who else just wants to create art, i dont want this pain and suffering

˚｡ ♡ ‧˚ ꒰ა mimì's intro ໒꒱ ♡ ‧˚｡ 𐙚 '06 ~ mdni 𐙚 ana-r, ortho & bpd 𐙚 very pro recov + not fatphobic 𐙚 digital diary 𖹭 mostly thoughts & ed content, might post nsfw and other interests #edsky #caterpillarsky #edrsky ♡ / ↻ to be moots <3

IT WORKED! now im testing if it works on quotes... caterpillarsky

caterpillarsky feed testing again its not working and idk why

tip for yall: dont suck in ur stomach all the time even though its tempting. i constantly did it when i was skinnier and now im finding out im having issues with pelvic floor tension 🥲 my pelvic muscles never relax & its causing pain in so many areas of my life

ok it might be back to normal now but may require some housekeeping, so pls be patient over the next week!!! ill probably have to ban some ppl from the feed + delete posts that r not appropriate. pls lmk if you see anything that needs to be urgently removed and ill try my best to get to it asap

guys ill fix the caterpillarsky feed soon

it was actually 4 lbs i weighed this morning

lost 3 lbs after my first z*pbound shot and i didnt even count cals.... could be water weight but im hoping it just continues to drop

bruhhh the feed now has a view limit on free plans. this is so lame.

started 2 nights ago. only 1mg cuz i got too scared to do 2.5 lol but its crazy how my cravings r just... almost non existent

also i keep eating dark chocolate and i think my insulin receptors are mad at me cuz i woke up starving today and the food noise is getting really bad again

z*pbound still not here cuz everybody started panic buying the comp*unded ones so now i have to wait longer due to delays 😭

omg had a thought today..... im waiting for my z*pbound to ship and i realized some girls in my class r gonna be in my next semester class too.... and i realized theyre gonna see me lose weight nd idk i just think thats gonna be kind of fun

guys i ordered z*pbound

having one of those moments where being super small would make everything so much better

guys.... im actually eating lower carbs the past month (30-40 per meal, try to stay under 15 per snack) and not counting my cals... and im losing... ive never been able to do this without rigid counting. i havent even gone on that medicine yet. insul*n resistance rlly had my body in fat saving mode.

fav snack rn is plain non fat greek yogurt + a drop of imitation vanilla + a packet of aspartame + 15-30 cupcake flavor goldfish grahams on top

yk its so crazy i lost 30 lbs WITH insulin resistance like omg i really was determined 😭 i think i made my insulin resistance worse during that time tho cuz i was nottttt monitoring sugar or carb intake

hi guys finally got the blood drawn and my insulin is at 40 uIU/mL ... its supposed to be 17 or less lollll im insulin resistant 😢 but i dont think my insurance will cover a glp-1 cuz im def not getting diagnosed with type 2 since my a1c was normal. idk. waiting for doc to msg me

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still so triggered over this bruh why do i even care that she has an awesome life and i dont

school semester starts next week and maybe ill get myself into the gym then. tired of looking htis way. the number def went up more i want glp-1 but need to get my heart checked first :/

literally all the fat people i know are losing weight and its making me actually want to explode because i feel ugly as fuck and worthless and like im behind and everyone else is just so much better than me its weird like fatness is attractive to me but the competitive part of my brain...

feeling lots of sh urges tonight its crazy to think i wouldve definitely not been clean for years if i didnt have a bf that would worry about me. hes the only thing stopping me from that coping mechanism. i dont want him to worry

i hate thinking about people who have hurt me. i hate feeling the urge of wanting to message them and going off i hate that they perceived me as some stupid bitch. i hate that people cant see the real me or my values... no matter how many times i repeat them i hate that i even care bruh

i really am thinking about it now. i think maybe at least if my food noise goes away, i wont feel so tempted when my s/o has the sugar in the house... maybe i just wont eat so much with him. i wont feel like i need something whenever i sit down to watch a show. maybe it will help me alot.

if i gain 6 more lbs, i would have officially gained all the weight back i lost last year lol 30 lbs back up. i bet its noticeable.

i wanna do it but im scared

also my dad knew i was very sick as a baby and he just never told me Lol ... he didnt remember the doc suggesting a ct/mri though. i read out what the doctor note from the xray when i was 4 y/o said...

my dad just offered to pay for 0zempic ... 😀

btw i found out i may have a heart defect and i couldve figured this out when i was 5 years old but i didnt because my dad never took me for the mri/ct scan that was recommended lol they saw an abnormality on a lung xray of mine & said i should get scans

CELEBRITIES TRIGGER TF OUUT OF MEEEEEEEEEEEE im like omg they r so hottttttttttt and thenn i remember what i look like and i get sad

i have to move in the next few weeks and i cant stop crying even though this new place is better than my current place

oh wow happy one year to this post

oh ya also adder*ll shortage again so i might go off my rocker if i cant get my meds refilled in the next few days. i pay $44 a month just to treat my adhd (with insurance!!) and they keep having shortages!!!!!!!

the way my insurance wouldnt cover a WL injectable unless i fit this criteria lol im bmi 35 so i would jsut meet that criteria... even tho my ass is over 200lbs . but i dont have any of those conditions listed... well maybe prediabetic cuz i have blood sugar issues but i havent been tested in ages

oh! i gained 20 pounds from the start of this year . lost 30 and gained 20 awesome

girl who hates me lost weight and i am so triggered

the way i wouldn’t hate my body if my stomach just looked normal lol why does it not look right

i think im back at my sw from last august but im too scared to step on the scale and find out. thinking about oz*mpic to sotp the food noise

hello

i dont wanna dress up for. hallowween i feel too big

miserable

bro. carrots dipped in this seasoning just annihilated my craving for takis

hi everyone i actually dont have like any money for the rest of the month so im hopeful i can actually start restricting again bc i wont have money to buy snacks. i feel so redundant and guilty coming here talking about what im dealing with but whatever.

i wish i could restrict without counting