she’s all restored and has enough storage to last me a long time of collecting my music ✨

idc if cigs are bad i love a cig after work 🙂‍↔️✨🤭

im also fixing my gameboy sp today with a new battery and taking it apart to clean the ✨crust✨ away. found 8 cheap cute girly games yesterday at a used shop so ill be playing lizzie mcguire in a few hours 💕😇

breakfast today is a blueberry yoplait light with a banana

i wake up every day around 530 now 🙂‍↔️

125 ✨

feeling less bloated today but still fat af 😺 need to build muscle so i’m not so flufffffy

ok i had a brownie bc it was my with love by my dad 0cal

today for lunch i made another bagel sandwich with egg and cheese 😹 it gets the guts scooped out so i’m skinniiii eating it

i can’t wait to chuck the hard drive from my ipod and put my sd card in tonight 🥰 going from 30gb to 256gb

all i need is my autism music and im fine

just having a small salad with chicken and greek dressing for dinner and that will conclude my day ✨🌟

scooped coconut bagel w/ strawberry vanilla cream cheese and a decaf yorkshire milk tea 😇

started playing sims on my ipad and it’s just a town of hot women

125.6 ✨

i think i’m too old in ana years to fully restrict and fast 🫩 atp all i am capable of doing is just making healthier food choices and not bingeing all the time. wait is that recovery?😹

breakfast: 2 iced coffees, scooped rosemary salt bagel with a little cream cheese, sliced cheese, and bacon lunch: small chicken salad w/ greek dressing and parm dinner: filet w/ boursin baked potato and cornbread idk the cal im just happy i didn’t binge

im upgrading my ipod this weekend and i can’t wait to have all my music back on a brick

started making my iced coffees with 80% almond milk 20% whole milk to try and lower some of the calories 😓 i just love a sweet creamy iced coffee too much

my new job is early mornings at a breakfast cafe and it’s so easy but i’m allowed to eat whatever i want for free and take home baked goods every day 😭 a normal persons dream…..

3 things i need to do more: walk water stretch

enjoying my .99 store brand diet sprite and hitting my bong 😻🍃🙂‍↔️

had a salad with chicken and greek dressing + a cornbread muffin i made 🌟

how do all the other ed blogs stay up? i hate it here 😭

NO THEY DELETED MY TUMBLR AGAIN 😭😭😭😭 i just wanted my thinspo 😭😭😭😭 girl i had that bitch queued up for MONTHS

got a few things to make turkey chili for dinner tonight 😇

going to the grocery store for safe foods 🫩

can’t wait for my period to be over and see what bloating decides to leave my body

i want to be 115 by xmas 🎄

i have peace and quiet today so i can just focus on getting my shit together

127.2 ✨ this doesn’t feel correct at all

no one loves sitting on the floor more than me

got an ipad last month and it’s been so fun to use it for everything and i’m going to make a full ed tracker in canva to use every day. i can make stickers out of any photo i have so there’s going to be the most aesthetic th1n$po collages 😹😻 this is good

i keep eating. why?

i’m so tired of the on again off again cycle of restrict and binge SO OVER IT my face is so fat and i feel like a FAILURE anyway guys how have you been? 🥰

i need insurance to see the GI people so they can stick a camera up my ass and tell me wtf has been going on in there for the last 2 years

cant even have my ed in peace with my fucked up guts ruining my life. literally ate steamed rice and boiled carrots for dinner bc im so flared up rn

went on a walk (7.2k) and listened to all the old wubby gems from my ancient soundcloud. im sweaty and chubby

i wish i could erase the year that i did c@m-ming bc im so regretful and ashamed of the things i did when i was low and needed money. im scared my bf will find out one day and i just dont think he would understand. silver lining is that i was terrible at it and theres little evidence out there

skinniiiii september plz?🫥

i think i’m done 💩 all the fast food i ate before i came home…it’s been rough 🥲

125 ✨

locking tf in now (for the 1000th time)

i can’t stop 💩 after i’ve lived on kfc, kebab, and mcdonald’s the last 3 days i’ll never regret the mixed kebab over chips tho 💖

127.8 ✨

y’all i’m back home in my country and have my tiny ed burner phone back ✨🥰💖🌟 i missed my bed and my cat

the food in America will make me want to 🌟

omg ill be back to my own bed, scales, and my cat in just a few days 🥲 going to miss my man so much until i see him again at Christmas 😭

I really thought I could lose weight this summer and tone up but I succumbed to my snacking and barely exercise 🥲 im so squishy now....when I get back to America im locking in 😭

I know ill be with my man forever bc we survived a summer together with mercury retrograde 🥴☺️