in pain bc vittore has never been afraid of amby even after seeing him at his absolute worst. amby has described himself as a rabid animal and it was met with empathy even when the nature of their relationship was still hazy. clenches my fist

palette cleanser #oc:ambrose #oc:vittore

how much longer can you maintain this farce? #oc:ambrose

random lore: ambrose's sword is named medulia, which is derived from medulla ossium (latin for bone marrow)

btw i thought i figured this out so i literally wrote the entire thing and was instantly like “no, this wouldn’t happen like this.” i hate them

ciardha to vittore

i gave vittore insomnia bc i was like "yeah that checks out" but it's a very common symptom of ptsd, which he has... and said ptsd stems from a freak accident that literally only happened BECAUSE he fell asleep (unintentionally, from exhaustion and overwork)... 🙃

ambrose becomes very clingy at the end of his personal arc. it makes me think of those videos where an apex predator sees its favorite human and starts acting like a domesticated cat

i just realized i did this and fell to my knees... something shown only to him... (these scenes were written months apart) #oc:ambrose #oc:vittore

this aged funny

since ambrose tolerated so much from vittore early on solely because he felt accepted by him, i wonder just how much he'd let himself be subjected to as long as he feels like he can be himself. people with no self-respect are easy targets for those with bad intentions 🤕

i can't believe i never posted this gay panic/crashout ajsdhsd it was in my head for months #oc:vittore #oc:ambrose

i like how ambrose is a terrifying freak in aethervox but when i look at him in elden ring (where he originated) i realize he's one of my more normal ocs there. just a pureblood knight who wants to feel something. nothing to see here

we're halfway through june and i still haven't posted an essay about ambrose's experience with gender and sexuality (nobody has any idea just how much thought i've put into this)

i miss vittrose (they haven’t gone anywhere i’m just busy and tired)

i've been thinking about my elden ring ocs and realized i somehow don't have one for every ending. i forgot the blessing of despair ending even existed. what manner of deplorable freak would i need to make who'd realistically go down that road

vittore doing the che vuoi hand thing so frequently that ambrose "i learn through imitation" surname starts mimicking it

vittore has become one of my favorite povs to write from bc he tries to present himself as this calm and collected guy who has his shit together, but the second he becomes slightly annoyed he becomes super animated and throws tantrums like a child bsjdvghvs

scruffy guy #oc:farron

amby's evil mom eventually dies by his hand. wouldn't it be something if her last words are words of praise... that he's exactly the son she hoped he'd be... just for one last mindfuck

i don't articulate my thoughts about the darker parts of ambrose's character (it goes even beyond his childhood, powers, and capacity for violence, yes) i just sit there thinking about it like this

it's actually hilarious how i've procrastinated on finalizing ambrose's main outfit for so long that now i've drawn him half naked more times than i've drawn him in anything that isn't that slutty silk shirt

i keep taking his clothes off

imagined vittore and oboro meeting and actually laughed. premium ragebaiter x ragebaiter dynamic

the vittrose brainworms have been quiet for a handful of reasons, one of them being i have put them in so many nightmarish situations that lately the only things that i can think of are quiet, mundane, domestic scenarios. they've earned it (especially ambrose who doesn't know what that's like)

if you're interested, i'm also posting fanart on the accursed bird app instead of here (@wyrmpuff). i changed my handle here bc i post so much stream of consciousness stuff and prefer having much fewer eyes on it ajhgfdsk

(in the middle of making two designs) if i don't draw my moth dragon i'll die #oc:acerys

the cast of my more serious writing project is funny because it's 1. oc i've had for more than half my life 2. oc i've had for more than half my life 3. oc i've had for more than half my life 4. aura farmer born 5 minutes ago

drawing my og daughter again makes me feel some kind of way #oc:teira

a little tempted to go back to the new story/world i was making for this guy even if i am terrible at juggling multiple settings at once... 🥺

i've been thinking about how masking isn't really a conscious decision a lot of the time #oc:ambrose #oc:vittore #oc:luna

vittore is so kind and polite to luna that i feel like i'm writing a completely different character dghdghdh that's his daughter...

vittrose contains some kind of secret sauce bc not even aiboro had me in its grip like this and i was obsessed for them for YEARS

married couple bickering... #oc:ambrose #oc:vittore

i like the idea of amby just randomly deciding not to leave vittore's place at some point and neither of them even acknowledge it until luna asks them if they live together and they're both just like "... wait a minute"

first amby pic vs most recent im ???? WHO ARE YOU #oc:ambrose

...........ambrose

lionel is prone to a generational crashout i think. if amby wants to feel like a person, he just wants to be seen as one. imagine carrying the guilt of failing your king and losing everything only for some other society to view (and heavily propagandize) you as the perfect hero

it seems it's a "think about the golden labubu" day so here's a quick description of his gnosis #oc:lionel

lionel

i really went posts this. doesn't elaborate. leaves

i described anathema's anti-gnosis barrier as stripping/peeling ciardha's gnosis off him which has some scary implications for other emanators whose bodies are also physically altered by their own powers. it works in ciardha's favor bc it allows him to touch people without hurting them but

good grief he's naked

congrats vittore. im actually giving ambrose the muscle he would realistically have as someone who fights constantly

they have 0.5 lore crumbs and are already killing me

vittrose subplot: what if we learned how to be vulnerable and trust someone with the worst parts of ourselves... together :) ciardha subplot:

some more details about amby's self-healing abilities #oc:ambrose

i love writing the midway point of their relationship ajhsdhjga #oc:vittore #oc:ambrose

idk if it's because of some irl stress but most of my ambrose thoughts the past 2-3 days have been just the worst. all dark and violent stuff. vittore come get your mans he's being an edgelord

most normal family dynamic #oc:ambrose #oc:ciardha