this year is still full of question marks for us. and day by day sometimes we are just hit with really shitty feeling ones. i think the one important thing is to figure how to sustainably keep going. how do we continue to survive financially while putting our skills towards those who most need them?

as soon as ruby adds vst support i'm just gonna make melodic trance and happy hardcore

ughugh ruby has been having the drive to work on tracker stuff during the day, then come night i wanna mess with it and i get the drive to write music but its way past our bedtime.. but i gotta get the ideas down!!! i have a lot of music to write she added live midi record today so that's rly nice

sometimes i think about how we are like really loud and plural in some spaces now and i still think like... fuck, do ppl think we're weird????? but i try to just roll with what feels right anyway

it won't be long before some of our eldest nieces have grandchildren. wild

i dun really wanna play trails f0 right now, bc reasons. and i don't rly wanna play cs rn either. i really like the daybreak/2 setup and cast, but it's too early for me to play horizon. i think what this means is i will finally play some other games and maybe something that isn't a 9000 hr RPG /

i love making music man

i've been writing the best music i've written in a while, and i'm doing it on Ruby's new tracker, wild shit

still thinking about how good trails in the sky sc is estelle is so good ughhsdf;j

i'm tired. i wish i could just not care what other people thought about me and feel like some weird need for being seen or validated and just make stuff. and not care who listens to it or not. and not care about feedback. and just make stuff. but that sounds miserable too. i need to like,

realizing there is a huge disconnect in what people in digifu community think we& are about. and it's probably because they only know us thru what we've released thru infloresce. our past is really varied and has a lot of overlap with some more niche parts of digifu that i'm ,

said fuck it and started trails from zero as well. i've always been playing two trails games at a time i do have sky 3rd but i haven't started it yet

if i told u our living and hygiene habits for the past year or so… they have gotten particularly bad the last few months. maybe on par on what they were in 2019, but lacking any good reason beyond maybe execeutive dysfynction/depression. but well beyond the threshold for ppl to get judgmental abt it

all i did this year was play long video games and basically escapism

all we can do is try and do better next year

we have some plans to release some music this coming year. possibly EP sized. but i also think generally we just wanna share sketches and such again. whether that's here or to random friends. need to make music again for me

Purity culture has been staining the internet for a good while now. Everyone’s acting like fiction is a background check for morality, and it’s exhausting. It's spread like mold; turning what should be a fun time, into something people are scared to admit liking. #blog #internet #fandom

in addition to LRT and my last thread, i still do not consent to unsolicited spoilers. thanks.

Hear, hear. It can be quite intimidating to be given a laundry list of things you must do by fans really deep into something who might have forgotten they discovered it organically in part and out-of-order. It's just fine sometimes to go with what catches your eye at that moment.

i finished sky sc. oops i saw we had cold steel 1 in the library and started playing it. further making my play order weird. but its fine! w/e. sky 3rd will still be there. crossbell arc will still be there! no trails purist is controlling my playthrough experience. i already played db/db2 also lol

Ga Buidhe!! #XenobladeChroniclesX

don't underestimate the power of setting an intention, or theme for a new year. even just a single word can spawn many ideas and goals. even if it seems vague/generic, see where it leads u, even if those places seem like stretches, no one is holding you to a rulebook or dictionary

unironically love not being invited to shit. can just spend time lazing around with my rosemates and not deal with awkward family topics. should probably at least text mum tho

oh huh totally missed another eden doing an ff9 crossover making it We Have FF9 Remake At Home part 2

instinct tells me to just add a brief icymi intro, before getting straight into my thoughts. doing anything else pulls me further away from myself, & in a space where we're already half-out & there are ppl who have our backs, just further undos all the work me & my fellow headmates have been doing

we are figuring out ways we can collectively present while also creating personal spaces (beyond social media accts) that highlight our individualities, w/the hope that interested ppl can get to know us more as individuals. tho these are first & foremost, tools for our self-exploration & expression.

i'm glad we have friends who know we are plural and interact with and acknowledge us individually. we also share some spaces where we interact openly as plural with these folks while mixed with less active ones whom which level of acquaintance with us vary, who may have missed us coming out. 🧵⏭️

trails in disguise 2nd chapter

wild to think that livejournal had it right all along

we're mood swingy when the flow of validation runs out., i think. now, that validation doesn't necessarily come directly from people. could just be an article we read or something. and there are spirals we get into that depletes that flow of validation quicker

i need this but for bsky. this is the account switcher on elk.zone. and imo this is the most plural-friendly i've seen on any social media UI so far? quick grid of icons, single click to switch. no submenu (unless you choose it thru the kebab icon)

"write about life" it always comes back to this. when all the pieces come together and we remember who we are. that's the one source of creative inspiration, entirely unique to us, that no one else has

unclogged both ears and oh god everything is loud again and i feel like i'm wearing an exciter on 100% which is GREAT for autism too /s just trying to adjust to the world again. haven't heard these frequencies in 5+ years but hey, at least i can listen to binaural asmr without compromise now

i'm in a good mood. but also i kinda hate that i have to question if every good elevated mood, every feeling of euphoria, is it actually the onset of a bipolar manic episode? especially since we are not on meds right now.

chat, let's fucking go

back to being a Normal* gamer and playing Z-A again and man after playing like 300 hours of game in the same engine the controls are alienating and i keep doing dumb shit like throwing away pokeballs instead of running lol

in addition to the superlative talent of the digifu music community (and beyond), we got... - steven universe animator/boarder - 3d animation genius known for going ultra-viral on cohost - writer on skin deep - music by @maddie.vision & sound design by me! ... and more! cant wait for y'all to see 😍

my headmates gave me permission to post reviews as long as i rebrand our backlogg'd to either me or roses

i think at least one reason i don't talk about games here is i play a lot of heavy story stuff and there is no way to spoiler tag. i know most ppl don't care and happily spoil away and RT without a second thought about it. i am just particularly sensitive to that,

yeah i know, Selphie is being hypocritical now. complaining about how everyone on social media is angry all the time and now she is doing it to am i doing it right?

the worst part of the fandom though is how utterly unhinged everyone is on Falcom music channel. like people are just unable to critique without hurling insults at composers

is it bad that i have been playing Sky SC with cheats and not as thoroughly (doing all sidequests but will prob miss hidden ones, and not talking to/getting every bit of new NPC dialogue), with my intention to play the remake on nightmare anyway and talk to every NPC there etc.

if we open a roses' cafe in vrchat you should come visit

can we have cute 3D anime art style RPG that isn't a gacha game please

and Xenoblade Chronicles X: Definitive Edition for close second

congrats to Trails in the Sky 1st for GOTY

gone from playing trails in the sky, trails through daybreak, now to dealing with trails of frickin ants in our room

pepperoni lunch

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