skyline

I took a six week class where we made exactly one painting. here is my painting

if two female characters aren't shown suckin and fuckin onscreen, that's queerbaiting

had a dream where David Lynch decided Hollywood was too far gone so he moved the film industry into a haunted barn

life update: I got a big comfy sweater and I feel cute in it

watching family guy. stewie is my favorite 😂

folks it happened again (but a musician this time)

went to the art museum recently and saw a piece that said "You Belong Here" in neon lights. unfortunately due to my light sensitivity it was painful to look at. mixed messages imho

cloudy mountains

i love autumn and im often disappointed in artistic representations of the season. the foliage has such an array of vibrant colors but most people are just like "uhh yeah dark orange i guess"

trying my best to transfer my dysphoric thoughts of "im not a real girl" or "i look like a man" into something more healthy, like "im just an ugly girl"

deer who wears tuning forks on its head as "antlers" for gender reasons and has the unfortunate side effect of hearing ....Things

uh oh i painted again

uh oh i painted again

narratives like The Substance are kinda weird. the main lesson is that chasing eternal youth and beauty is bad, but the main way of warning against this is by having the main character become more ugly/old for wanting it too much. feels a bit like mixed messages?

i watched The Substance. my main takeaway is that being a hot girl seems great

good news: there are rosy maple moths in our backyard!! bad news: we only know this because the caterpillars are shitting all over our deck

dating app based on what ringtone you chose

i started watching a gamer girl youtuber partially because i thought she was trans, but it turns out shes actually cis. so now i just have a crush on a Regular Woman?? stupid

@whoismonday.bsky.social i was playing around with video feedback while watching your latest arctic egg vod and wouldnt you know it i seem to have fried up my very own egg over here

more video feedback experiments. this time mirroring my phone screen on a smart tv. often too laggy but still fun

playing around with visual feedback using my phone and projector

i usually avoid killing spiders but this bitch made a web in the middle of my kitchen at 4am. yes i walked into it, youre welcome

just learned what a video synthesizer is nobody talk to me for 8 weeks

painted this for my gma's bda'y

I do not think I've read anything that feels so sincerely written for people who have ever at any point felt that Great Grinding Fear. It's like a love letter for freaks written in a car crash. Read Loner Dog.

in school i was voted most likely to die in a room full of modular synthesizer

other trans girls are like "boohoo im so lonely i only have 5 girlfriends". meanwhile my only friend is a 90 year old fisherman who lives in a cave

currently eating dinner with the bowl right in front of my face. why dont we normally eat this way? what dumbass decided it was good to put the food as far away from our face as possible?

sucks i missed the 27 club. whats even the point of dying now

me n my buddies were about to do an EVIL curated bundle a couple days ago, but it took us a few to set this up instead. theres no payment involved now, just promoting EVIL scary sexy games click the link for a full description and get your hands on all the deleted games thatsvnclub.neocities.org

i have been successful in this goal

just had the thought "i feel naked without my clothes"

bad selfie because im wearing girly clothes for once

@whoismonday.bsky.social i luckily managed to capture the most important part of the stream, so you can just put this up instead of the VOD

sure the world is terrible now, but think of the silver lining...it must be huge. we're gonna be rich!!

@junestrings.bsky.social congrats on the moon

ive been enjoying making art too much lately, which means its time to go back to practicing drawing and hating myself

idk how to caption these things. art. paint. abstract.

more drips

made a lot of art this week. gonna post it

i have grown so mature. i dont play video games any more i just go outside and enjoy nature. when i see the nature i think "wow so pretty, reminds me of anime"

if you cant handle me at my best,,,,shit

it finally happened. i made a piece of abstract art that i keep seeing as a dude with a boner

paint adjacent to magazine cutouts

painting over magazine cutouts

also this

had a lovely photoshoot with a chicken recently

i really like this one but i did it on a disposable pallete pad because im a dumbass lol

i originally painted this in landscape but accidentally took the photo so it was rotated 90 degrees and decided i preferred it this way