i must've forgot, you can't trust me, i'm open a moment and close when you show it, before you know it, i'm lost at sea.

and i will hide behind my pride, i don't know why i think i could lie.

and now i just sit in silence.

i don't know why they always seem so dismal.

when the sun is climbing window sills, and the silver lining rides the hills, i will be saved for one whole day until the sun makes the hills its grave.

you are surrounding all my surroundings, sounding down the mountain range of my left-side brain.

it ain't the speakers that bump hearts, it's our hearts that make the beat.

i ponder of something great, my lungs will fill and then deflate.

then we move on my shadow grows taller along with my fears and my frame shrinks smaller as night grows near.

i find over the course of our human existence, one thing consists of consistence and it's that we're all battling fear.

i'll stay awake 'cause the dark's not taking prisoners tonight.

we've turned our hands to guns, traded our thumbs for ammunition, i must forewarn you of my disorder, of my condition.

we're broken people, yeah.

you say i'm not alone, but i am petrified.

i'm trying, i'm trying to sleep, but i can't, but i can't when you all have guns for hands, yeah.

take pride in what is sure to die.

i'm taking over my body, back in control, no more shotty.

let's go outside and all join hands, but until then you'll never understand.

now the night is coming to an end. the sun will rise and we will try again.

in the night, headlights call my name.

not anymore, flesh out the door SWAT!

i'm brewing and losing and spewing and fusing and believe me, that's what all the kids are doing.

my prayer's schizophrenic.

and i know that i can fight, or i can let the lion win. i begin to assemble what weapons i can find, 'cause sometimes to stay alive, you gotta kill your mind.

i'm forced to deal with what i feel there is no distraction to mask what is real.

on the eve of a day that is bigger than us, but we open our eyes 'cause we're told that we must, and the trees wave their arms and the clouds try to plead, desperately yelling "there's something we need."

i want to know you, i want to see, i want to say hello.

and you all have plans to take it, to take it, don't take it, take it, take it.

while you're doing fine, there's some people and i who have a really tough time getting through this life, so excuse us while we sing to the sky.

i want to know you, i want to see, i want to say hello.

i'm brewing and losing and spewing and fusing and believe me, that's what all the kids are doing.

i find it hard to hide it, my pride is no longer inside, it's on my sleeve, my skin will scream reminding me of who i killed inside my dream.

we're broken, we're broken, we're broken, we're broken people, we're broken people.

cold nights under siege from accusations. cerebral thunder and one-way conversations.

stay alive, stay alive for me.

the horrors of the night melt away, under the warm glow of survival of the day.

i bet a lot of me was lost, t's uncrossed and i's undotted.

am i the only one i know? waging my wars behind my face and above my throat?

i have these thoughts so often i ought to replace that slot with what i once bought 'cause somebody stole my car radio and now i just sit in silence.

i know that you all have guns, and you never put the safety on.

we'll make pretend that you and me lived ever after happily.

it will not let me sleep, i guess i'll sleep when i'm dead and sometimes death seems better than the migraine in my head.

don't wanna hand you all my trouble, don't wanna give you all my demons.

thunderstorms, clouds, snow, and a slight drizzle.

they fill with fire, exhale desire, i know it's dire, my time today.

i'll stay awake 'cause the dark's not taking prisoners tonight.

i'm semi-automatic. my prayer's schizophrenic. but i'll live on, yeah i'll live on.

i-i-i-i-i've got a migraine and my pain will range from up, down, and sideways.

they fill with fire, exhale desire, i know it's dire, my time today.

and now i just sit in silence.