Feeling very good today~!😊 #FFXIVScreenshots #Viera #GPOSERS

Opened up xiv in a panic to try and do the event quest with Ziero before it goes away in the morning, only to find out I did it with him the last time it came back and completely forgot. ...I really need sleep x.x

A part of me was thinking of moving Mura off of Malboro, but I don't know where I would transfer to...

Was thinking about someone I hadn't seen in a while, but when I went to go look at their account, I couldn't find them. They either deleted it, or blocked me. Wouldn't blame them if it was the second option lol. ...it's not a good night, if you couldn't tell :(

Feeling down today, so I just wanna ask that people be kind to one another. If you can, check up on a loved one this weekend. Ask them how things are. Maybe spend some time with them. It always helps to make people feel less lonely.

Also, late, but happy one year of me being cancer free. Happy to be above ground and continue to share my life with new friends, family, and my dear muse. Let’s keep hopping!

I wanna make new glams for Ziero and Mura, but I have no ideas on where to start...

Sleepy bunny...😴 #FFXIVScreenshots #Viera #GPOSERS

I'm gonna try pushing myself a little next month, if I can. There's a lot I still want to accomplish with recovery, and all of it is way too intimidating to deal with at once. I just hope I can stay strong. I can see clouds in the distance, and I don't want them to surround me again.

Gotta love it when triple triad cards refuse to drop... ;-;

Of course my posts immediately get hit with spam bots. Never change, bsky... :/

Had a really weird dream earlier. I don't remember most of it, but it ended with me scrolling through social media aimlessly when, out of nowhere, both my phone and my own gaze focused on a post from a person I haven't spoken to in nearly a year. I wasn't able to look away.

Late night post, no one might see this, but... Thanks to everyone for sticking by me. I know I go through this every few months, and I know how exhausting I can be when that happens. For those of you that have stuck around, thank you so much. I hope I can make up for my past behavior someday.

Don't know how many people will care, but I'm making small steps towards improving! Been going to places and doing content in xiv that gave me anxiety in the past. I'm pretty sure this is how exposure therapy works x3 It's small, but I'm proud of what I've accomplished so far.

Cursed to be eepy today...😴

Mura hopes you're taking care of yourself today~🫶 #FFXIVScreenshots #GPOSERS #Au_Ra

Uh oh, my post breached containment against. Why does this keep happening to me lol

I often think about all the friends I've lost over the years, and wonder if any of them still think about me. I wonder what they would think of me now. ...I also know I shouldn't stay stuck in the past, if I can help it. I hope they're doing alright, though. Wherever they all are.

Feeling a little melancholy tonight, but I won't let that put me down ^^;

Saw a bunny while I was out walking and that made my day a whole lot better :)

Things are really starting to seem better. For the first time in a long, long time, I'm happy :)

Love getting jumpscared in a roulette because I thought I saw someone I recognized x.x

Hoping everyone has a wonderful week~!💕 #FFXIVScreenshots #GPOSERS #Viera

apologies for my previous posts. they will almost certainly happen again.

All this talk about wrecking deep blue has got me feeling very h-

deep blue could fix me

You know, it hasn't been that cloudy lately. I think I can finally see the end of the clouds. ...I think everything's gonna be okay :)

Therapy went very well! I'm feeling really optimistic for a change. I think the worst of things are finally behind me ^^

Going to therapy today. Hopefully it goes well. Wish me luck >.<

almost certainly gonna delete this in the morning but man i'd do unspeakable things to deep blue. seeing that bun drives me crazy in several different ways. anyways goodnightttt <3

Thinking about Deep Blue a lot tonight...🥴

Love spending hours trying to nap, only to not get any sleep :(

Took a full day of rest to myself after a scary morning, and I feel a little better. Turns out watching a few disney movies with friends really does help. ...even if I yap a lot. ...I really like watching movies x3

Very cloudy this morning, but I'm gonna try my best today ^^;

Another decent day. I hope to have more of them soon ^^

Taking a break~☀️ #FFXIVScreenshots #GPOSERS #Viera

Finally beat Final Fantasy Tactics last night, and I really enjoyed it! I can see why so many people love it x3

I had a better day today. I hope it stays this way.

My gposes don't do well anymore, but that's okay. As long as one person sees it, and as long as one person smiles because of it, that's all that matters to me

Let's do our best this week~!✨ #FFXIVScreenshots #Viera #GPOSERS

There's a reply on one of my recent posts that I can't see. For now, I'm going to believe it's a bot or a weird quirk of bsky. But, if it's not then I assume it's hiding someone's reply (sorry if that's the case) or...someone I blocked messaged me. I don't know if that's possible, but still...

Late night thoughts got me thinking about Erenville... I miss him so much...

Oh almost forgot to say this... I hope everyone has a great Mother's day. If you're able to, and you haven't done so already, give your mom a call. Or any mother figure in your life. I'm sure they would appreciate hearing from you.

Was gonna go on a long rant and burn several bridges, but...nah. There's no point. It's time to let things go. Please be kind to people you meet online. Be careful who you call your friends. And if you see someone struggling? Don't be afraid to extend a helping hand.

You know what, even if I got potentially triggered right now, I'm not gonna let that stop me. I've had several good days in a row. I spent time with friends and family. My mental state is recovering. I'm feeling good for the first time in months. And I'm not gonna let anything stop that feeling.

Ended up (potentially) seeing something extremely triggering and (as of right now) didn't instantly crash out or relapse. ...I think that's a good sign???

It might be time for another meet up soon...

Not to keep bringing this up since I really am trying to move on, but I've noticed my mental state has been improving a lot ever since I blocked that one person. Maybe that really was the push I needed... ...or maybe I'm overthinking. ...it might be time for bed.

I love my friends so much🥹

Don't mean to alarm anyone, but I went outside again today ^^