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(1/2) Time for rare post in Bluesky again of me just venting: This year has really been shitty to me, it started good, and then POOF, June hit and its been downhill since. Despite my health being better (despite having smol op next week) My mental hasn't fully recovered. I feel this deep loneliness-

Man

In the meantime, I guess I will do the best I can with what I CAN control, I apologize for the rambles, Therapy isn't till July 5th 😂😭 (PD: I miss eating proper food, but Im losing weight so weeeeeee) ((One of the only animes I was able to see was Dan Da Dan after giving it a second chance))

5) I know once this pain leaves, I'll be able to hopefully go back to normacy, but I feel this incompetence when I don't have control over my life, my fate is on the hands of people who tell me I have an emergency that could get worse, but can't do anything about it 🙃

4)I wanna socialize, make memories and just enjoy my time with others, but atm with this pain is so hard to do. I haven't had proper contact with people for what feels like forever, but at the same time, with the way I feel, I rather stay away

3) I don't have the energy to play games, I wanna do productive stuff like learn new things, broaden my horizons, improve myself in things ect. (I was able to write a song atleast for the first time in 15 years, but I feel is ASS LMAO) Something I really wanna do this year is Cosplay again.

2) I've tried to watch anime to distract myself, but I can't watch anime as I used to. Idk what's wrong with me, I used to binge animes and now I could only watch with others or I REALLY have to be into it. I do wanna watch NANA, but is not on Crunchy

1)Im just throwing all this to the void, but I've been in a lot of pain these weeks and Im under so many medication that I'm literally looking like Megan in the picture everyday (Pain is dental jic) and it sucks because my birthday is next Wednesday and Im 90% I will feel the same then as I feel now

I wanna write so badly, but Im so lazyy 😭 I wanna continue my novel, but Im in the worst part in writing imo (Is not bad, I just suck LMAO) but I know once I jump the hurdle, it should be smooth sailing But Im so lazyy and busy and I can feel it in my mind: I got important stuff to do 😭😭 send help🥺

I'm excited to announce that I now have a PNG Model for whenever I play visual novels now!! Thank you all for the support and when I start visual novel day back up you'll join me and my friends!! 🎨done by me! #Vtuber #ENVtuber #PNGTuber #ArtstridFox185

Me lately Gotta rest my brain 🙇🏻‍♀️

You got games on your phone? Anyways random post since I don't use socials as much 😭 I should post my schedules for when I stream here maybe, but Im beeg shy ;w;

THANK YOU SO MUCH ONCE AGAIN KRISTAR!! ALWAYS LOOK AMAZING!! 😭😭 HAPPY VALENTINES DAY EVERYONE!!! 💖💖💖

WHERE HAT? IS ADORABLE YET AGAIN!!! 💙💜

SO ADORABLE THANK YOU!!! 😭😭💙

A random picture I took a week ago while hanging out with my 2 old Highschool/Uni friends and some coworkers! Had an amazing time, I needed that day! Now Im in pain, awful migraines for days 😭

Just another nature picture for you all! 💚🌴💙

First post and idk what to post so, here's a picture of a field in my town 👉🏻👈🏻 Pretty excited to see new faces here, as well as familar faces I will surely find 👀