from valentines

I’ve been expanding in my capacity for close friends, family and even community at inconvenient times—parts of those muscles I haven’t flexed since I left my home town in ‘20. but DAMN IT FEELS GOOD TO MAMA HEN MY PEEPS & take care of myself 🥲

been working hard at improving my relationship with my phone behaviors because I think about alllllllll the creativity and boredom art my screen time has taken from me since I was a kid and it makes me fucking sick #breakupwithyourphone

guess who’s back

people are not projects, people are not projects, people are not personal precious projects to protect do your own damn projects, is you’re project #peoplepleasing #mantras

one of my favorite parts of the Puff documentary is that 50 Cent produced it & it talks about Biggie & Tupac’s murders

what they don’t tell you about grief is how heartbreaking it is to come to the years where no one wants to come together to share memories of them around the holidays anymore

first craft—finished croqueting a cute little strap for my dab pens because I lose way too many

see you @dv8pdx.bsky.social for a rare sighting Saturday night (11/29) 6p to 10:30p. I’ll be celebrating beloved friend & artist @z-becos.bsky.social 30th birthday! 🖤

btw I took today off to eat poke and craft 🎨

needed to get my bangs out of my face so I could craft for the first time in the new home (I haven’t had berets like this since I was a kid I am so happy)

I’m so sick of little Internet fuck boys who talk about buying you supportive gifts, don’t really respect that you’re a sworker (even though they’ve purchased dances in the past?), but think you’re available to pursue dating outside of work so they keep vying for your private time.

will you come play with me soon? ❤️ TUES (11/25): DV8 12p-6p 🖤 FRI (11/28): DV8 12p-6:30p 💜 SAT (11/29): DV8 6p-10:30p @dv8pdx.bsky.social

reorganized the graveyard of unfinished projects so some of them get doneeeeeee 🪦

moving and being neurodivergent is simultaneously fun & a time sucking hellscape lol my closets are so fucking organized and the storage is allll labeled and deeply organized yayyyy

Hi I need a card that says “thanks for all the orgasms cutie”

I G3T TO SEE REZZ TOMORROW 🌹🌀♥️🌀🌹

dude life in this eclipse season has been fucking wiiiiild

Breathe Deeper by Tame Impala is apart of the #goat club.

eeeeeeee my mama got me the new iPhone 🍊 (I’ve been rocking the 11 since 2020)

got a poem from this guy with @energyisdancing.bsky.social and it was a precious way to spend Saturday 🌸

🧠 🥣

(for my bashful, vulnerable neurodivergent ass) there’s just something about watching porn you professionally filmed that’s akin to watching a dog look at itself in the mirror— like THATS me from an angle I can’t physically see of myself at any point in my life and now I’m confused and looking away

so if anyone has any brain cells they wanna share and send my way for the rest of forever so I can keep creating cool shit, I would be forever grateful because wrangling this meat bag of a brain is proving to be too difficult

⚠️ WARNING ⚠️ : orgasmic, tantric sex may lead to sudden soup brain that lasts for hours

it’s a brain soup fucking conundrum because I DESERVE to be a brain souped squishy baby who never has to use executive functioning ever again but thats just not the world we live in

falling in love is cool and all until you realize you’ve had brain soup for a conservative 7 week period. and you also realize your shitty audhd executive functioning skills get even shittier because why do anything when you already have all the dopamine and serotonin, ya know?

(naturally derived) oxytocin + dopamine + serotonin = brain souped babe

ya’ll these energetic portals are rebirthing me brb

zip your spirit into mine

oh no I’ve gone nonverbal at the strip club (it’s so safe and I actually love it)

it feels so good to enjoy creating again guysssssss

*sneak peek* from shoot day with @z-becos.bsky.social and Daisy, their wonderful wife! ♥️🌲 I am damn grateful she was down to join in on the creation festivities! the supportive team collaboration made me feel held and able to truly relax into myself with the divine art we created.

Weeks ago I did a film project with @z-becos.bsky.social on some logged land, and I left many offerings of gratitude. ☔️🖤 I’ll be viewing the footage for the first time later. You’ll get a chance to see it soon, on Fansly. (find me as lavenderxlou but I haven’t built the page out fully yet.) 🤭

That may have been the first time but it most certainly won’t be the last.

I got fucked on the hood of my car in the forest. I came all over the ground as an offering of gratitude to the land. I saw god everywhere and it was magical af. #newkink

guys, camping is so healing

*proceeded to not realize I was hungry for 5 hours and tackled 12 things on my to-do list* #adhd

today I had coffee & rage for breakfast

meet Brick the Unicorn 🧱 they are my emotional support stuffy that weighs a whopping 15 pounds 🌈

& it’s so adorable and precious to see my brain in love with someone who mirrors back the profound love I share. it’s literally been melting the edges of my existence into gooey goop.

dude I’m in love

flower bbs

let new spaces help you grow again and again

fell more in love with myself and my power over the last couple of months 🌹

desert vibes 💓

find me tomorrow @dv8pdx.bsky.social from 12p to 6p AND @kitkatshowclubpdx.bsky.social 9p to 2a 🌹

#imo #hairy #babes #have #more #stim #toys #on #their #bodies

my phone logged me out of Bluesky for awhile and I didn’t know it so I have to play lewd catch up 😘

WHY IS GAY FLIRTING SO MUCH HARDER?