Why do I find myself thinking of my half brother again Just why 😩😩😩

No one let me stop taking b12 tablets again The fatigue is killing me Yes I’m taking them again now I obviously need them

@anarchyoriginal.bsky.social the cricket 😱 that was a result to wake up to this morning

Merry Christmas from me and my special boy

Christmas still doesn’t feel right without dad But for good reasons really But feels strange it’s not what I’m used to 27 years of it being the same and it changes It’s a good change shall we say

All my Christmas lights are finally on Not where I’d like them to be but with the chaos at the moment at least they’re up

I am very quickly going down in price this evening My family keep sticking the price stickers on me 🤣🤣

M brothers penguin for Christmas Well mostly I loved it so needed a reason to buy it and he loves penguins

I hope my uncle video calls tomorrow so we can talk to them and see granny that way It’s not the same though

My baking for work today Considering they were all asking for me to make it there’s loads left over

It’s Christmas Eve and the drs surgery message you about your cholesterol Merry Christmas to me

So so bloody annoyed

When all you can hear is the cats skidding around on the new laminate flooring in the dining area 😂🤣

Hinted to my boss about wanting to spend Christmas with my granny next yesr And she said maybe granny could come here Oh yes a 91 year old will be able to travel from there to here by public transport on her own of course 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ it’s laughable isn’t it

When yoh come somewhere that’s supposed to be allergy and intolerance friendly and you get treated like your a problem and an inconvenience 😩😩😩 And they won’t make any of the paninis dairy free because they’re all pre made up at the beginning of the day But they’ll do a toastie dairy free

That’s it in future if I have plans I am not changing them at all I am done just done I’ve always tried to be flexible to help the shop She’s trying o claim she is and changes her plans for me and always fits her holidays around em Does she fuck

I am dreading going to work in an hour 😬😬 Just got to get through that interaction with my boss and then I don’t have to see her or talk to her until Christmas Eve when it’ll be our volunteers tea party anyway

I still can’t believe mums partner has cancer He’s been more of a dad in so many ways thank my actual dad ever was

How many days will it take for work to say I can have a Sunday off I want off All bets and guesses accepted

Can I justify spending £20 on a cuddly Olaf for myself

I will be turning my phone off while I’m With my friend tomorrow and I do not care one bit Everyone has told me today I need to look after myself and think of me more and say no at times and so that’s what I’m doing

If I dare get told I can’t have my goddaughters 1st birthday off work I will flip big time Especially as they know how much I’m struggling at the moment And struggling with not knowing my niece and nephew And my goddaughter is as special to me as they would be

If work aren’t careful I’m Going to End up getting myself signed off sick because I just can’t anymore

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My body is telling me I need to stop and slow down But work is not allowing it 😩😩

My volunteers care more about me than my bloody boss does I love some of them to pieces I really do

If I could I’d hand in my notice right now I am just done Can’t afford to though

Took me 7 and a half hours to get home via a different route that cost me an extra £15 Could have gone original route but would have taken another at least an hour and I just wanted to get home so spent the extra money

Talk about a nightmare journey 😩😩😩 get me to my bed

My knee is horrendously bad today

On the train home And now the tears flow 😭 Somerset is my home it’s where I want to be Why is money something I need to be able to move there And granny yesterday ‘I wish you three lived closer because I know you’d take me out regularly’ 😭😭😭 me too granny And I would I really would

Mum messaging ‘isn’t it payday today’ 😂🤣 think she might want something

I do not want to go home tomorrow I love Somerset too much 😭😭 and love my family Haven’t seen as many of the family as I’d have liked though

Dreading going back to work after the way things are at the moment and no I still don’t what I’m working despite it being the end of this week

FYI PIP still isn’t an out of work benefit…

Granny making me laugh I love her so much They say money doesn’t buy happiness But money would mean I could move to Somerset and that would make me so very happy indeed

Even saying I need to book an appointment I still don’t know what I’m working next week 🤬🤬🤬 Um I need the blood test My results last time were too high so I need it ffs

Left the work WhatsApp group I just can’t at the moment I can’t 😭😭😭😭

Is it too much to ask for to know what I’m working next week Well clearly it is 🤬🤬🤬🤬 because I can’t possibly have a life and want to make plans I’m just ever reliable Imogen who’s always free and will work whatever she’s told to me

My boss has just fuckinh well ruined my day Fuck off this is my holiday You didn’t want contacting with any problems when you were on holiday so why is it ok to phone me when I’m kn my holiday

Granny had a good rant earlier about my cousin it did her good It takes a lot to get her so wound up We’re all furious at him and let’s say no one will be talking to him or have anything to do with him He’s done it to himself Makes me sad as I used to look up to him

Last bus of the journey Then a walk to grans in the rain

My granny 😂😂😂 can’t wait to see her later

Muted all work related WhatsApp’s Including volunteers Because I need a break and I am done with the place right now

My boss is pissing me off But yu know what I’m on annual leave now so it’s my turn to not give a fuck I’ve worked my arse off while she’s been off for two weeks and I’ve moved house at the same time I am beyond knackered It’s time for me to have a break and forget about the place and not care

One happy boy

Now the rugby has finished and Bath have won i can go to sleep

Can Paddington the musical do a tour so I can take granny I don’t want to go with anyone else but I can’t get her to London She’s 90 I’m not going to get her to London I wish I could

The 3 of us and 2 cats all chilling on mums bed Lovely evening 😍😍

@anarchyoriginal.bsky.social the cricket 😬😬😬