i'm sorrforalwaysd wantifn attent ion and to bebabied andeant tofeel lovred andcaredfor i'mso rry

i'msorry dornotveing likeabl e...

i'll stop posting my edits then... sorry for them then...

okay...

so nobody saw the two of today's edits...?

HALF!WAY!! #ENSTARS #ENSEMBLESTARS

appeared together, one after another in both mini event slide stuff~! #yumeship #selfship #nonsharingyume #enstars #ensemblestars #maoisara #isaramao #衣更真緒 #edit #riako #selfshipping #yumeshipping #ficto #fictoromantic #maoru

needed to play trickstar song to calmdown... ...:

i'mnot being a grossperson i'm not asking for people's pity i'm not lying to peoplr i'm not i'm not i'm not- i just want to breathe i just want tonhenormal please letme benirkal i'm sorru forbeing this wa y i'msorry i'm foredxistinh please oleadse just stop stopwuththe badwords leavrmeb e pleadese

absolutely no answer...

i really need to learn to be quiet on here... everything i say is so unimportant and useless and boring and not fun and stuff that people don't care about because i'm not important and not popular to be cared and loved for...

whilst digging up that sketch, i came across an attempt at a old mamstar fusion outfit enstars style sketch... people won't wanna see though because nobody seems to like mamstar other than myself...

this reminds me- i did a (of of course my mao isara as the model) enstars style sketch of this when the finestar fusion live originally happened on eng enstars- (second pic is the sketch) #maoisara #isaramao #enstars #ensemblestars #trickstar #subaruakehoshi #akehoshisubaru

i used to play the violin back in primary school...

the power of trickstar is strong~ #maoisara #isaramao #enstars #ensemblestars #subaruakehoshi #akehoshisubaru #makotoyuuki #yuukimakoto #hokutohidaka #hidakahokuto #trickstar

IT'S MY UNITS TURN FOR A REVIVAL- TRICKSTAR <3 #enstars #ensemblestars

wdym it's only the third day... and here i am rushing in trying to get more memcoins... (i can get another soon. just struggling with bp and passes today. i'm at 452 ribbons currently.) #enstars #ensemblestars

ngl... the ickiness lately on tumblr is the reason why that socmed is now my second place of using, for me. but again, no matter what i do, people still accuse and act weird. idk if it's the same person over and over or what, but still...

eghhh... that is an ask in my inbox on tumblr that i wished not to see... now i'm being accused of being p*do because of my mindset thing "being used" to apparently "trick" younger people... that is not my intention. and i hate that stuff... i have an unfinished developing brain that makes me like

THE LITTLE CRY AT THE END... SOBS. HE'S JUST TOO CUTE IN THIS- AND SILLYYYYY- this has been on my phone ever since the video came out btw- OUHHH I SHOULD RE-GIF FOR ON TUMBLR-

i still wish i was able to understand what he's saying here...- cries. #maoisara #isaramao #enstars #ensemblestars

GIGGLINGGG HI MAO~! #MAOISARA #ISARAMAO #ENSTARS #ENSEMBLESTARS

i just like to weirdly try dipping chocolate into everything possible because fun. but also because chocolate is best food-

okay but dipping milk chocolate into mayonnaise...

don't do not do don't recommend i diedth

i am so tempted to dip these pretzels into my tea- they're just biscuits, right? (i actually don't know what pretzels are meant to be...)

sitting in bed (nothing new), watching mc yt (nothing new), huggling mao under more than five blankets and nibbling on chocolate pretzels together and whilst enstars auto plays... yup.

the mv and outfit don't matchie, but i really love the glowing lights on the outfit, so... maomie is a shining star- ... ... HE'S AN XMAOS TREE- #maoisara #isaramao #enstars #ensemblestars

big brother himmy silly~

reminder that mamstar is canon- #enstars #ensemblestars

enjoying ourselves, we'll make it resound with our smiles! ♪ #yumeship #selfship #nonsharingyume #enstars #ensemblestars #maoisara #isaramao #衣更真緒 #edit #mvedit #riako #selfshipping #yumeshipping #ficto #fictoromantic #maoru

too late to do it now...

i like thinking about randomly how maomir is the one who drinks water the most throughout the enstars anime, but have never had the chance to just... tell anybody. oh yeah, and the blinking fact too thing of in-game enstars on home screen compared to the rest of the cast, my mao blinks the most...!

I'M OBSESSING AGAINNN AHHH- IT'S SO SO SO SMSLMSHSHKJS ILYP AGAIN EEKYYY!

new estimated time to be able to having 120 memorial coins on eng enstars, for self, for mao isara's last copy of his centre card: that crazy:b × alkaloid tour-mixed-mv-event- which is in 8 events time ~currently~ the event begins on the 28th of march 2026, on eng enstars! #enstars #ensemblestars

peub eus unn boghes kethreydhel... pasa. vy gwir lemmyn- PANA- KABLA MAO ISARA! ... ... ... i am not saying that in english. get whacked with the cornitalk.

so closeee- uwhhh! #enstars #ensemblestars

he's so beautiful and handsomeeee!! #maoisara #isaramao #enstars #ensemblestars

okie i'mma go back to sleep. i already also just did my daily missions, and i'd like for my bp to go up some more so i can use it all later for grinding reasons (still need more memcoins to get.) night again! (even though it's morning-)

Christmas gift for @maoisarap.bsky.social yay #yumeship #yumeshipper #yumeshipping #maoisara #isaramao #enstars #ensemblestars

WAITWIAITIWIAITIWAITNI LOVEYILOGELFJFHDJLEMSLSKHSH HI IWANNANA SET ASMYPFP NOW WAIT- BUT INLOVEEHDIDHSKSLNSH AHH! EEKY NEVER FAILS!! ILYP!!

ou i only slept 3 hours... tis 6am now- oops.

XDAY XMAS SPP?? RLSLHSHSJ MAOMAOMAOMAOMAOOOO-

i'mma actually go sleep tbh. i still feel not-good from the crashout earlier... which i should apologise for... night.

tease... using my loverboy like that again- #maoisara #isaramao #enstars #ensemblestars

maomao just standing there, thinker no thonkering. that's ~my~ goob- #maoisara #isaramao #enstars #ensemblestars

i need more bp for more ribbons...

i hate mirrors, especially in the bathroom, because i catch a quick glimpse of ugly overweight self and be reminded that i don't look like this, in this universe:

scrolled for too long into nostalgia lane of messages between bestie and i that i didn't keep eye on the time... i need to post on daily mao account oops...

bestie and i did used to say "oomf" without realising it... but that was not-bsky times... "yaoomfp" this was 2021: