mao isara only <3 just mao isara, truly... mao cares. mao bothers. mao doesn't abuse me. mao doesn't trigger me. mao doesn't shout at me. mao doesn't ignore me. mao doesn't hurt me. mao doesn't trick me. mao doesn't make fun of me. mao doesn't push me. mao doesn't laugh at me. mao doesn't forget me.

i strayed. i ain't talked about my mao in 20 minutes. anyway, thinking about yt vlogger!mao concept, from his spotlight. he definitely 100000% makes vlogs every other weekend when he can. he makes them as silly as possible yet calming. they're 30 minutes long, privacy is respected. enstars please-

there's only one good option. (the star.)

i'd rather get bitten by a dog again than do that, and that's saying something because dog bites hurt and made me unable to move my arm for a while and bleed and has caused me new (since early 2019-2020) bad trauma-

someone in my anon asks on the other app, last night, told me to "go use ai sites" because i feel lonely and to "chat them up instead." um. first of, no-

2,172 images so far of my mao isara from as much of enstars related stuff as possible i can find of him, saved to my phone. and still not done finding/screenshotting all images of him.

can't wait for him \/ to come home today soon irl. i love that he exists.

most handsome and beautiful and prettiest and cutest and wonderful and cool and amazing and nicest and funniest and greatest and loveliest and talented and most important guy ever. nobody can tier him.

weekly argument about nonsharing selfshippers happening on tl on tumblr. leaving it for few hours. don't need that thanks.

my insanity leads to stupidity and my stupidity leads to insanity. shrugs.

am bored

mao sally mao isara mao isara mao 衣更 真緒 sweet singer of trickstar enstars' romantic boy former stuco!! president manga club leader leader of mode/d leader-co of ring.a.bell member of band "bb" member of dream diary enstars cutest guy keito hasumi's fave junior former basketball club leader mdkr son-

i have 110 screenshots/saved images of mao from the enstars manga series. <3

he's so gooby yet i love him. that's my starmate. my silly silly starmate being a silly silly guy on stage. #maoisara #isaramao #衣更真緒 #enstars #ensemblestars

the only important day in march, is 16th march.

mao cat fang appreciation post: maonga edition. #maoisara #isaramao #衣更真緒 #enstars #ensemblestars

the only goodest guy to ever exist. nobody is more important than him. his smile is the best. #maoisara #isaramao #衣更真緒 #enstars #ensemblestars

grown man. #kurokiryu #kiryukuro #enstars #ensemblestars

mother's day tomorrow except there's only one person i will say happy m day to, but he's in the enstars 'verse.

famdorm <3 #maoisara #isaramao #衣更真緒 #enstars #ensemblestars #kurokiryu #kiryukuro #izumisena #senaizumi #shuitsuki #itsukishu #famdorm

unless enstars wants to prove otherwise... this is still the most greatest and perfect trio in one scout ever. i love all three. (in different ways ofc-) i'll forevrr keep repeating about these three being together-

cross scout trio <3

long screenshot. but after bad moment last night, self did a vc with trickstar (it ended around 2am-) as maomie is in enstars 'verse to celebrate his bday earlier with everyone else, and want tell some bits trickstar did:

they look similar to those stick snacks that people were going on about some months ago with the whole kiss-kiss thing when sharing the stick snack- icr what it's called but i remember people getting angry at me for not knowing the action and snack on both places...-

thinking of making my lookback story shorter than what they actually are in-game tbh... i have the idea for episode 4, might end it at episode 5, and then repost the whole story to here- (if anyone's bothering to read it.)

self's units (of so far) - Medolas (singular member unit. main.) - SONUS (side unit, with mao.) - X-VØLT (1st shuffle, with mao, mayoi, jun, and yuzuru.) - MODE/D (with mao, hiyori, chiaki, and leo.) - PM6:∞ (with madara, hajime, fuyume, nazuna, niki, wataru.)

my enstars 'verse self ain't a part of dream diary unit with mao and co. by the way. self is with madara and co. instead, in PM6:∞ !! idk if this has been told yet. self is already in a shuffle, side unit, and mode/d with maoms any~way...!

it has not been 2 weeks since after the prologue mv came to be- ALREADY-

??? THE ALBUM PIC IS GONE FROM THE "VID"-

come back here and immediately neggy. shouldn't be neggy. being neggy is bad. being neggy is evil. nobody like people that are neggy. feeling neggy is only allowed for those who are important and worth attention...

unimportant being...

i wanna give into an urge of something i ain't done in a couple of years, but i need to find something to do it...

i can't even try anything to get people's attention because am immediately assumed as a bad person who manipulates... i want attention because am lonely, not to feel prideful...

what's the point of having socmed if nobody wants to talk with you. because you're annoying and boring and stupid and housebound so you're a no lifer. because you're not funny and just...

noboydw is online on either places so it fine

sigh...

nothing is helping. </3

i want maomie back...

i wanna be a part of a friend circle so bad...

"what did you do today?" "breathe." (wasting ones)

i wish i wasn't housebound. maybe people would like me if i weren't housebound and weren't a no lifer.

i feel like i should delete these enstars template drawings/some edits. nobody used them pre-ui change, and they're useless now...

yui isara - mao's sister headcanon name and (re)design (just hair...) edit from bit ago. ( #maoisara #isaramao ) #enstars #ensemblestars

̶a̶̶m̶ ̶a̶ ̶b̶̶a̶̶d̶ ̶p̶̶e̶̶r̶̶s̶̶o̶̶n̶ ̶t̶̶h̶̶a̶̶t̶ ̶d̶̶e̶̶s̶̶e̶̶r̶̶v̶̶e̶̶s̶ ̶n̶̶o̶̶t̶̶h̶̶i̶̶n̶̶g̶...

... sorry for asking...

do i keep posting/reposting doc links to my enstars 'verse self's stories to here... i wish people read them...

lonely.

jumpy cute cherry~♡ #maoisara #isaramao #enstars #ensemblestars #衣更真緒

mao moodboards part 5! #maoisara #isaramao #衣更真緒 #enstars #ensemblestars #moodboard

mao moodboards part 4! #maoisara #isaramao #衣更真緒 #enstars #ensemblestars #moodboard