Wow I’m too upset to even drink

Time to drink and play alone As always 🎶🎶

I want to do something violent to myself

It’s so vexing to have that one person whose existence stops you from doing anything drastic to yourself

I’m so tired

I feel so odd again, like I don’t relate to any of the people I know on here

Being around a pregnant woman is pure terror for me because I always feel sick around em and scared(?) of it, even if it’s a fictional character or an art or whatevs🥀 I guess I’m just scared of accidentally hurting them/seeing them get hurt? I dunno how I’ll handle this once it becomes more visible

Ew I was moots with someone like this on THIS account 💔💔 they know my struggles

“Did you get thinner??” I fucking HOPE so

Nvm I threw it all away

Are we fr gonna fight about the dishes

Hey Pal are we playign

Wrong dosagei feel so miserable. We up it then

Why did I eat more than once today, I should go throw up until it’s too late

HELP I got restricted or something on my main? My posts/replies/likes disappear when I try to post em 🙏🏻

Ah yes hello paranoia

Do I want to get so fucking high I forget my own name and the fact I even exist? Yes Will I do it? Yes

The closer Christmas is, the more depressed I feel

No perfect body by the end of 2026, I’m ending it all, because what even is the point then

I feel very out of it today

Guys omg you scared me with the sudden follows, HHS

Ahhhhnnn, I don’t feel like joking around on main anymore.. it’s been leaving me feeling so lame and pathetic recently, whawh

I’m honestly fine with people blocking and unfollowing and I don’t mind it at all when people do it to me, but it always makes me so anxious because I always expect some sort of drama out of it, because that’s the way it often was before. Even though I haven’t done anything that could give anyone

STOP touching your hair you stupid fuck, let them be fluffy and clean

If you ever think I’m acting differently from day to day, it’s because I don’t actually have a personality ✨

The day I stop anxiously touching my hair over and over and over again is the day I become happy

I don’t want to be perceived today

So so tired

Crazy it’s been months since I last saw my therapist because last time she told me I should visit several doctors and there’s this one I REALLY don’t wanna visit

I should remind myself to never expect anything real to come out from online relationships.

The day I stop loving/liking abusers, both fictional and irl, is the day I die I guess

My self-esteem is so low I act so entitled sometimes, it drives me insane

I don’t wanna change my name from ren because so many people call me that but at the same time.., hahhhhh

What if I start starving myself

Staring at nothing in particular and disassociating for days instead of actually doing all the work that keeps piling up… I am so amazing.

God bless my father and his father for the genes, I owe you my susceptibility to addiction

I’m back on my depressive shit

missing him: day ????

The urge to delete my account

I’m so fucking irritated right now, I’m almost hysterical

Oh yeah I love it when I tell a certain someone that I have or suspect I have a certain affliction and their response is either “no you don’t have it, you’re 100% healthy” or “everyone has it/gets it sometimes”???? Even with my anxiety they go “well it’s only SUSPECTED”. It’s only suspected because

I don’t need anything from anyone at this point.

I feel like everyone’s mocking me at this point

Funny how a good day can change into a shitty one in just one moment

Or I might be just clinically insane

I should stop trying to drink every day bwawhwh

It feels like once certain people become more popular and get more mutuals, they start interacting with you way less and way more with those mutuals, and you become their last option

Time to curl up and feel like shit

Sigh….

I must learn to accept people not considering me a friend and not wanting to interact with me or it’ll be the death of me 🙏🏻