[ holly. ] did i ever mention machine love is super sayonika to me of all things

(zero beers in) i wish we were queerbait so i could feel like you love me without forcing you to deal with the issues that'd come with actually loving me and honestly i think that might be more selfish than just wishing you'd love me period.

Please, hang me at this point.

yOU HAD A DAUGHTER AND IT'S MONIKA;'S????????

{ NC } [ SALUTING????????????? ENTHUSIASTICALLY????????? ]

{ NC } been there done that

I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHIGN

[ holly. ] sigh., hang on let me just.

[ holly. ] oh yeah and i want it known that i don't necessarily know what the chance she's referring to here is specifically.

... i still have a chamc e [ ^ HAS BEEN ?? AUDIBLY ON THE VERGE OF COLLAPSE THIS ENTIRE TIME . ]

[ holly. ] let me consult the d20

you whta t

{ NC } [ Adjusting a nametag. It just says "fish". ]

[ holly. ] almost reposted that onto monika's by mistake which would've been. Really funny

Squeeze that belly… 💭

... O-or, oh Gods... I'm a bad friend for even asking, aren't I? I'm sorry for dumping all that on you. I just... "You just wish you could go back..."

[ holly. ] hooughhh. exhausted . atleast that accounts done.

[ holly. ] looks over. looks back. ok i think i have to just make that doc of urls for myself because i am Gonna have to shelve one i intend to come back to .

[ holly. ] i just remembered so fun fact. the headtilt is just smth i write by instinct bc i do it irl but it also is smth i try and like. do on purpose for a Reason? which is why i'm trying to avoid giving it to yuri- monika and natsuki have reason.

{ NC } i need to be euthanized .

[ Staring out into space. Haunted. ] [ //// ]

i think i'm dreaming .

sometimes i have dreams of everyone i know at school chasing me out like a witch

[ holly. ] loser nuke. maybe i will finally be able to stop making accounts for a bit

Happens to the best of us..?

[ holly. ] smiles at you. god it's cathartic to get to write her full mask-off thoughts. <= Heavily Relates To Sayori For A Reason

[ ..She's quiet, staring at herself in her bathroom mirror. For a while now, every time she's looked- and every time she's talked about herself- something's felt.. Wrong. Not in the usual way, either. Of course, the usual's /there/..

[ Wavewavewave!!! ] " Hiii, Moni! "

[ holly. ] .. so um. having the thought of "machine love obviously makes me think of monika but bc of how much i relate to it for similar reasons to how hard i relate to sayori i can see it being her too.." has lead to my brain imagining machine love sayonika animatic. fuck my baka life

[ Yet again. Someone's sleeping well.. ]

[ holly. ] i think frankly a decent part of my sayori being So receptive to physical affection is just. her Giving so much. it's just nice to have it given back to her for Once

[ holly. ] fun fact b4 things popped off here i did nooot really gaf about mc/sayori . and not enough of a fuck towards them as a dynamic In General. and then my friends happened. as ever /pos

Don't mind me

Bonus points if we’re both eating. Sorry, I had to say it. There’s something evil inside of me.

I’d love to just eat in bed with a beautiful person next to me 🤤

....

..I'm hungry. For food. Can I have a snack.

[ dreamy sigh ]

[ <= probably gnaws on sauce packets a lot ]

i WILL handle him i promise

[ cough. cccOugh COUGH GCOUGH ]

[ It isn't clear if she's trying not to laugh or struggling not to shove her increasingly red face into her hands. ]

👅👅

[ She's having the time of her life. The Chud Baby over there just needs to lock in. ]

.. Okay ! Yay ! :)

Oh right that one . Forgot about that

[ holly. ] staring at this and realizing "ohhh yeah there's a bit of noelle in how i write sayori"

..Eheh~. Well.. I'd know it's a movie /now/.. . . . But you can still protect me!