civil Rights. That is led by Paula Stannard, who reports to RFK Jr. Who reports to Trump.

Middle school bestie just sent me art i made in middle school for her of an emo boy insanity

only account I have access to on my lightweight shitty robot son (cheap slow hp computer) is this one and a pinterest acct I use strictly for saving drawing references and motifs to practice for tattooing it's soooo good when I have the urge to scroll I just open pinterest and study art tings

left my phone charger at the homie's house and tbh I think I gotta start leaving my phone off for the first half of the day as many days as I can it died last night an hour before bed and I'm like hmmm yes mind clear, feeling hopeful for a change

brother i been feeling real ugly and like none of my clothes or hair or anything looks or feels right I think it is just because I havent been able to work out properly w my back like this i am going to go insane

guess who had her catalytic converter almost stolen ?? ( I think??? They tried to saw it off? Maybe they got it? I don’t know man idk what it looks like I just know my car now sounds like a carnival ride) yippee can’t catch a break

Offering the taco shop down the street from the studio a barter - free murals for free tacos for a year They want my murals but my full price is kind of out of their budget, so instead of a payment plan (they are down but I like tacos) I offer this I will report back to let u know if they bite

This prayer was answered today tho, one beloved friend who 86’ed me from his life (not bc I did anything wrong just over feels stuff) literally texted me this morning to reconnect n bury hatchet yayyyyy

Ok word on the street is her acct got suspended and she lurks on an alt sometimes too the most human and understandable thing to do truly at least I am not saying mean or hateful shit Just telling it like it is as usual

ok summoning this nrg for rest of year god willing

I dunno in my dreams we get to manufacture our own bespoke spaces of nourishment and repair. sometimes that translates but often is doesn't

speaking of robots here are today’s robot fae sketches in progress

i wish i was more interested in interesting things talking about interesting things like why are matters of the heart the foremost fucking concern of my life and top of mind it’s actually maddening

the urge to do a ten strip in the middle of the desert by myself and scream at the sky for six to ten hours

mf said amenda 🤌

Anyway I get more sad at night bc I am tired and my heart hurts even though today was a wonderful and productive day full of people who cherish me I miss the friendships that have left me and I hope eventually they return to make amenda or the wound closes up