another evening of journaling and processing things 😔

i have some tough decisions to make

geezus fucking christ. post one extremely mid selfie and i'm blocking porn accounts for days

hmmmm, yesterday's bloodwork shows high potassium...

old lady

good morning

took advantage of the decent weather and did an 8.75k walk tonight. I sometimes need that kind of movement in an attempt to stop the negative mental spirals not sure if it worked

mood

😭

getting tired of crying so much. going to bed. g'night

was journaling and suddenly made the connection as to the reason behind some of the things i've been feeling lately. burst out in immediate tears and could hardly finish typing the sentence... 😭

i often wonder if i'm really built for relationships 🤷🏼‍♀️

monochrome monday

i really shouldn't be working on my day of, but here we are...

trying to start getting back into a bit of exercise after covid kicked my ass for a couple weeks. Getting out and doing some walks

wait…I think I have a day off today because it’s family day

Time for my sleepytime tea and then get ready for bed. Still attempting to get as much rest as possible to kick the last of this Covid out the door g’night beauties 🤗😘❤️ love ya

felt good enough to start cooking again. Haven’t done that in a couple weeks (thanks covid) Vegan paella and beets with balsamic

ARG! Long hair, lipstick, and static are a bad combination

love you all ❤️

so, i originally posted this as a bit of a joke, but it got me thinking and reading up on existentialism and it's "crises". Turns out I LITERALLY have been going through a number of existential crises in a short amount of time. No wonder I've been so overwhelmed with life lately

just one existential crisis after another

therapy fit. 😞 i’m not getting ready for bed yet but I think I’m gonna unplug. Hasn’t been the best day, tbh g’night everyone 🤗😘❤️ have fun getting up to shenanigans tonight

fuck. This is day 8 and my symptoms are gone and yet…

i love being sapphic

Getting Valentines emails from music gear stores… “No, I get it, I get it. I KNOW I’m alone today. You don’t have to rub it in, geez”

gonna go take a nap and then maybe test afterwards

sitting here journaling in a tanktop, panties and hair wrapped in a towel certainly is a vibe

17 days

i’m kind of scared to do a Covid test. I’m going to be really depressed if it’s still positive

therapist has a migraine and needs to reschedule to tomorrow 😭😭😭

getting ready for a much needed therapy session

i'm getting very sad and depressed that this covid isn't going away and my surgery is inching closer

Was about to heat up some Campbell’s “home style vegetable” soup for lunch, only to realize it’s beef broth. I’m sorry, but VEGETABLE SOUP should not have meat stuff

I’ve still got Covid and haven’t been to the gym in a week and a half but I could still take you, babe 😉 flex friday

Still testing positive for Covid. I’m starting to get quite concerned. I’ve got bloodwork/ecg scheduled for Tuesday and the surgery is in 18 days 😫

the kitty is calling it. time to start getting ready for bed g’night everyone go kiss some girls for me 🤗😘❤️

I have no idea when I’ll be able to do this again 😔

I love the 2014 Godzilla film. The creature designs are awesome and Desplat’s music is killer! I love the theme over the title! And i love Ken Watanabe ❤️

i want to kiss girls

how is it only THURSDAY?!?

Careless Whisper is a perfect song. prove me wrong

Describe your Bluesky account in three words: community growth girls

i'm realizing that i have no problem seeing pics of me BEFORE transitioning, but those first 2 years are kinda hard to see so awkward i had to go through those to get here though

you know what sucks? working while you’re sick 😞 had to throw a bit of makeup on quickly for a work call

i was wondering why my smoothie was so thin this morning and just chalked it up to the different brand of soy milk i was using. turns out i forgot to put in the vegan protein powder 🤦🏼‍♀️ time for smoothie #2 damn covid brain

just a reminder that as a general rule I immediately block anyone who reposts something of mine. I will DM you to ask about removing the repost if I really don't want to block just, please, PLEASE don't do it

get yourself a friend you can send boobie pics too because you’re proud of them and want to share

so, I just realized while reading Unf*ck Your Boundaries that we violate OUR OWN boundaries “when we de-centre our own needs in order to appease others” THAT really hit home as a lifetime habitual pattern…

19 days