tbh social media is best when you use it for 2 things: 1) making new friends/keeping in touch with old friends, gassing each other up and having fun making jokes 2) telling politicians & opinion writers who are Just Asking Questions to step into traffic

Sighing too heavily, stare going far past a thousand yards. Feel like my body blinks and breathes slowly because it's weighing the cost of every one of those actions. Like a statue holding itself together, finally releases all that stone into dust.

Had a lil crisis last night when I went to finally practice tattooing after a while of not touching the machine. It was like picking it up for the first time again and I just felt so frustrated at myself for dropping it for so long. Wrote out some long term plans to stick to, not gonna pause again.

Ooooooooo did not expect the fact Maarva in Andor season one looks so much like my late grandmother to hit like that

Fml comfort bar closed, always randomly closed on nights I could REALLY REALLY use existing in that space.

The post it's she had on the old computer case lol

I saw that thing going around again of the paintings nine years apart and just damn my heart aches for something like in my life. A comfy home you get to live in for years, someone to share that with and celebrate. Really can't get it out of my head lately.

Thing that sucks that you knew was gonna suck but even all the mental prep and thinking you are prepared can't stop it from stinging.

New years resolutions bingo

Not sure what to do

Partner tells me a thing that rings so true to my trans experience. Cis lesbians see a butch trans woman and see a version of womanhood whereas some trans women see a butch trans woman and see a failed attempt at transness.

Oh whoops the drunk doodle i made for the bar might be their new logo

Last night was rough but ended so wonderfully. Went to a cute queer bar that just opened and stayed till 4am. Took so many wonderful pics of all the amazing people I met there.

New dyke bar opened up right by me, dream come true. Spent all night drinking and took like 1000 photos. Best thing to happen while trying to forget family death

Rough night

Cough kept waking up the bun so I went to crash on couch and just ughhhhhhhhhhhh need sleep and snuggles 😭😭😭

Sighhhhhhh

If there was an goddess of butchness I do think she would be shedding silent tears eternally, slowly working away and supporting and moving forward.

I think Im gonna look for a scarification person that would do a scar over my left eye. There are so many quirks from an injury there that spawn dumb questions and it would be so nice for people to just be able to see it scarred and assume its just messed up.

If you're a cis person looking for ways to connect with the Trans Day of Remembrance, here's a list of suggestions: 1) Money. Give money to trans people. Especially to black trans people. Save the speeches and the somber memes. Give. Money. Not to the Trevor Project, to trans people. End of list.

Lost a weird number of people over the course of my life. But after transition an already high number rapidly increased and for awful painful reasons. I think today is the only anniversary/remembrance that really brings me down on the day.

Think I'm getting a little burnt out on beat you up blood you kill you kink stuff

Why oh why did i forget to get the contact info of the girl tonight that pitched a photoshoot where she is covered in spiders. I want to do that shoot so fucking bad.

For some reason lately my brain also just ends a lot of dreams snuggling different people, like that is almost every dream lately in a weird way.

puppy girl, pondering: hmm. this gives me paws.

Midnight patch making

something nice: everyone involved in this project is so fucking lovely and i'm so lucky to be friends with some of them and if you haven't you should check it out :3 www.kickstarter.com/projects/bun...

Cleaned out space in the closet to put some of our boxes away, found three swords

nice

After a week of just pure fucking stress, little sleep, poor diet, really just crashing out. Today Im finally back on meds and well rested and fed and feeling like I could fuck god idk just god damn feels good. Lets get this fucking show launched.

Found this on the AO3 subreddit, and I'm about to let it change my whole life (or at least work really hard to internalize it wrt my writing).

We just watched Girls Last Tour which reminded me of this book I read a long time ago. Grabbed a copy, time for Girls Most Fucked Up Tour.

Been getting so little sleep to that point your waking hours cannot be productive but I was stuck in that cycle of pushing to finish things which just stressed me out as I fail to finished them because I'm on zero sleep brain fog energy and in and on.

It feels like too much trans discourse i see is someone saying they like or want a thing and then someone doing mental gymnastics to figure out how that person hates them and then it reverberates forever

i think rabbits should have unfettered access to heavy artillery

This how we got Mrs Bumbleflower

My brain is an awful mix of the highest highs and lowest lows right now

welp

Well whoops spent all month crunching and I think this is the first Halloween in my life i just want to sleep or work more or fuck would give anything to just chill and watch horror movies all night.

Insomnia just kicking my ass lately. I think i have maybe five hours of sleep in the last three days and I just cannot get my brain to wind down, triple prog dose and sleepy time edible still not knocking me out 😭

Probably the person that knows me best said as a puppy girl this is what she thinks is my energy. I told her that is very sweet, but Im also not sure if those dogs get to come inside and rest and get the affection the puppies do. Which does still, seem accurate.

The kinda gay where I'm finding it hard to eat lately because no food feels as satisfying in my mouth as the person I want in my mouth

Every day I have regretted wagging down Adderall with energy drink but in the morning this thought only occurs about thirty minutes after the fact when my blood starts to boil

Can't sleep, it's either the wolf amount of stress and anxiety and deep dread of something I thought would help everything going the exact opposite direction OR OR the five black teas I made myself tonight

Hmmmm

hey i just woke up and saw this is this bad