I G3T TO SEE REZZ TOMORROW 🌹🌀♥️🌀🌹

dude life in this eclipse season has been fucking wiiiiild

Breathe Deeper by Tame Impala is apart of the #goat club.

eeeeeeee my mama got me the new iPhone 🍊 (I’ve been rocking the 11 since 2020)

got a poem from this guy with @energyisdancing.bsky.social and it was a precious way to spend Saturday 🌸

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(for my bashful, vulnerable neurodivergent ass) there’s just something about watching porn you professionally filmed that’s akin to watching a dog look at itself in the mirror— like THATS me from an angle I can’t physically see of myself at any point in my life and now I’m confused and looking away

so if anyone has any brain cells they wanna share and send my way for the rest of forever so I can keep creating cool shit, I would be forever grateful because wrangling this meat bag of a brain is proving to be too difficult

⚠️ WARNING ⚠️ : orgasmic, tantric sex may lead to sudden soup brain that lasts for hours

it’s a brain soup fucking conundrum because I DESERVE to be a brain souped squishy baby who never has to use executive functioning ever again but thats just not the world we live in

falling in love is cool and all until you realize you’ve had brain soup for a conservative 7 week period. and you also realize your shitty audhd executive functioning skills get even shittier because why do anything when you already have all the dopamine and serotonin, ya know?

(naturally derived) oxytocin + dopamine + serotonin = brain souped babe

ya’ll these energetic portals are rebirthing me brb

zip your spirit into mine

oh no I’ve gone nonverbal at the strip club (it’s so safe and I actually love it)

it feels so good to enjoy creating again guysssssss

*sneak peek* from shoot day with @z-becos.bsky.social and Daisy, their wonderful wife! ♥️🌲 I am damn grateful she was down to join in on the creation festivities! the supportive team collaboration made me feel held and able to truly relax into myself with the divine art we created.

Weeks ago I did a film project with @z-becos.bsky.social on some logged land, and I left many offerings of gratitude. ☔️🖤 I’ll be viewing the footage for the first time later. You’ll get a chance to see it soon, on Fansly. (find me as lavenderxlou but I haven’t built the page out fully yet.) 🤭

That may have been the first time but it most certainly won’t be the last.

I got fucked on the hood of my car in the forest. I came all over the ground as an offering of gratitude to the land. I saw god everywhere and it was magical af. #newkink

guys, camping is so healing

*proceeded to not realize I was hungry for 5 hours and tackled 12 things on my to-do list* #adhd

today I had coffee & rage for breakfast

meet Brick the Unicorn 🧱 they are my emotional support stuffy that weighs a whopping 15 pounds 🌈

& it’s so adorable and precious to see my brain in love with someone who mirrors back the profound love I share. it’s literally been melting the edges of my existence into gooey goop.

dude I’m in love

flower bbs

let new spaces help you grow again and again

fell more in love with myself and my power over the last couple of months 🌹

desert vibes 💓

find me tomorrow @dv8pdx.bsky.social from 12p to 6p AND @kitkatshowclubpdx.bsky.social 9p to 2a 🌹

#imo #hairy #babes #have #more #stim #toys #on #their #bodies

my phone logged me out of Bluesky for awhile and I didn’t know it so I have to play lewd catch up 😘

WHY IS GAY FLIRTING SO MUCH HARDER?

in all my travels and journeys the last couple of months I’ve felt more spaciousness open up within and it’s become an integral piece of my next graduation.

Life is coming from you, not at you.

just a happy rave babe in their element 🧚🏼‍♀️

@iamtortilla.bsky.social and I got pulled over by a cop on our way home and I haven’t told anyone about it yet. 💁🏻‍♀️

#ravebooty is some of it favorite types of butt

just a ball of light living in a ball of light (the ultimate non-binary existence)

1 hour & 15 posts later— I’m relieved because I’m feeling more understood by myself.

You can crush the soul of a relationship with hypervigilance. It’s like death-grip squeezing a flower in your hand with the hope that it’ll continue to live… An over-attachment to “good intentions” blanketed by a dismissal of the reality of nature.

*entering my introverted era*

sw is real work even when it’s not sexual 👏🏽

if you show up to my work to treat me like an emotional dumpster, I’ll put my work heels on and charge you for ALL the emotional labor you’re expecting me to hold/witness. I refuse to allow my good nature and wholesome heart to be commodified in such toxic ways—without equal reciprocation. 💰

hi, I’m actually not an emotional dumpster for you to validate all your trauma & the constant desire to pity yourself. I’m actually here to be my own human! I’ve liberated myself from victim mentality AND YOU CAN TOO! 🪄 *tada*

my philosophical take— I am a powerful healer but I can’t heal you. I am here to inspire the healer within you to step up and to show up for the inner work you’ve been avoiding or unconscious of.

this Cancer New Moon is calling for analyzing your relationships and owning the toxicity in which you create— my toxic trait is that I give too much of myself to try to create stability for others. WHICH DOESN’T WORK ANYWAY BECAUSE I END UP FEELING DRAINED AND THEN THEY COME BACK FOR MORE. 😵‍💫

MONOGAMOUS CONNECTIONS MAKE ME FEEL TRAPPED BY THE LOVE OF MY OWN HEART. 🌀💔

Heal through connection with others, you create a structure of stability in allowing yourself to be held in many hands. 🤲🏽