I want you all to know. I love you. I'm feeling good today. It's going to be alright. See you all soon.

YOU CAN NOW FIND ME ON GANDER! You know ... the Canadian social media site: @talisidekick.gander.social So yeah! If you want to catch a Canadian Streamer, you can find me there when I return come June!

Hey all. Im shutting the channel down. I can't begin to explain why. Thank you for supporting me.

NEW TIME WHO DIS???? Its yet another Demon x Kibby collab with the lovely @lhilakalkari.bsky.social . Today we have some very special guests, and a new diver to be initiated in #Helldivers2. This is gonna be good! www.twitch.tv/totallynotad...

This may not seem like a big deal to most, but this is a very big deal for me. I have secured the name "Totallynotademon" on Twitch! Please do not try to find cmdr_totallynotademon because he no longer exists. Update your bookmarks! www.twitch.tv/totallynotad...

It's Defensecon Day 1 in #starcitizen and UCIS is off to drink virtual beers, crush some digital burgers, and look at spaceships we can't afford! @tybrow.games will be joining us too! www.twitch.tv/cmdr_totally...

Whew...Things got a bit dark there. Sorry for the lack of streams, but I needed a mental health break. I'm still getting there, but I miss you. You know what else I'm missing? #elitedangerous www.twitch.tv/cmdr_totally...

Hey! If you're not aware, the US government just called transgender people a terrorist organization and threatened to kill them. If you know someone who's a #Canadian Citizen, please repost this anywhere and ask them to sign: www.ourcommons.ca/petitions/en... #Canada #Petition #USPolitics

Sorry for all the doom and gloom posts here. Sometimes you just need to vent, y'know? I saw rapid growth early on in my streaming adventure. It was great, but I also had a fear that it would be short lived. Like a one-hit wonder. These days it feels like those fears are becoming reality.

Today we are checking out the Defensecon preview in the #starcitizen PTU. I hear they got beer. Then we will be checking out a new game: In The Black, a hardcore space combat sim from Impeller Studios. I played the demo last year and excited to dive in! www.twitch.tv/cmdr_totally...

You know its bad when you are tempted to vague post on social media. Fuck that. I'll be clear. I'm hurting. It's not good. I'm downright depressed over streaming. I love streaming. It's brought me so much joy. I was doing so well, and then suddenly I was not. And that really hurts.

You ever feel like you're failing, and while you know what you should do to stop failing you just don't have the mental capacity to do it? Me too.

Aaaaand we are live! Kicking off #starwars day with a first playthrough of Fallen Order! I've heard some very good things and I'm excited to check it out. Would love it if you stop by! www.twitch.tv/cmdr_totally...

Today's stream is going to be delayed by a few hours. Hoping to start around 4pm EST. We are kicking things off with #starwars Jedi Fallen Order, and at 7pm EST will join our friends @lhilakalkari.bsky.social and @tybrow.games for some Squadrons action!

Today on #starcitizen we are hunting the P8-SC blueprint and the materials to craft one! www.twitch.tv/cmdr_totally...

SURPRISE! WE'RE LIVE! Today we are joining @tybrow.games for some Combat Patrols in #starcitizen !org in chat if you want to know more! www.twitch.tv/cmdr_totally...

We're back in the verse and doing our part to clean up a bit around here. Salvage ain't much, but it's honest work. Live on #twitch with some #starcitizen salvage gameplay, and maybe some Hull C cargo recovery for creds. www.twitch.tv/cmdr_totally...

We got another #starcitizen org event! Casual Combat Patrols for rep and things! Hop in chat and type !org if you're looking for an awesome group to join! www.twitch.tv/cmdr_totally...

Short stream today. Just easing back into it. We're on #starcitizen so come fly space ships and stuff! www.twitch.tv/cmdr_totally...

This is not the own Ted thinks it is . . .

I am making the difficult decision to postpone all future streams. I need to prioritize my recovery from surgery, and I cannot sit at the computer for extended legnths of time. Hopefully this won't be for long, but I honestly have no idea. Love you all and see you when I'm able! - TND

It really does. Please keep clipping things.

I've been home for a while now. Realized I forgot to update here. Surgery went as planned. I'm still getting over the anesthesia but seems like I can keep food down now. Recovery should be relatively short, too. Tomorrow's stream is a strong maybe. Depends on how I feel. Love you all!

Update: I am booked for knee surgery today. If all goes to plan I will be home by the end of the day. That said, I don't know how I will be able to handle stairs, and my PC is in my basement so streams might be postponed for a bit. I'll keep y'all updated! ♥️

Last night's #starcitizen outing was a resounding success. - Orange patrols unlocked - 2 ace pilot helmets - 1 pristine medal Looking to join an amazing group? Check us out and be sure to join the discord! robertsspaceindustries.com/en/orgs/UCIS

Tonight we are running Foxwell contracts in #starcitizen with UCIS! Join chat and type !org if you are looking for people to fly with! www.twitch.tv/cmdr_totally...

I love streaming. I am proud of what I've accomplished in a relatively short time. Though, it's hard to not let the drop off in viewers get to me. Since becoming partner in October my average viewer count has dropped close to 300%. On top of that I now rely on my stream income to make ends meet.

Today's stream will be some solo rep grinding, followed by helping our friend @niamh.tv navigate the verse for the first time. #starcitizen is fun, but its even more fun with friends! www.twitch.tv/cmdr_totally...

Happy partnerversary @psykit.tv !!

Today on #starcitizen we are running through Hyperion for RCMBNT and Blueprints. Also because its cool! www.twitch.tv/cmdr_totally...

ORG MULE RACES! WHAT CAN GO WRONG? #starcitizen www.twitch.tv/cmdr_totally...

I've been having a blast playing #starcitizen lately, and as a former hater I now understand a lot of what I hated on was not true. But then CIG go and do this. THIS IS WHY WE CAN'T HAVE NICE THINGS!

A family that dives together, stays together. Today my boy joins for some #Helldivers2 Nothing like bonding over Managed Democracy! Spacegame later www.twitch.tv/cmdr_totally...

If you see this, we IMPLORE you to pay a picture from whatever device you're using without explanation.

LETS GOOOOOO Congratulations @ktkhaos.bsky.social !

I'm no health expert, but have you tried not being a tool for fascism? www.politico.com/news/2026/03...

My friends @lhilakalkari.bsky.social, @tybrow.games , and I started a #Starcitizen Org a few days ago and we are already up to 19 members! Will you be the 20th? robertsspaceindustries.com/en/orgs/UCIS

I'm not mad. I'm just disappointed.

Its the final day of Streamcation, and we are going out with a HELL of a stream (hahaha get it?) It's #helldivers2 with @lhilakalkari.bsky.social @naomiinova.bsky.social and @tybrow.games

Back on #elitedangerous today. I got some coffee, and we got a war to fight. Let's go! www.twitch.tv/cmdr_totally...

I love going to bed with a headache and waking up with a worse headache.

Back with more #cultofthelamb. I was not prepared for this game. www.twitch.tv/cmdr_totally...

Welp. I forgot to take my afternoon ADHD med dose today. Stream will be fun. What are we doing? Who knows! The mystery is part of the fun! See you all in a couple hours!

This year marks my 10th year fundraising for Extra Life in support of Boston Children’s Hospital 💙 For a decade, I’ve been gaming to help fund life-saving care, research, equipment & family support — all staying local. If you can, share or donate @ link in bio. #ExtraLife #BostonChildrensHospital

OMG my space game is posting on Bluesky!!!!!

Last night I had planned to play Cult of the Lamb for a couple hours then switch to one of our usual space games. I ended up playing Cult of the Lamb for 9 hours. The game is alright.

Hey. I'm a lamb. Wanna join my cult? We're checking out #cultofthelamb today. First playthrough. Come pledge your undying devotion to me or something idk. www.twitch.tv/cmdr_totally...

Going live a tad early because once again I have to end early. We are mucking about in #starcitizen today. Please stop by. www.twitch.tv/cmdr_totally...

After months of waiting I finally got my MRI on my knee last week. The results are in, and I'm being referred to an orthopedic surgeon. Yippie.

I asked Discord what I should play. Discord said #elitedangerous. Fine. More Kestrel. (I'm not mad I love this thing) www.twitch.tv/cmdr_totally...