[It’s his birthday tomorrow.]

And into the forest I go, to lose my mind and find my soul.

Perhaps tragedy is all they are meant for. After all, branded as destiny or fate, it’s undeniably tragedy that brought them together in the first place. It’s possible that they were not meant to exist outside those moments of desperation & pain that forged this bond between them.

I used to think I was smart, but you made me look so naïve…

…

But when someone’s gone and you’re the primary keeper of his memory – letting go would be a kind of murder, wouldn’t it? I had so much love for him, even if it was a complicated love, and where is all that love supposed to go?

Ah, it’s nothing too terrible.

I hope I can forgive me for having the nerve to exist.

🫩

I am this great, unstable mass of blood and foam, and no emotion that's worth having could call my heart its home.

[Coincidentally happens to be visiting at this time. Crazy!] Very sensible, Dà-gē. What are you going to do with so much unexpected free time?

[Èr-gē did this to Èr-gē.]

[Got too drunk. Can’t feel his legs.]

[Could really go for some competitive gay sex right now…]

the existence of casual sex implies the existence of competitive sex

All the things I knew I didn't know and didn't want to know, that you told me just to tell me later that you'd told me so, come flooding back to me now.

/ “lxc is quite a manipulative person” what

You make me so sad, my friend. I love you with an aching. But I’ve been holding sorrow in the hollow of my throat for too long. Maybe, however unlikely it may seem in this moment, I’ll learn to let go. One day, I will love you simply.

/ lxc/xy is one of my craziest mdzs rarepairs

Don’t talk to me or my son ever again.

What a cute little plush! I’d make a forehead ribbon for mine. [If anyone loved me enough to give me one… 😔]

Telling me not to worry only makes me worry more.

It’s lovely to see everyone getting along so well. (*ˉ︶ˉ*)

I never say a word in case I come off needy.

Oh.

This is my father. He is young. Here is my mother. She is not crying. She cannot look into the lens because the sun is bright. (The woman my father knows is not here. She does not come till later.) This is me she is carrying. I am a baby. She does not know I will turn out bad.

/ the thing to know about my lxc post-canon is that he might not be suicidal, but he’s suicidal, y’know

/ damn i wish lxc did half the shit his haters accuse him of doing

Everyone certainly seems as though they’re feeling lively tonight.

It’s been quite some time.

Observe others without worrying about what to say. Don’t chide yourself for doing it wrong. Just exist, in your awkwardness, without apologizing or explaining yourself, even to yourself.

Pokemon + xiyao thread! I love vulpixes

put your emptiness to melody, your awful heart to song.

The fog comes on little cat feet. It sits looking over harbor and city on silent haunches and then moves on.

Oh, it’s… [What can he say? That he gets jealous when other men look at him? How possessive and unhealthy does that sound?]

[He laughs despite himself.] Figuratively.

…I think I drank vinegar today.

[He hurries over and basks in A-Yáo’s embrace, snuggling.]

[He needs A-Yáo snuggles. To cope.]

[…scowling faintly. So faintly that it’s nigh impossible to tell.]

i’ll be there as soon as i can, but i’m busy mending broken pieces of the life i had before you.

@a--yao.bsky.social A-Yáo!!! [Uh-oh, he’s all silly and giggly…]

i can be manipulated only so many times / before even “i love you” starts to sound like a lie.

[He might faint. There’s no way this can be real.]

[HIS MOM IS BACK?!]

[HIS DEADBEAT DAD IS BACK?!]

change is what keeps the galaxy spinning. it’s what makes it beautiful.

/ shuffled this playlist and the first song is a xiyao breakup anthem 😭 oh ok…

Sorrow and sadness, unshown on my face Smiling, manipulating the storm’s changing with a hand This is a love that does not dissolve, even over great distance 🔹🔹🕊️ 🔹🔹 #theuntamedrp | #CQLRP | #MDZSRP | #MVRP