me: so yeah two of my current situationships and a couple of my past crushes are psych majors isn't that funny therapist: girl no what are you doing psych majors are nutcases me: .........sis so am I 😭 i love therapy

rational brain: this is a terrible idea please don't do it me: ur right rational brain: seriously it'll like ruin your life DON'T do it me: ok i wont rational brain: promise? me: sure i promise me: anyways i did it and bad things are happening how do i fix this rational brain: BITCH--

official update on how things are going: oh no

gonna try a new work schedule, working from 8 PM to 2 AM to take advantage of my disastrous night owl tendencies surely this will have no negative repercussions on my health TL;DR NIGHT SHIFT BAYBEEEEE

Yall look at this BIGASS hand fan i have it has saved me from boiling alive many times

me: i've been staying up past 4 AM every night this past week and i'm getting headaches, i think i'm gonna take it easy today me: me: me: me: ok but what if i just do some adjustments on this commission though [stays up past 6]

got this new fit yesterday, wanted to doodle it :3

wanna know something cool about my name? "Vivi" in portuguese means "I lived", and my first name Victória means, of course, victory so my name essentially means "I LIVED BITCH"

felt cute might delete etc etc Yes rejoice this is what I look like

every once in a while i come across music that hits me really hard, and i can't stop listening to it but goddamn I don't think I've ever cried so much by listening to a single song like I did with Jump Rope Gazers wtfff 10/10 beautiful song, can't listen to it anymore 💀

2mo HRT: I want big tits :( 2yrs HRT: Gender is performative. Life is one big play with no director, where some never question the roles they're given and others choose what role fits them best. I chose. I play a disaster lesbian. And my performance shall be GRAND. 3 years HRT: i love my tits :)

Spiders are one of my favorite animals, I find them so hauntingly beautiful 💕🕷

being an adult working from home is awesome because like. realistically what's stopping me from eating ice cream while i work. nothing. i can just do that. it's great

goddammit nobody told me that being demisexual also meant I'd constantly have the desire to make out with friends why is brain like that. why does it have to make things complicated

Yknow what rules? Water. Water fuckin rules. Refreshing, healthy, cleans you, improves mental health, makes up 70% of our body, important to all life, symbolizes planet Earth, feels amazing to drink cold on a hot day. Water fuckin rules. I fuckin love water. Drink water yall.

SO UH I HAVE A JOB NOW AAAAA I FINALLY HAVE INCOME AGAIN HOLY SHIT I'M SO RELIEVED

Something I've noticed about myself is that the more I'm fixated on improving on a new skill the less fun it is for me I love doing things casually, but once the pressure of getting better sets in it just becomes a chore... And I know I'm prone to being too harsh on myself too 🥲

I'm starting to like looking at my own body in the mirror actually holy shit like. damn. that's a wholeass woman right there. with growing hips and pretty hair and everything. so cool

I'm making so much progress with my workouts! Oh, my hurt knee?? Nah d-don't worry about that, look at how big my thighs are getting

she sinnoh my kanto until i hoenn

Yesterday I watched a movie called "Words Bubble Up Like Soda Pop" and the entire aesthetic made me emotional for no reason Idk, the vibe of "suburban Japan in summer" gives me such a strange feeling of nostalgia, it's like I dearly miss a life I don't remember having...

Yes I do disappear from social media from time to time what's up

holy shit I love being a woman!!!!

the people who are crushing on me are never the ones I'm crushing on, what kind of curse is this and how do I get rid of it google answers

"Why do you love spiders? You know they can't love you back right?" Can the sunset love you back? Can your favorite food love you back? Can your fondest memories love you back? We're surrounded by beauty in this world, why are you so weak and shallow as to only love expecting something in return?

my favorite quote that keeps me going no matter how shitty the world gets is "Love yourself to spite the world" Despite everything, we're here, we're queer, and we can love ourselves and each other even if no one else does 🏳️‍🌈💖

I reiterate: if any LGBTQ+ person from the US needs someone to talk to, my DMs are open We need to support each other now more than anything

(Why does a major horrible historical event have to happen LITERALLY ON MY BIRTHDAY I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD) sending love and hopes to my US friends, I'm here to listen and support yall however I can during these shitty times ;-;

I'm at a very vulnerable state right now You make me eat almost any kind of food you want if you tell me "eating this can help with getting your butt and thighs bigger yknow"

ALIEN 1979 AND ALIENS ARE STILL GOATED MOVIES HOLY SHITTT

ok yall do me a favor if I ever accept another 3D modeling job again I want you to slap me right across the face as hard as you can ffs

I cannot believe I'm saying this but I wish I could go to the gym today instead of having to work on this art thing

me: I keep the brightness of all the screens I use at minimum because my sight is really important and I can't damage it 🙏 also me: FUCK YEAH MAX VOLUME I WANT THIS SONG TO FUCKING MELT MY BRAIN AND DESTROY MY HEARING LETSGO

alright I managed to go outside and accomplish one (1) thing today! TIME TO PLAY HADES 2 FOR ANOTHER SIX HOURS HELL YEAH

"Your fitness journey is gonna take a lot of time, effort and patience. Some days you'll feel like you've made no progress at all, even though your body is changing gradually. You gotta keep at it, because you can get the body you want and it'll be worth it." OH WOW THAT SOUNDS FAMILIAR

Ayo what is happening I'm waking up early, stretching regularly, going to the gym as if I was an actually healthy person (granted I'm only doing all this bc i wanna have the fattest ass and the thickest thighs, but still)

I don't think the feeling of looking at myself in the mirror and going "holy shit I'm a woman!!!" will ever get old like yo I'm a woman!!!!!!

gay women out here sayin "omg i love women" and yet they don't love themselves smh like bitch you're women too. you're not the exception to the rule. learn to love yourself the way you love the hot women in your life. do it or you're straight

holy shit chat i thought going to the gym was cringe but it's actually based (First time exercising after a year of depression beating me down. Starting off slow but I'm proud of myself for managing to start again ♡)

just got done scrubbing all my art off twitter and I couldn't be happier! Hope I never have use that shitty platform ever again 💅

as a rule of thumb: if I post art of a cutesy couple and you see it and wonder "wait, are they lesbians?" the answer is yes. The answer will ALWAYS be yes.

My favorite Pokémon of each type and generation :) (my brain likes it when I look at pictures of pocket monsters so I redo this every once in a while)

hey, bluesky dot com, as my certified therapist do you think that growing up an undiagnosed ND only child with a crippling fear of rejection might have severely stunted my ability and willingness to interact with other people? nah you're right it was DEFINITELY those violent videogames that did it

chat I'm not feeling well today I think I'm gonna go sleep for a decade or two

due to popular demand, ya girl is still alive 🙏

sometimes the only thing that keeps me going is the thought that my continued existence makes some people very mad and that's funny as hell

so hey uh when are these meds supposed to start working i kinda need to start fixing my life like right now

Trans girl who jumpscares everyone by suddenly singing sea shanties in a really deep voice

Today was my friend's party that I really wanted to go to, but there was also: - The paul mccartney concert in the SAME area (traffic up the wazoo) - my meds making me shiver and panic - LITERAL GANGS BURNING CARS IN THE STREETS. So basically the universe was being transphobic to me today 😡😡😡

Something I love about Dragon Ball is that you can hear a fan saying some shit like "super baby 2 in great ape can totally obliterate ssj3 cumber" and mean it 100% seriously it's so stupid. i love it