Maha Kasihnya Allah Taala pada makhluk-makhluk-Nya, Dia menahan hujan buat seketika selepas gelombang pertama banjir mengambil tempat di musim tengkujuh tahun ini. Dan sungguh Maha Kuasa Dia menayangkan 'teaser' kedahsyatan Senyar. Tidak lain, itu pastilah sebuah peringatan, Istighfar.

Pagi-pagi buta Eka keluar. Saya dah tahu arah tujuannya. Angkat pukat semalam. Boleh tahan hasil memukat. Nampak gaya seminggu ni tak perlu beli ikan. Ikan-ikan gini biasanya kami goreng sebab banyak tulang. Digoreng garing-garing. Baru rapuh tulangnya. Jadi tak risau sangat tercekik tulang.

Revisiting this book. "Learning to Live from Rumi - Fragments of Soul-Illuminating Poetry" by Indonesian author Dr Haidar Bagir. Memory. Those LRT rides to and from work, book in hand. Fascinated by Rumi's words, making those trips a time for quiet thoughts. Feels like it was yesterday.👇 #Rumi

The monsoon season brings a sense of calm and happiness to my heart. The rain, it stills the storm in my brain. Almost inexpressible peace. It's during the monsoon season too that I would try out dishes I rarely cook. Like for today's lunch, it was Tilapia sweet and sour. The interesting.. 👇

The heavy rain has been relentless for days now in my part of the world. And floods are hitting all over Peninsular Malaysia. Despite the chaos though, I still can't help but love the rain. Because I'm a Pluviophile. A rain lover 🌧️💕.

Mother, do you recall the tragedy that struck our village this time last year? Well, the memory of your profound sadness still lingers. The two young, orphaned girls, the recipients of your sadaqa, were taken by the landslide. How you mourned their loss, sinking into months of silent depression. 👇

*Tera keccek Kelate Dio maghi denge uje pagi ni saing sobat.. Smugo di-permudoh-ke la ghuse demo walau di mano demo beghado.. (Hujan pagi ini, kawan-kawan. Semoga dipermudahkan urusan walau di mana anda berada.) An attempt to speak (write) Kelantanese dialect. How did I do out of 10? 😅

Fitz texted me this. The heck??? Now should I stop being a fan? 😭 "Danish Butter Cookies Actually Made in India" No wonder the fine print on the tin needs magnifying glass to read. I even listed the cookies once for Secret Santa gift 😓

Bought a bunch of coriander (cilantro/ketumbar) at the supermarket 2 weeks ago, soaked the roots in water overnight, tucked them into the soil next morning. Of the 7 or 8 coriander roots I planted in this pot, this one is the sole survivor. But I'm saying goodbye to this little champion today 👇

Doa yang diajar oleh baginda Nabi SAW ketika turun hujan: "Ya Allah, jadikanlah hujan ini bermanfaat untuk kami." Hujan juga adalah waktu mustajab untuk berdoa. Hadith 👇

🔥Finally nailed it after 5 attempts.🔥 The secret lies in the use of piping, hot boiling water in the batter, and stick with the basic ingredients. Here's onion fritters. Malays call them "jemput-jemput bawang" or "cucur bawang". Serve hot with chilli sauce. Recipe 👇

Hasil selepas satu jam. Lalang atas paras lutut. Mana tidaknya satu jam. Guna mesin rumput bateri + parang + pisau dapur 😅. #alhamdulillah #kebunpisang #berkebun #bananafarm #farmvlog #villagelife

Matahari muncul pagi Ahad selepas hujan dan mendung on off sejak Jumaat. Pembukaan kepada musim tengkujuh di Pantai Timur. Ini hasil ambil gambar menghadap cahaya matahari naik 😅

Malam ini gantung kuali. Kami ke kafe makanan Indonesia di pekan berhampiran. Pertama kali ke sana. Rupanya halaman rumah dijadikan kafe. Lucu aturan pesanannya. Untuk hidangan utama, pesan dan bayar di kaunter laman depan. Untuk pencuci mulut, di kaunter sebelahnya. Minuman pula di laman belakang.

Mother, just so you know that after your passing, 1. Grandma's rambutan tree which you had taken care of since her passing in 2011, had fallen. 2. The white cat had left the house. 3. Your desk clock had stopped working. As if they don't want to be here because you're no longer here.

I visited mother's hometown. I guess I'll be missing her for the rest of my life.

Two months now. Since mother's passing. Still holding back tears each time anyone recalls the memory of mother. I'm not done grieving.

Sepertinya aku tidak mahu bangkit bikin apa-apa. Sepertinya aku hanya mahu duduk mengenang emak. Sepertinya tiada keperluan lagi keberadaan aku di sini. Kenapa, oh kenapa. Tiada siapa yang memberikan aku amaran akan sebegini sedih sebuah kehilangan.

They say people forget you five minutes after your funeral. But with mother.. It's been almost a week since her passing, and she still lingers in my head. Her presence—though now only memory—refuses to fade. The world forgets. But I haven’t.

And just like that, mother's gone. Like the wind. ... The loneliest silence my heart has ever known.

Runtuh sudah pasak yang memegang keluarga ini. Bererti sebelah sayapku juga patah. Selamat jalan ibuku. Engkau telah mendapat apa yang dijanjikan Tuhan. Tinggal aku kerinduan.

Day 13 since mother was admitted (for stroke). Mother had one wish — not to end up in the hospital. And yet, here we are. Remembering the promises I made.. God knows how hard I cried the day I had to take her there.

Hari ke-13 emak di wad. Suhu badan 40.80. Sebelum ini turun naik 38-39. Doktor pun pening tak jumpa punca demam tak surut surut sejak hari pertama masuk. Kepada Allah Taala kita berserah.

Day 11 since mother was admitted (for stroke). Her eyes barely open now. The right arm—the only part of her body she could move and use to communicate—is getting weaker. Her responses slower. Her body temperature remains high. These days, she mostly sleeps.

Hari ke-11 emak di wad. "Macam Nabi demam juga." "Nabi demam berapa hari?" "Dan mereka bertanya-tanya jumlah hari. Tak payah tanyalah. Bukan benda menambah keimanan mu." Adik lelaki saya yang itulah 🙄

Mother has made the final decision not to continue her Quran teaching. She has been teaching for as long as I can remember, and to let it go.. But her body has grown weak nowadays. The recent nerve attacks have severely affected the muscles around her mouth, making it hard for her to utter words.

"Dia boleh ajar Quran tu. Saya tengok dia tahu selok-belok agama." Allah yang tutup aib dan dosa-dosaku. Kalau saja engkau dapat melihat dosa-dosaku - yang lebih tinggi dari gunung, lebih dalam dari lautan - nescaya memandang aku sahaja pun engkau tidak mahu.

"Kita ingat dapat ajar Quran sampai mati." Emak agak sedih tidak upaya lagi mengajar Quran. Kesihatannya merosot teruk selepas serangan angin minggu lepas. Emak sasar lain. Allah susun lain. Sesungguhnya Allah Taala lah sebaik-baik penyusun.

Posted in the community WhatsApp group: there's a reward for anyone who can ID the folks dumping rubbish on our land. It's been three days now—no trash. Maybe money really is the only thing that works these days. 🙄

Berlatih kebiasaan baru: Sebelum/selepas buat suatu amalan sunnah, contohnya pulang melalui jalan lain selepas solat Aidilfitri, saya akan sebut: "Ya Allah, aku niatkan pulang melalui jalan lain ini kerana mengikut sunnah Nabi (selawat). Ya Allah, kurniakanlah daku nur dan barokah."

"My turn to bathe him today,” my sister declared, hugging Mighty White like a prized trophy. “But he’s been waiting all morning for the boiled fish.” She sighed. “Fine. I’ll bathe you later.” Like a flash of lightning, MW bolted for the kitchen. Good luck catching him after he’s eaten, sis 🤭.

"Eh? Why are you cutting the grass? Where are the men of the house?” A male customer, genuinely baffled to see me doing yard work. Looks like my younger brothers gonna be in trouble heh heh heh 😈

Mother decided to continue her Quran teaching class. I noticed that her health hasn't fully returned to normal, but she said she feels strong enough. I'm just supporting whatever she feels is best for her. 💕

Semalam dan pagi ini bersihkan sampah orang buang tepi tanah kami. Sampah terkumpul dua plastik beg sampah besar. Sambil kutip sampah saya doa, "Ya Allah, ampunilah dosaku. Ampunilah juga dosa orang-orang yang buang sampah ini. Maafkan kejahilan atau kemalasan mereka." 💔

I can't look at the 13yo girl and her 6yo sister for long—an overwhelming sorrow wells up in my eyes, threatening to spill over. They lost their father when they were very young. I saw firsthand how deeply he loved his daughters. I can only hope that, despite their loss, they find happiness one day.

Not a fan of the squirrel that’s been showing up lately. It steals cookies and leaves droppings everywhere. If we let it, I swear it’ll build a nest in the house. 😬

My younger brother is blasting music in our store at 7 a.m.—probably needs it to get into work mode. It’s way too loud for my ADHD brain, so I’m at verandah, drinking mineral water, eating leftover Eid cookies. Scrolling Bluesky where everyone's talking about Trump and his market manipulation stunt.

Now that mother isn't well, I'm feeling the blues. I could imagine life without our father when he was still here, but not without our mother. How could I? She’s the pillar of the family. When she goes, that pillar will be gone too. I’m so not ready to lose her. 🤲

Ambil mangkuk siap-siap, letak mi laksa. Tabur kacang panjang potong dadu, taugeh, belacan hancur. Diserikan lagi dengan hirisan bunga kantan. Kuah laksa merah yang disimpan dalam peti ais malam tadi sedang perlahan-lahan mendidih atas dapur. Adik lelaki masuk, mencicip kuah. "Dah basi," katanya. 🥹

Mother lately hasn't been feeling well. Just last Sunday, she had 3 nerve attacks. I thought I might lose her that day. Now she feels weak all the time. She's been considering quitting her Quran teaching class, worried that another nerve attack could happen while she's teaching. GWS mother 💕

2 pencuri berjaya menghapuskan pencuri ketiga, yang baru pulang dari membeli makanan. Gembira, mereka makan sepuas-puasnya makanan yang dibawa pulang oleh rakan mereka tadi. Yang sebenarnya telah dibubuh racun. "Orang tamak selalu kenyang. Bukan orang tamak selalu rugi," kata adik lelaki. 🙄

Berlatih kebiasaan baru: Ketika mahu minum air, saya sebut "Bismillah", minum air seteguk, sebut "Alhamdulillah". Saya ulang minum 3 atau 5 teguk dengan cara yang sama. Jujurnya, amat mencabar di permulaan. Susah untuk sabar. Dan lebih susah dibuat jika minum terus dari botol atau pakai straw.

Berlatih kebiasaan baru. Ketika mahu makan (terutama makanan yang dimasak oleh orang lain), saya akan pandang tepat pada makanan dan sebut, "Ya Allah, berkatilah makananku ini dan seluruh isinya untuk diriku. Bismillahillazilayadhurru (sampai habis). Bismillah." Baru makan.

I saw this banana flower (see pic) in a dream during my one-week vacation. How bewildered I was when I came home and found it waiting for me! Surreal 😬

"Haish. Geram betul. Masa nak keluar ni lah kereta nak lalu." Gerutu adik lelaki. Stereng kejap dipegang. "Istighfar. Jangan komplen. Kamu komplen, tiga empat kali benda sama kamu kena hadap nanti." Dia buat tak dengar saya kata. Jadi sungguh 😏

My brother, who sometimes does repair work at elderly people's house, mentioned something unusual. He noticed that squirrels often visit these homes, and shortly after, news would spread of the elder’s passing. Recently mother's health declines, and now a squirrel has started visiting our house.

I visited an agro shop to buy fertilizer for my banana trees. The shopkeeper asked, "How old are your trees?" I told him about a year. "We don't recommend fertilizing banana trees after they reach 7 months old. It can ruin the produce." But, but.. I fed some of the trees fertilizer 2 weeks ago. 😵‍💫

A 4yo walks in, heading straight for the lollipop jar. Just as the boy about to grab a lollipop, his mom who's waiting outside yells "One only!". He turns around, raises his right hand, and gives her mini love. The mom then says, “Alright, you can take two.” Turns out that mini heart means '2'. 🥲

Nasi lemak yang dimasak terasa berjelatah dan keras. Saya tambah santan, gaul rata, kemudian kukus 30 minit. "Hmm. Tahu ini nasi lemak. Tapi ini bukan nasi lemak. Tak capai maqam dia." Komentar adik lelaki semasa bersantai selepas makan malam. 🥲

Last post 11 days ago. Huh. It's been quite a while. The night rain outside marked the end of a-week vacation. Back to store tomorrow. 💕