why julie calling me when she's hard

^_^ nevermind!

( she's right. julie and soma get along when they aren't forced to act on their morals, but when they have to, they both stubbornly stick to what they think is right. and they both have very different ideas about what is right and what is wrong. ) i'm glad to have met you. +

to be honest it sounds kind of cool. i would rather deal with cat cults than dracula fanatics. ( he's making a mental note to try and speak with the novelist again. there's definitely more to him than he is letting on. ) hm? +

i see. ( soma sucks at socializing, it's rare for him to talk to anyone first. julie is different, always getting to know these other interesting people. he really envies her for that ability. ) he actually talked about cults with me, was pretty nice about it. told me how +

( he's making a grimace, yeah those are some weird ass food combos. do people really eat anything? ) you know, monkey brain is actually some kind of sushi. avocado filled with spicy salmon. it's kinda good. ( very misleading name. who thought of that anyway? ) +

( she's right. overthinking won't make it better, it'll usually only archive the opposite. he takes a deep breath, hands squeezing the blonde's. they're calloused with a few small little cuts, strong. warm. very pleasant to hold. ) you're right. there's much more to think about. +

( it's not like there is much to know- at least not about soma. about dracula, sure. but even then, soma wasn't able to find anything of merit out about him. alucard never talked, always speaking in riddles. it's funny, how the only one who ever was straightforward to him, was a crazed +

there's something intimidating lingering in the air.

( he's listening, and it all feels so terribly much. it's not like soma gets a lot of chances to talk about this, the people who know about his affliction tend to remain distant. he doesn't blame them. ) but what if i already am someone? and i just forgot? what if i am responsible for +

hm... ( a shrug of his shoulders, arms crossed as he chews at the nail of his thumb- gaze averted. ) i feel abandoned by him. i wish he would be at my side and teach me how to be myself. but i don't think he wants me to be myself. actually, i still don't really know who myself is.

that's okay. i'm kind of angry at alucard anyway so it's whatever.

wow. i never thought about it that way, lol. yeah, well. arikado is his human disguise. i'm not supposed to tell, but you're special.

you remember alucard?

uhm... how about some blood?

yeah, i have been for a year or two now. it's really annoying, i wasn't this sensitive back then.

oh, i don't... i don't have any. it's really gross. even the smell is off-putting.

horse milk

thanks! i wish i had something bizarre to offer in return, but it's definitely more gross than weird.

tell me about it ( *💧 ) the last time i had to deal with cult members, they didn't even listen to me. immediately started throwing hands. and you... you're a cult leader, oooorr ?

that kind of makes my head hurt, i always fell asleep in chemistry... or biology? anyway. i believe you.

you kill them...? or convert them?

sure! how exactly does wood have different flavors though?

that sounds like something i would get bullied for in school

elaborate

buuuuuut .... ?

why are there so many cults around here anyway. seriously, does nobody care about this?

sure! i mean, who doesn't go through an existential crisis when turning 18, right? haha

yeah, that's the problem. i know like.. five people.

「 yori. 」 i forgot i made soma in ffxiv, i really need to play again

ah, but they were only able to survive thanks to your interference. don't underestimate the impact you have, hm? it's good work you do.

thanks. i'm kinda careful with people offering me their blood, you know? some are... uh. weird about it.

wow! that means you're like a hero. that's so cool!

i'm sorry i don't really know how to control myself at times

i don't like being somacula it makes my friends want to kill me and i love my friends

babe you’re somacula

if you think about we kind of are all smiley fries in one big oven

why did julie repost ;-;

yeah!! yes! exactly. and, i don't necessarily have to drink blood, but sometimes i crave it so much that i can't really control myself. if that makes sense? it's kinda like- do you smoke? it's kinda like that, craving a smoke.

heck yeah

i try to avoid drinking the blood of humans. it makes me feel.. i don't know. like an animal? i dunno. not human, i guess.

soma i love you no matter how much of a flop you are

i'm sorry for being a flop

i believe in peace over violence

all good king, dab me up

dude that's my selfie you're drooling over