ngl losing my mum in such a way has made me sideeye mw3 and all that angsty death shit🧍‍♂️ my notes app will never recover and i will make it everyone's problem /j

i lost my mum last night, so i might be a bit fucked up for a while; i had to give her cpr after a cardiac arrest, which is telling enough on why. activity will be sporadic for the foreseeable future, but i'm probably gonna write so much self-indulgent angst in my notes app

#simonghostriley #codmw2 sfw ghost being the opposite of the scary manly man = unclean stereotype. ghost was dealt years of limited access to basic hygiene, his body's been broken and rebuilt past recognition, and in spite of it all he's fought tooth and nail to become his own person. again and —

#johnsoapmactavish #codmw2 werewolf soap with a mane like an aardwolf, that flares up when threatened 👀

#codmw2 #pricesoap pricesoap sounds like a stereotyped homosexual relationship lmaoo: their age gap, both have questionable hair choices that work (price's mutton chop (?) beard, soap's soul patch and mohawk combo), their weird father figure/mentor relationship, john and john 🙄 i love them

cooking up the nastiest, nichest #codmw2 throuple, i might just be booed into exile /j

i'm a bit too obsessed with monsters and masks, i fear, and it has nothing to do with october

#simonghostriley #simonriley #codmw2 sfw, monster au, trans man ghost werelion ghost who confuses the fuck out of humans because of how androgynous his shifted form is. when shifted ghost has a mane, masculine vocalisations, certain male behaviours, and protects his team from attacks like a —

#johnsoapmactavish #ghoap #codmw2 sfw, trans man ghost werewolf soap, but he's a spotted hyena :) the reason he can get very casual and insubordinate is because he's gone from a matriarchy straight into a male-dominated workforce, with most of his superiors being men. soap naturally being very —

#ghoap #codmw2 nsfw, puppy play, amputation, violence, zombie au zombie ghost, who's discovered to be conscious enough to still follow orders, but unable to speak or think like before, being kept as soap's dog. soap's unwilling to kill his lieutenant, and argues the loudest to keep him alive, so —

a lot of folk have a display or nickname that their followers call them, and it makes me grin everytime i think of someone calling me pathetic or pregnant really backed myself into a corner with this display name and user, and yet i will happily die on this hill 🫡

#pricesoap #captainjohnprice #johnsoapmactavish #codmw2 nsfw and what if i said trans man soap topping a cis captain price? what then? and what i said that they have a breeding kink with cis price being the one to pregnant? huh? what then??

#johnsoapmactavish #codmw2 sfw, monster au cù-sìth (fae hound) soap who still dislikes dogs. domesticated dogs don't possess the instinctual respect of the fae that wild animals do, they're a young and sheltered species, and are prone to biting out of fear. they're uncanny, dependent creatures, —

#simonghostriley #codmw2 sfw thinking about vampire ghost's death and rebirth in vernon's coffin, and how many years it would've taken him to be comfortable enough to sleep in one post-roba🧍‍♂️

#simonghostriley #könig #sebastiankrueger #nikto etc #codmw2 i need me a reverse unmasking of masked men. double it. throw a second one on. more

if you ever see my wip count go up, just know that insidious things are happening

#johnsoapmactavish #tf141 #codmw2 deity soap discovers the 141, and is so captivated by their human bullshit, that he neglects his self-imposed isolation to follow them around, just for the entertainment. the 141 obviously don't trust this eldritch horror of a stranger, but what can you do when —

#codmw2 #codoc #militaryoc desperately withstanding the silly urges to make a former nzsas oc, just for his callsign to be micro, despite being tall🧍‍♂️ someone asks why, and they get a resigned "smallest on the team", all while standing taller than said team. and what if i spend hours creating a —

#pricesoap #ghoap 💀🧼🚬 CW under negotiated kink, dubious consent (unknowing) puppy play, sfw training ghost and price conditioning soap to follow specific orders with certain whistles, like a farm dog. when he'd first confronted them, it was explained away as a logical means of relaying nonverbal —

#captainprice #johnprice #codmw2 sfw price was born and raised in rural ross-on-wye, herefordshire, and later inherited his family home. they used to have an orchard, a rather intimidatingly large vegetable garden, and a large flock of chickens and ducks. he'd worked the farm alongside his —

when i learn how to write ghoap with more than 400 words quickly, and in my "proper" style, yous are fucked /j unfortunately i've never finished a single thing in my preferred style, so a big L to my concerta prescription tbh

#johnsoapmactavish #tf141 #codmw2 firefighter au where FF mactavish is a rural volunteer, who's in the lengthy process of interviewing for a paid role within the army. during an informal interview while shown around the base, he admits to gaz that he's not only looking for pay, but to also leave —

#codmw2 #könig #tf141 i've noticed that some fanon gets confidently stated as a canon fact no hate intended, it doesn't make it easy for anyone when certain characters have uncited information in their wikis just some friendly reminders: könig and most multiplayer characters like him don't —

#ghoap misunderstandings CW talk of castration trans man soap catches price delivering a package of reandron (testosterone) to ghost, and is absolutely delighted to not be the only trans operator in their team. he finds himself actively seeking out ghost's company, much more than usual, feeling —

i always wonder if my adhd meds work. i just turned a whole loaf into breadcrumbs, and made around 2 litres of ambrosia

#ghoap #bottomghost nsfw, light pupplay trans man soap who had metoidioplasty with a vaginectomy, urethral lengthening and scrotoplasty (shown below); choosing to have a micropenis that has full sensation, without the ability of penetrative sex or peeing at public urinals. ghost, who'd previously —

Everyone saying "make weird art!" you better fucking mean it. There better not be an unspoken "but not too weird" tacked on at the end.

snippets from a #ghoap 💀🧼 monster au draft, where soap is a cù-sìth that returned to his hound form after his "death" in #codmw3 just wanted to share some of the canine body language 👉👈 this is just the first draft, but feedback would be appreciated

one of my favourite things about writing/art is stumbling upon historian discourse doesn't help my research at all, but it's fun to waste hours reading their long ass essays about woad body paint/tattoos MAYBE being inaccurate and i didn't even answer my og question about wood, life is wonderful 💐🥰

i wanted to post a little headcanon about #johnsoapmactavish with undiagnosed inattentive adhd, just an easy one or two sentences, but i accidentally started writing a full story ⚰️ over 8 posts and it's barely even started 😔 yet another fic doomed to a life in the notes app

#captainprice #codmw2 little character study about him and family CW mentioned violence john's a man who knows many people, both work related and civilians, and has found his way into many families. his veteran soldiers still call on their captain for advice. that good bloke tommy, down at —

#tf141 #codmw3 #johnsoapmactavish CW mw3, temporary character death au where everyone on the taskforce gains some sort of magical (?) ability, but they only find out what they have through trial and error. months pass as they slowly stumble upon their abilities: price can control fire and heat, —

my celtic briton ghoap au was only supposed to be a sentence long, why is over 1k words and nowhere near finished??? ⚰️ they're just commonfolk 'cause time period aus always have them as higher class, or some form of important warrior i'll bring domestic fluff peasant representation to this —

#ghoap #codmw2 CW weird genitalia talk, NSFW can't believe i gotta be the guy to suggest this, but monster or alien au where ghost has the genitalia of a female spotted hyena🧍‍♂️ human soap gets to enjoy the best of both worlds: a dick and ghussy all-in-one. freak that he is, he's obsessed with —

#johnsoapmactavish #codmw2 vampire soap, hairy tits out to the world 🙂‍↕️ this is my design

#codmw2 #cod #callofduty i like the handler/attack dog dynamic too much, i fear, i've already got 7 separate drafts, (most of them ghoap, with a few pricesoap), and i can promise more will come /ot i'm also considering crossposting longer things onto ao3, but also posting any dd:dne stuff —

#ghoap #codmw2 feminisation seems to be common with ghoap, but i can't read too much without feeling dysphoric — it got me thinking what masculisation would look like, but god, everything sounds weird "wipe your makeup off, son, it's time to go to war" what do cis guys even do? putting an afab —

#captainprice #johnprice #codmw2 #cod things that price does that others (mostly gaz and soap) find unpleasant: • rinses the sugar off of dried fruit before eating. • doesn't listen to music at the gym or while driving. • has a healthy bedtime, and willlingly wakes up at 4am. • enjoys tabbing in —

#kylegazgarrick #johnsoapmactavish #codmw2 #soapgaz 🧼🧢 gaz and soap are the type of best mates to get married and divorced, just for the bit they'll casually drop a "my ex-husband" in conversations, just to seem nuanced. they paid for a professional divorce photoshoot, which are all framed and —

#ghoap 💀🧼 hear me out. ftm vampire soap turns ghost via breastfeeding, because breastmilk and other bodily fluids are filtered blood. a more freaky version of this is piss drinking, but i don't know if the people are ready for that yet

i refuse to believe the #konig bike helmet propaganda behold the PJ helmet, styled after FAST helmets of american origin, a non-ballistic helmet used for airsoft and/or paintball: because #callofduty #codmw2 doesn't care about military accuracies, neither will i

#ghoap #josephriley CW #codmw3 death ghost au where simon's haunted by his nephew, joseph, and secretly takes care of the lad for years. when soap dies, he joins their dysfunctional family, both ghosts unwillingly to leave him alone. soap steps in to care for joseph, hugs and plays with the lad, —

scoping the level of freakiness deemed acceptable in fandom spaces🧍‍♂️someone make concrete rules, i beg, social cues are hard enough anyway. ghost is like bear grylls; in that he drinks a suspicious amount of piss for survival training, you just gotta wonder #codmw2 #callofduty #simonghostriley

no, i'm not obsessed with #callofduty #codmw2 #cod no, i haven't spent three hours researching advanced combat, non-ballistic, and airsoft/paintball helmets for the sake of arguing against #konig wearing a bike helmet yes, i am not winning

#callofduty #simonriley #bethriley #ghostbeth ? au: canon divergence CW cheating, vomit, riley family deaths pre-roba, simon has an affair with his sister-in-law while working their asses off to care for his mum, and to get tommy the help he needs to stay clean. their growing affection from —

#CoD #pricesoap all fours training, or quadrobics, is slept upon as a petplay fic mechanic i fear #soapmactavish returning from leave with the beefiest forearms, showing off his callouses in the rec, and only price knows it's because his mutt was sprinting up and down his owner's backyard all month

#CoD #tf141 monster au, but soap is the only member believed to be inhuman, despite being the only human of the group folk assume he's a canine of some kind, given his behaviours (body language, vocalisations) and a tendency to gravitate toward the werewolves in any given situation no one's got —

finding out that my #cod #oc 's callsign isn't very original, via ao3 reader-inserts — it's like the green goblin's mask is taunting me, but it's just alternate names that get stupider and stupider all these dope oc callsigns, and my cunt's over here called something like crabs or shitflat

#cod #johnsoapmactavish (take all army info with a grain of salt; varies between sites) because the irl uk army allows folk to join at 17 and 6 months, college for junior soldiers at 16, but canon says he tried to lie about his age and couldn't get into sas before 18 he either didn't have the —

the urge to share art, but the dread about family & friends stumbling upon any freaky #cod posts i want to make is 😬 to tie one's art portfolio/dream career to horny warcriminals or not? hmmmmmm