Happy Christmas to those who celebrate #heartsky!! Having just moved into my new flat over the weekend, I couldn’t afford to do presents this year. But I am going to my dad’s after work today and step brothers tomorrow. Be safe, stay warm and spread love! ❤️🎄

My day finally came #heartsky! I’ve moved into my very first flat over the weekend! At age 41, I’ve never lived alone. I got all I can hung and sorted. Anxiety has hit though.. the what ifs and can i’s… here’s my pix!

I’m the only brown person in this restaurant.. I’m getting looks… 😶

Happy 79th Dad!!! 🎂

I wish someone looked at me the way Michael looks at Tori. 🥹😭 #heartsky

Good morning #heartsky! Been a fun weekend! Volunteered at an event Friday night, hit the shops with a couple friends yesterday before heading to Zoo Lights at the Phoenix Zoo. Today, we celebrate my dad’s birthday. Have a lovely Sunday!!!

Online dating is soooo weird. I’ve had a big influx of 20 something’s in my inbox. It’s bizarre. An ego boost, sure but, I’m not trying to pull a Dolly. IYKYK #heartsky

I’m fucking adorable, someone come snatch me up. 🥰

I’m 42 years old, skipping across the car park like a teenager. 🙈🤣

So.. my ex reached out today. He thanked me for the parcel I sent and apologised. He said his phone was stolen and he just got a new one. That I believe because the selfie he sent is with a flip phone and not his old Android. I still have questions…

The Charlie Box #heartsky. 🥹🥹 Alice posted on her IG story and I’m sobbing. 😭🙈

So, is it unhinged to send my ex items i promised him before he broke my heart? Because I did. I think as a fuck you and that I kept my promise even when he didn’t. I even said as much in a note. Didn’t leave my name or return address. But he’ll know it’s from me.

When all I want to do is sleep but I can’t stop crying.

I’m not sure what to make of it but my ex keeps looking at my dating profile.. does he not know I can see who views it? Also, feeling a bit better today. Thanks for all the love guys. ❤️💕

I’m tired of crying myself to sleep every night. I’m tired of being messed around. I’m tired of being so easily tossed aside. Im tired of living in a society that hates my existence. I’m tired of trying so hard. I’m tired of existing. I’m just so fucking tired.

So…. Went on a date today. We had a lot of fun. Hopefully I’ll see him again. :)

Hi #heartsky besties! I’m the aftermath of my breakup, someone else has reached out and is very interested. I wasn’t even looking but the chemistry is there. I’m not rushing into anything (Charlie Spring) but I’m open to the idea… I’m a blushing gigglebox right now. 🤭🙈

Still processing everything. But I think I’m over the hump. I’m never going to get the answers I want as to why he left me. I’m realising I wasn’t the problem, it was him. I gave him love, support, I was his cheerleader. And he still left. Obviously he’s moved on. Now, so am I.

The dust hasn’t even settled yet and he already has his dating profiles back up. Did I mean absolutely nothing to him? He looked at me like I hung the moon and two weeks later, he’s back online looking for dates. How is this my fucking life?? 😭💔

I can’t stop crying. 💔

Good morning #heartsky. I’m glad I have the next 3 days off. I feel so fucking empty. I was meant to go to a big pow wow at Fantasy Springs Casino in Indio but our Airbnb was given to someone else at a higher rate. Fuck all. Staying in bed all weekend. 💔😭

Whilst I don’t celebrate this holiday based in genocide, I also never thought I’d get broken up with on a national holiday. As always, I’m too much, too emotional, not good enough. I gave him my heart and he just chucked it off a cliff. I don’t want to grow old alone. 😞💔

I’m DEAD. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 #heartsky

Oh you know, just a pic Pat Walter’s posted of Kit And Joe between takes in Lyme Regis. 🫠 #heartsky

Hi #heartsky! I know I’ve been quiet lately, mental health has been quite low lately. But, I went out this weekend. Feeling pretty good but upset this weekend (as they all do) passed way too fast. I’m offended, actually. Anyway, here’s receipts. ❤️

So…. After 5 weeks of waiting, I got my acceptance letter for my new flat!!! I’m bouncing off the walls!!!!! My move in date isn’t until 15th December but I’ll probably move in that weekend. This is a huge deal for me. At 41 years age, this is the first time I’ve ever lived completely on my own. 😍😭

Happy Throwback Thursday #heartsky!! Here’s me when I was super cute back in 2001!

I’m a bit crushed, #heartsky.. Someone in my family carried their baby to full term and it didn’t make it… I’m gutted for them. They were soooo excited about their arrival.. and I can’t process it..

Super happy I got to see my boyfriend today! Grabbed a Panda Express takeaway then went out to the mountains. ‘‘Twas a lovely weekend #heartsky. Back to work in the morning!

Went out for Pride tonight. :)

#heartsky, Joe just gifted us the MOST ADORABLE smile EVERRRRRR!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

This ship of a country is going down faster than the Titanic.

Happy Thursday #heartsky!!! Oh, and Happy Birthday @aliceoseman.bsky.social 🎂🍰🧁

Coworker drew on my hand today #heartsky. 🤭

G’morning #heartsky Having a bad brain day but I still came to work and am functioning on autopilot. Really fighting the urge to cut again. I also think I’ve scared my boyfriend away. I guess time will tell. 😞

Just out here being cute #heartsky. Also, happy 15 months on HRT to meeee!!!!! 🤩🤩

It’s Friday and these jeans fit so well, sold!!

Happy Throwback Thursday!! Just a snippet of me dancing back in the day.. #bellydancer

Just some pix of the Harvest Moon I took last night and this morning. :)

It’s October Third #heartsky 🤭🤩🥰

I don’t know how I got so lucky. It still feels surreal. I never thought it’d happen to me again but we’re almost 4 months in and he makes me so happy! He chose me. Why? I’ll never fucking know but I’m so happy he did. 🥹😭❤️💕

It’s amazing to see how much Kit has grown over the last few years, #heartsky. He’s no longer the boy we all fell in love with, he’s now a full grown man. But will say, I do miss the freckles. Long live Kitticus!!!

Hi, #hearsky. Long time no see. I’ve been in a very dark place the last couple weeks. I did something I haven’t done in over 20 years. I cut on Sunday. I never thought I’d self harm again but with this country going shit and my safety is in question, I just hit a low point. Send love.

After a month apart #heartsky, I got to see my boyfriend yesterday! He works weekends now, which is my only time off so he pulled a sickie. He might actually be sick so let’s see if I come down with anything this week. Well worth it to me to see him. ❤️

Good morning #heartsky! I forgot that Friday was my 14 month mark on estrogen! Wow, it feels like I just started! My body and face have changed a lot! This is only the beginning, I can’t wait to see what other changes are yet to come! #transsky

So…. Is it normal to have one girl tit and one boy tit? 🙃 #transitionproblems 🏳️‍⚧️

Goodnight, #heartsky. Tee hee!! 🤭🤭🤣🤣

JFC, I want out of this country so fucking bad and I’m not allowed to leave. Just this week alone, I’ve been called a wetback and told to go back to my country. I’m not allowed a passport because my gender marker doesn’t match my original birth certificate. I just want to leave.. 🥺😞

It’s Cake Week on Bake Off!!!! But curious kitten here… why is it called The Great British Baking Show here in the states and Bake Off in the UK? I never understood the change in name when it’s the same show. And omg, this technical!!! IFKYK. 🙈🙈🙈

Was an absolute gorgeous morning for a walk and workout. I’ve been slacking a lot and I can really tell. My mood has been shit and I really need to jump back on this bandwagon. Another boyfriendless weekend (we’re both broke until payday) so I’m left to my own devices… chaos. 🙈